Raped.

Rachel Berry was raped and decide to move to New York. She was traumatized. But she met Finn Hudson and everything changed.

I don't own any characters. They belong to Ryan Murphy and FOX.

Chapter 1: New Beginning.

Rachel's POV

I was lost.

Worse than that. I was afraid. Of everything and everyone.

Let me introduce myself. I'm Rachel Berry and I was raped. It happened 5 months ago. I was in my hometown, in Los Angeles. I lived with a friend, Mercedes, we were actress and trying to do something big, meanwhile we sang in bars for living.

But in a Friday night, when we got back home, after a little show, one man assaulted us, he put a gun against my head and made me open the door, we thought he just wanted to steal, but he raped us. It was horrible, he was tough and it hurt. So badly.

Fortunately, we could saw his face and when we went to the police station, I found out we weren't the only victims, the rapist made 10 another, with our help, we manage to catch the son of a bitch.

His name was Jesse St. James. And he was gorgeous, actually. But what he did to me, to all those women, it was unforgivable.

He was sentenced to a death penalty. Mercedes moved to New Jersey, to her parents' house, days after the trial, but I stick around and watched his execution. It made me feel a little better, but I was traumatized. I didn't speak to anyone, I only left home to work in bars or to go to groceries.

But I knew it was done, in the second that Jesse died, I made a decision.

I needed to move on, I couldn't live in LA anymore. But I didn't have a family. My 2 dads were dead, in a car accident 1 month after the rape and my mom abandoned me when I was a baby.

So I would start all over.

I sold everything, my house (Mercedes paid rent), furniture. In the end, I had a good money, so I flew to NYC and search for an loft.

I went to the 5th Avenue and found one building, a good one. In the Upper East Side. I bought the loft in the last floor. It took me a few days to buy all the furniture. I used a part of the money that my dads left for me. (Her dads were rich. Really rich, but she didn't use their money while lived in LA – while the two were alive.)

It was the first Monday after I moved when I decided to audition to a musical on Broadway. It was a small one, but it was a beginning.

When I arrived, it had 20 people in a line. When I saw that, I wanted to leave, I mean.. I couldn't win everyone. I was good, not that good. I turned to leave and bumped in something big.

"Sorry." The thing said.

I looked up. It wasn't a thing, it was a boy. A really big boy.

"No, no. I'm sorry."

"Are you going to audition?"

I shook my head.

"No, I was.." I sighed "I planned to audition, but I'm not too good, so I won't waste my time."

"Hey, you're good!"

"How do you know? You didn't even hear me sing. Or saw act. Or do anything." I crossed my arms, in defense.

"Whoa, scary stranger." He raised his eyebrows "If you are here, you must be good. That's what I'm saying."

"Oh, sorry."

"I get it, you're nervous. It's your first audition here?"

"Yes."

"Oh, that's it. Don't worry, you'll be fine."

I faked a smile. I was shocked, it's been a while since the last time I talked to someone for that long.

"I'm Finn." He hold out his hand.

I looked at his face and his hand. He realized I wouldn't do that and put his hand in his pocket.

"I'm Rachel."

"Nice to meet you."

I nodded and turned around. I was nervous, really nervous. He was making me nervous. And I didn't like it. Actually I didn't like being around anyone, especially boys.

The security opened the door and we got in. I sat alone, far from everyone. But then, Finn showed up.

"Can I sit here?" he pointed to the next to mine.

I shrugged and he sits.

"Am I bothering you?"

I took a deep breath, but didn't answer.

"Ok. I get it." He mumbled. "Sorry."

I felt really bad, he wasn't hurting me, but it was so difficult to do.. anything with anyone. I was used to do everything alone. Rachel Berry was lonely, very lonely.

"Let's begin." The director was on stage, smiling. "I thought it would be fair if everyone participate. You know, meet the contestants, seeing 'em as threats. So you make an effort, show me you really want to be a part of this."

Almost everyone in the room performed before me, and I had to say: they sucked.

Then, he pointed to Finn and said:

"Your turn."

I don't know why I did that, but I put my hand in his shoulder, making him turn to me.

"Break a leg."

He smiled and got up.

"Thanks."

I watched him walking to the stage and stood in the center.

"What's your name and which song you'll sing?"

"My name is Finn Hudson and I'll sing Can't Fight This Feeling."

The director nodded and the song started. When he began to sing, I was speechless. I've never heard anyone so good like him. He looked at me during the song and smiled again.

And I wasn't scare when our eyes met, I felt safe. I didn't know how he did it.

After him, it was my turn, he murmured a "break a leg" when he passed by my side.

"What's your name, young lady?"

"Rachel. Rachel Berry."

"Which song you'll sing?"

"Defying Gravity."

"Great song, go on."

I sang and everyone looked surprised.

"Whoa. That was so good. Congratulations."

"Thanks."

I went down the stairs and everybody got up.

"Tomorrow at 10, we'll post the list. Outside. Thanks."

I nodded and went to the door.

"Hey!" I heard someone call.

I turned to face it and it was Finn.

"What?"

"I wanted to say… you're the best singer I've ever heard."

"Oh. Thank you." I blushed.

"Well, I'm sure you got the part, but good luck anyway."

"Thanks. Good luck for you too. Bye." I waved and left.

It was a good audition and I was confident I mean, it'd be awesome if I got it, I needed the job. Soon.

And I had a feeling that my life would change. Didn't know to say if it would change for the better.