So everyone, This is my first Klaine Fanfiction. There will be more mature content later this is just the beginning.
Summary: What if Kurt didn't meet Blaine soon enough? What happens if he couldn't take it anymore and finally did the unthinkable? / What if Kurt never spied.. and never met Blaine.. until tragedy struck?
Written after Furt
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Chapter 1: Already done.
Kurt POV:
I couldn't believe it... I just could not believe it. I never actually thought that in my lifetime, that I, Kurt Hummel, would ever be at this point in which I am currently at. Oh, if your wondering what it is, let's just say there was only one way to make sure that I never had to see Karofsky again. I bet you guessed it didn't you? Suicide. I know right.. it is the lowest of the low. Many people say that suicide is a last resort and that only a coward who fails to believe in courage and how it lasts would do this, but I don't particularly see you coming up with definite solutions do I? So no, this was actually quite reasonable in my situation for the main fact that if I failed to end myself, Dave Karofsky would... and whatever I could to to myself could and would be nothing compared to the damage that that jock would do. You see.. I got him in quite a bit of trouble at school and he got kicked out for harassment.. and then the school board just decided to take back the punishment because of lack of reasoning and proof. He would be back at McKinley tomorrow, and I wouldn't. I've heard of the Dalton all boy's school and I knew that I couldn't go... for the main fact that times were hard and budgets were exceptionally low, and for another reason that I didn't know anyone there and there is nothing worse than being the new kid.
Now when I was dead, I didn't want a huge mess to be cleaned up by anyone. So, just like most I decided to overdose on pills. Finding the pills was not a really hard task because Carole had plenty because she apparently had quite the sleeping problem. Oh, and just in case if your wondering again.. well I did also stock up on some other medications that I'm pretty sure won't react well to the sleeping pills, only to make sure that the job gets finished. Ohh, and another thing I should mention is that alcohol with pills is always a bad combination, so yes, if your wondering I took them with some alcohol as well, until my body started to feel slightly tipsy.
My body collapsed on the floor of the basement. Dead weight made a extremely loud noise because I could clearly hear my limp body fall to the ground. My vision was so blurry that I couldn't see anything except fuzzy images of shadows surrounding my body. I knew that they were my family... and that is what scared me the most, the fact that I was still with them when they found me. Nobody was home when I performed the deed, so I must have been in this odd state for quite some time because last time I checked they weren't supposed to be home for over two hours after I got to the place. They were walking all around the room and pacing, I also noticed that I could not make out anything of what they were saying because there was a constant ringing noise that haunted my ears and made that nearly impossible. Finally, after what seemed like hours I was sure I let out a sigh as I was unable to see anything.
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The dream was vivid and beautiful. I was walking down a beach with my family. My father and Carole were holding hands and Finn was holding hands with Rachel and everyone was happy. That was when I realized something, and it literally hit me like a ton of bricks. This is mainly why I did it, because of how lonely I had become. The feeling that nobody would want me the way my dad wan't Carole or Finn wants Rachel. I would eternally be alone, and I don't know how I truthfully would have lived like that. As my dream went on I drifted more and more out of it and the vivid images turned into black spots and eventually all thought process stopped dead in their tracks. Not knowing what was going on, I slightly panicked and tried to remain calm, I guessed it that this was my last moment. However... it was just the beginning of the aftermath.
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