Hello everyone, this is my first fanfic for Grey's Anatomy. I don't know all the terms or any of the doctor stuff, but I have a passion for the show and am a big Mer/Der fan. I hope you all enjoy my story and review it!!
DISCLAIMER FOR THE WHOLE STORY: I DO NOT OWN GREY'S ANATOMY! I give all credit to Shonda Rhimes; also if I quote or have any of the actual conversation in here it is credited to .
Back ground info: I am starting at the beginning of season 3. They will go through their everyday lives and I will take you through all the episodes they had. Most of the same stuff will happen, but I also have my own thoughts on how I want things to go. For example (and this is the only hint you get) Rose will never be in my story! At least not how they had her in the show. Last thing, this is mostly be Meredith and Derek, I am also having Burke in here with Christina. Everyone will be in here but Meredith and Derek are my main focus. Hope you enjoy!!
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The four interns stood outside the bathroom door of the home once owned by Elis Grey. They stood there confused on how to react and help their friend, Izzie, who just recently lost her fiancé.
"Izzie. Izzie." Alex called from the other side of the door. George pressed his ear to the door to hear any response that came from the bathroom.
"Izzie, come on." Alex pleaded, still trying to get her to make any noise, just the ruffle sound of her dress that she still hadn't taken off, but nothing came. Just silence.
"She's been in there all night; we can't just let her stay this way." George said.
"Yeah." Alex said.
"Yeah." Meredith joined.
"Yeah." Christina agreed.
Everyone turned to Meredith, expecting her to talk to Izzie. She was the only one who could relate to loosing someone. For starters, Meredith never really had anyone and through out the year she had gone through some pretty tough times. It only seemed reasonable to them that she would be the first to talk to her.
"Why are you all looking at me?" she asked surprised by her roommates' looks.
"Because, you know what to do." Christina answered.
"No, I don't. She lost Denny, the love of her life she lost. I haven't lost anything like that." Meredith defended.
"What about Derek?" Alex asked.
"What about him?" she asked.
"You lost him."
"Yeah, but not like this. He's still there, anyway this isn't about Derek and I, it's about Izzie." Meredith said avoiding this conversation.
"Yeah, but you're all dark and twisty inside." Christina reminded her.
"I am not dark and twisty." Meredith said shocked.
"Yes you are, with the Alzheimer mother and the father that left you when you were five. You're dark and twisty." Christina explained.
"And the tequila thing, and the inappropriate men thing." Alex added.
"You are dark and twisty, Meredith, and now Izzie is too." George told her.
"So now I am president of people with crappy lives? Even though I don't want to be?" Meredith asked.
"Seriously, we have to do something. Someone has to go in there. We have to leave to go to work soon, and we can't just leave her like that." George said, changing the topic back to Izzie and the problem they had.
"Why don't you go bambi? You guys are best friends." Christina says.
"Fine, I'll go." George says as the rest of the roommates disperse through out the house to get ready for work.
Izzie lies on the floor, not being able to move for it hurts her too much. She was happy, she was happy twenty four hours ago. The man she loved was with her, she was happy and now she wasn't. Life sucked for her. She broke so many rules in that hospital, but it was worth it, it saved Denny. At least she thought it would, but instead it ended the same way.
She wondered what would have happened if she wouldn't have cut the LVAD wire. Would Denny still be alive? Would he still be in that hospital bed, smiling? Sure, his heart wouldn't be good but what if maybe, just maybe a new heart would come and save him. Thinking this was useless and it only made her grieving worse, but there was nothing else to do. No job, nothing. She felt pain all over her body so she just lay there on the bathroom floor, not caring about the germs or the fact that she was still in her dress from the night before. She just laid there still.
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"Hey Izzie." George says softly, walking into the bathroom and laying down next to her on the cold, tiled floor.
"What?" she asked in a daze.
"Maybe, you should…should change your clothes. Change into something more comfortable." George suggests.
"Stop it" Izzie answers curtly.
"I know, Izzie-"
"Stop it! I mean it! Stop talking. There is nothing to talk about. Nothing." Izzie answers still not looking at George this whole time.
"I am sorry." George says from next to her. He feels horrible that he can't help his friend through this tough time; he's never had to deal with loosing someone so close to him.
"Yeah, yeah me too." Izzie says still dazed.
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The rest of the group continued to get ready. Meredith and Christina headed to the kitchen to eat breakfast and make sandwiches for Izzie.
"Why are you making sandwiches?" Christina asked.
"Because, that's what you do. When someone dies, you cook." Meredith explained while spreading mustard onto a piece of bread.
"I know what to do when someone dies, I am a Jew. It's Shiva. And if we're going to do it for Denny, then we need to order in because making sandwiches is not cooking." Christina told her.
"Sandwiches are comfort food." Meredith said.
"What's wrong with you?" Christina asked, noticing her oddness all morning.
"Everything with me is fine! I'm fine! Izzie is the one we are worried about! She's the one who is lying on the bathroom floor." Meredith said defensively.
"Oh no, what did you do?" Christina asked, setting aside the magazine she was flipping through.
"Just keep in mind that what I did is very small compared to Denny dieing and Burke getting shot, ok?" Meredith asked.
"Just spit it out Meredith, I don't have time for this."
"I may have, accidentally, lost my panties last night." Meredith tells her.
"You had sex with Derek?!" Christina asked loudly.
"Shh, and yes. Ok? It was a mistake but yes." Meredith informed her.
After explaining the whole night to Christina they continue talking about the event.
"You had sex with Shepard in an exam room at the prom?" Christina asked.
"Yes." Meredith answers.
"You and Derek did it."
"Yes."
"You and McDreamy did the nasty nasty?"
"Christina!" Meredith yells.
"I'm not judging. I'm just trying to understand it. You're with Finn and he's married to Addison." Christina says.
"Yeah, he's married to her."
"What did Derek say?" Christina asks.
"He said, "Meredith what does this mean?""
"Uh! Okay, he has sex with you and he's standing there all Mc Guilty and all he has to say is "Oh…what does this mean?"…What does this mean?" she asks for herself.
"I don't know." Meredith answers confused.
"Are you going to stay with Finn, is he going to leave his wife?" Christina asks.
"I don't know." Meredith says again.
Oooooo
Back at Seattle Grace George gets assigned a job with Derek.
George hands Derek the patients chart as he comes in. The patient is bloody and her husband is next to her, worry spread across his face.
Derek reads over the chart and diagnoses it, "Sub dural laceration. She's leaking spinal fluid. Let's get an O.R. ready, okay?" he asks George.
"Yeah, I'll go book one now." George says leaving the room.
They start the surgery, repairing what is damaged.
"The clot has been evacuated, are we ready to close?" George asks.
"I just want to make sure there are no remaining bone fragments." Derek says as he is handed an instrument by a scrub nurse.
"How's Izzie?" he asks George focusing on the body part in front of him.
"As well as she could be." George answers, not wanting to provide anymore information. Derek isn't one of his favorite people, after hurting Meredith he doesn't deserve details on his friend's life.
"It is never easy loosing a patient, a little less shocking over time but never easier." Derek explains continuing his work.
After moments of contemplating rather or not to tell Derek more about the situation, he decides he should.
"Izzie was in love with him. Denny wasn't just a patient. They were in love." He explains.
Derek shocked by the information, begins to think of how he would feel if the person he loved most was taken away from him. He automatically thinks of Meredith, and loosing her. He remembers when the bomb went off the previous year and how worried he had been something may have happened to her. He was scared out of his mind that he would never see her again.
Then there was Addison, he didn't love her anymore. Their marriage had been over long ago, and meeting Meredith just verified that. He had met the love of his life when he walked in Joe's bar that night.
"I see, so then it was twice as hard. Will you tell her I'm sorry for her loss?" Derek asks.
"Yeah, I will." George says.
"How are all you and your friends holding up?" Derek asks.
George knows he is asking more on Meredith's behalf, but he answers anyway.
"We're getting through it and trying to help." He answers.
After the surgery Derek finds George in the locker room.
"Nice work today O'Malley. Hey, did Meredith go home with Izzie?" he asks.
"Yeah, Christina too. I'm headed over there now." George says picking up his back pack.
"Yeah, me too." Derek says, ready to go talk to Meredith.
George grabs the rest of his stuff and follows Derek through the locker room.
"Oh great. It's just I don't know if Izzie is up for a lot of people. No offense." George says.
"Well, I want to go see Meredith. I need to talk to her." Derek says.
"Oh." George says at a loss of words. He knows their past and how Meredith was hurt after everything Derek put her through, but he doesn't say anything.
Derek goes to open the door but is stopped when an IDC guy walks up next to Derek.
"Dr. Shepard?" he asks.
"Yes?"
"Dr. O'Malley?"
"Yeah?" George asks confused.
"I'm with the IDC, is anyone else in this room?" he asks.
"No." George answers.
"You performed the surgery on Mrs. Toussant?" The IDC guy asked.
"Yes." Derek answered.
"She and her husband were in close contact with a victim of the plague. She may have been exposed." The guy informed them.
"Which means we may have been." Derek added.
"Yeah." The guy says.
"I have to go, I can't do this." Derek said thinking of Meredith and how he needs to talk to her about the previous night and what happened between them.
"You can't." the guy says blocking him from exiting. "We're waiting on the diagnosis of Mrs. Toussant. This room is going to be sealed off until we know the threat has been contained and you're absolutely safe." The guy says.
"You're not saying that we…" George said just now finding the words to speak.
"You can't leave, you two are quarantined." The IDC guy informed them, he closes the door behind him.
"We've been exposed to the plague." George says, still not being able to understand it after a while.
"They don't know it's the plague." Derek told him.
"So the men in the while suits are just- what making a fashion statement?" George asked sarcastically.
"No, it's precaution. When the blood-work comes back, we'll be out of here." Derek says while lying on the bench with his head propped up by towels.
"What is the results come back and she ah- she has the plague? And we get the plague. Do we die in here? With the crappy benches and the dirty scrubs and the lockers full of old food?" George asked, not liking what was about to happen.
"There's food in the lockers?" Derek asks getting up and opening the closest one and pulling out an apple.
"Dr. Shepard, those are people's personal- that's Alex's apple." George says shocked.
Derek takes a bite out of the apple, obviously not caring that the apple belonged to the arrogant intern.
"It's just rude." George says, shaking his head at the rudeness he just witnessed.
After George got over the rudeness of it all, he also went through some lockers looking for food.
"Trail mix and warm soda, who puts warm soda in their locker?" Derek asked.
"As usual Christina is too lazy to stock her locker with food." George said after looking through her locker.
"Oh,
here. I found a ton of food." Derek said searching through another
locker.
"Granola, cookies, muffins, who eats this much?" he
asked.
"That's Izzie's locker. She ate a lot, to keep her energy up." George explained.
"Eats." Derek said.
"What?" George asked, confused as he opens another locker. Derek sits down on the bench.
"Eats, you said ate, eats- present tense, and she didn't die." Derek explained.
"Feels like she did. She's never coming back. I don't think she'll ever be the same." He added.
"Yeah, well there are moments. Moments in a split second and your life changes forever. Before you know it, you're somewhere else." Derek said, explaining from personal experience.
They see Richard come over to the plastic sheet and George runs over to hear what he has to say, hoping to get out.
"Can we please get out of here?" George asks.
"No." Richard says.
Split second Derek thinks to himself. He begins to think about Meredith and how much she changed his life in a split second, starting with the first time they met.
-Flashback-
Derek sat down at the bar and saw a beautiful woman seats down from him. He hears the bartender talk to her and listens in.
"Straight tequila, really? You are going to be sorry in the morning." Joe says pouring her a drink.
"I'm always sorry in the morning, but tomorrow I start my first day at work, so keep them coming." She says taking back the drink and smiling.
Derek decides to walk over.
"How are you doing?" Joe asks him as he stands next Meredith.
"Double scotch single malt please." Derek orders.
"So is this a good place to hang out?" he asks her with a smile.
"Uh, I wouldn't know. Never been here before." She says, feeling uncomfortable.
"Oh, you know what? I haven't either. First time here. I'm new in town. Never been to Seattle." He says blabbing on as he sits on the stool next to her.
"New job, so."
Meredith doesn't say anything, just looks ahead. Trying not to encourage the guy to continue.
"Ha, you're ignoring me." He concludes.
"Um trying to." She says turning to him.
"You shouldn't ignore me." He says with a smile.
"Why not?" she asks amused.
"Because, I'm someone you need to know to get to love." He concludes for her.
"Really?" she asks while smiling.
"Oh, yes." He answers.
"So if I know you, I'll love you." She says.
"Oh yes." He says confidently with a grin.
"You really like yourself, huh?"
"Just hiding my pain." He says as they laugh. "So what's your story?" he asks.
"I don't have a story, I'm just a girl in a bar." She answers.
"I'm just a guy in a bar." He responds.
End of flash back
Derek smiles to himself thinking of the memory. Little did he know that he was going to fall in love with that woman, that laugh, that smile of hers, that everything.
"That woman died. She actually died." George said.
"Doesn't mean we will." Derek said while playing with his phone.
"Is it hot in here?" George asks.
"No." Derek answers as George removes his shirt to reveal his t-shirt with large sweat patches on his under arms and collar.
"Then why am I sweating?" George asks.
"Because you're pacing." Derek answered bored.
"My pulse is rapid." George says while holding his fingers to his wrist.
"Because you are still pacing." Derek says.
"Can you feel me?" George asks coming over to have Derek feel his forehead.
"No, I'm not going to feel you." Derek says annoyed.
"Seriously." George says.
Derek finally looks up from his phone, "Seriously, no!" he says.
"You know, you're an ass. You've lived, you've done things. And you got the hair and the hot wife and the beautiful ex-mistress who pined for you." George says not caring that Derek is one of his bosses.
Derek listens to George and realizes that he is an ass, but not because of the living, the hair or the wife but because he broke Meredith's heart, then he hears the last thing George said.
"She's pining for me?" Derek asks looking up.
"Not anymore I don't think. She's moved on with Finn. Anyway my point is you've lived! If you die, who cares? If I die…, what that's it" George asks.
"Callie told me she loved me and I just sat there. I mean I wasn't ready…but now I'm going to die. I'm not going to get a chance to say I love you back." George said leaning against the wall.
Derek looks at him. "Do you love her?" he asks.
"Maybe. Eventually, I could. One day, soonish." George answers.
"Soonish. I will love you soonish?" Derek asks amused with a chuckle.
"You ever tell Meredith? You ever tell her that you love her?" George asks Derek who looks sad.
Derek thinks about it. He always felt like he loved her, had wanted to say those three words whenever one of them said good-bye, or hung up on the phone but he never did. He felt it, he felt it so strong but he never said it.
"No." Derek answers.
"I did. But, I-and then with Callie, it's different, but…" George said.
Derek knew about George and Meredith. Meredith had told him and it broke his heart. He was mad at first and reacted the wrong way by telling her she was a whore, but then realized he caused her to do that.
"You should tell her. Even if it's soonish. You should tell her before its too late." Derek said thinking of how he wished he would have.
"You mean before I die of the plague?" George asks with a chuckle.
"Before somebody else comes along." Derek said thinking of his own life.
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Ok, that was a long first chapter. Sorry if it wasn't very exciting and I know it was a lot of the real episode but I wanted to get it started and I wanted to follow the dialogue and script somewhat and add my own twists and stuff. I guarantee it will get better because I am going to change A LOT to come! I hope you all liked it. I will update soon, hopefully get a schedule down where I can update weekly. Thank you for reading and let me know what you think!