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Song: Stone Cold

I'm happy for you …

I stared across the room at her bare back, feeling as if my heart was being stabbed repeatedly from watching her with her.

Did I ever truly hold her heart, or were those lies?

Was I truly her first love?

Why did she leave me and what is so special about her?

Is it because I'm a dumb blonde and she's a flaming redhead?

I thought that I was the one she wanted to spend her life with; the only one she'd ever open herself up to, but I guess not – at least not anymore.

I blinked away my tears, trying my best not to breakdown at my friends' wedding reception.

Taking another sip of wine, I turned my attention away from her when she turned towards me and focused on my newly-married friends on the dance floor as they danced the night away.

I wish that it were me out there with –

"Oi, Odango!" called the very voice that I was dreading to hear.

I pretended not to hear her as I drunk some more of my drink, trying to gain some liquid courage … at least that's what I told myself since it was very much an excuse for me to drown my emotions with the burning sensation of wine.

I almost flew out of my heels when a hand touched my shoulder and a velvety voice whispered in my ear with a giggle, "You could've at least given me a hello kiss if you were going to undress me with your eyes from across the room, Odango."

I turned around, coming face to face with a beautiful woman who had midnight blue eyes and hair the same color.

My breath was nearly knocked out of me when I noticed that she had on the same pale blue tunic dress that she wore on our first date together.

Why does the world hate me?

Stifling a sob, I forced a brilliant smile across my face. "Oh, hi, Seiya. How are you? I didn't expect to see you here."

One of her perfect eyebrows raised at my statement, a smirk tugging at her lips. "Oh really? If I wasn't mistaken, my cousin just married one of your best friends today so of course I'd be here, " she teased and flicked my nose playfully.

I laughed sheepishly at forgetting about Taiki being Seiya's cousin. "I forgot about that. It has been a while since we've all been together like this."

Her midnight blue eyes shimmered with several emotions as she agreed with my statement, "Yes, it has been 9 years since we've all been together. Now we're 35 years old and finally settling … down."

My breath nearly caught in my throat as she looked at me with the same look she used to give me whenever we had our heart-to-heart interventions years ago. I wanted so badly at that moment to just reach out and embrace her, I felt like I'd just might pass out from the overload of emotions within the past few minutes.

I nearly let out a wail when she seemingly recovered from her trance, wanting her to just embrace and kiss me like she used to and tell me that it'd be us that'll be the next to marry.

"So, Odango, I've heard through Yaten that you've been working as an artist nowadays; you even have your own art gallery, " she breezily brought up, changing the subject from what could've been if she hadn't broken us.

I forced another smile, feeling as if my face might break in half from having to fake my emotions so much tonight. "Oh yes, I finally did manage to become an artist after Michiru-san snuck one of my paintings to her manager 9 years ago, " I giggled, recalling how the ocean-haired violinist had snuck off with one of my paintings by having Hotaru-chan distract me with a picnic.

Seiya laughed and said, "Oh yeah, Kaiou-san – haven't seen her for even longer years now as well. She still with the horrific Ten'ou-san and raising cute Hotaru-san?"

"Yes and no; Hotaru-chan's now 33 years old and married to my baby brother, Shingo. Oh, and Haruka-san and Michiru-san are still very much the same way as they were the last time you've seen them, even though Haruka-san's still trying to cope with the fact that Hotaru-chan's pregnant."

Seiya looked extremely amused by that new piece of information as she mused to herself, "Ten'ou-san as a grandparent … hmm … Too amusing."

"Yes it is, " I nodded my head before a thought struck me. "But what's been going on with your life? I heard from Minako-chan that you no longer sing."

An odd look crossed her handsome features before she became void of emotion once again. "I just don't see myself singing anymore; it's no longer my passion so now I work as a songwriter and producer for my old label. I even got rid of my instruments."

I mused to myself when I noticed the biggest change on her as well, "You've cut your hair too."

Seiya smirked, running her talented fingers through her new curly bob hairstyle that framed her face as if she were a Hollywood noir movie star. "Yeah, the ponytail and bangs had to go since it just didn't suit me anymore, " she stated, doing her old hair flip that she used to do when performing.

"It looks good on you, " I forced a smile, trying my best not to cry at how much she's becoming … un-Seiya-like within the past 9 years we've been apart.

Seiya chuckled and said, "That's what my wife says too, which speaking of her – there she is!"

I turned to look behind me to see the redhead from earlier looking around for most likely Seiya. My breath caught in my throat and my heart clenched at recalling the fact Seiya had just referred to her as her "wife".

"Oi, princess!"

The redhead turned towards our direction after hearing Seiya call her. Then she started inching her way over to us.

My saliva dried within my mouth at how gorgeous and elegant she was in her red and green dress compared to myself in my cheap floral number.

"Oh, Seiya, I've been looking everywhere for you. What have you been up to?"

Even her voice sounded elegant.

I held back a cringe and a sob when she threw her arms around Seiya, kissing her lovingly as soon as she got to us. I wanted nothing more than to just be swallowed by the earth right now instead of having to endure that torture, but I held steady since I was trying my best to stay positive for the sake of our mutuals' wedding.

"I spotted an old friend of mine from when I used to live around here, princess, and couldn't resist the urge of catching up to her, " she gestured over to me, smiling happily at her … wife as she turned her attention onto me.

"She looks quite beautiful, Seiya. What's her name?" mused the redhead, smiling at me while leaning against Seiya.

I really, really, REALLY wanted to vomit right then and there from how much dread that I was feeling within the course of time.

"Princess, this is Tsukimi Dango. Odango, this is my wife of 7 years, Kotone Kakyuu, " were the introductions made by Seiya.

I bit my bottom lip when I heard her call me 'Tsukimi Dango' like she did when she and I first met each other.

Making myself seem annoyed by Seiya's antics, I rolled my eyes and held out a hand with a smile. "Tsukino Usagi is my actual name; ignore Seiya's old nickname for me."

Kakyuu giggled and shook my hand. "Nice to meet you, Usagi-san. Seiya seems quite fond of you; how long have you been friends?" she inquired, her olive perfume fluttering to my nostrils

"Since junior high school, though we aren't as close as before since we lost contact with each other for the past 9 years, " I answered, smiling at the redhead.

Kakyuu's eyes widened slightly and looked at Seiya. "You lost contact with her? But how did you manage to stay in contact with other people from junior high that you knew?"

Seiya stated flatly, "Our lives just drifted apart from each other."

I cringed at her statement, willing myself not to lash out on her. "Yeah, that was it. But how did you guys meet and when did you marry each other?" I changed the subject, trying to keep myself together from Seiya's apparent indifference towards our past relationship and anything else involving us.

Kakyuu gave me a brief look of pity and replied, "We met during a modeling gig that we were working on together. She asked me out for lunch, we dated for 2 years after that, then got married in a private ceremony in the Caribbean, and now here we are with our 7th wedding anniversary coming up and expecting a baby soon." She smiled up at Seiya lovingly and rubbed at her baby bump with tender care.

I licked my lips and brushed my hair away from my face, forcing another smile. "That sounds so cool! I'm so glad that you guys are happy with each other. I hope that everything works out for you and your baby, " I squeaked out, trying my best not to cry at having everything I once dreamed of with Seiya are not being smacked into my face as if I didn't mean anything to her at all.

My eyes briefly looked down at her baby bump once again, kicking myself for not noticing before and felt my heart break into a million pieces.

Kakyuu turned her attention back onto me and started, "Are you involved with someone by chance? Married? Have any children? What's your job? And-."

"Princess, I think that it's time for us to go since you have an appointment tomorrow with your doctor and I have a lot of stuff to do after we're done with that, " broke in Seiya, her expression unreadable.

"Oh yeah! We must be going now! I'm so sorry for keeping you for so long, Usagi-san, but I'm so glad to have met you, " gasped Kakyuu, hugging me. "I hope that I get to see you again."

I nodded my head, returning her hug while eyeing Seiya as she gave us a strange look. "Me too; just be careful and take care of yourself and the baby please."

Kakyuu smiled at me once pulling away, allowing Seiya's arm to wrap around her waist. "I will. Good night, Usagi-san."

"Goodbye, Kakyuu-san, Seiya. I'm happy for you guys about your blessing. I wish you both well, " I bid them farewell with a nod of my head and we parted ways.

I ran into the bathroom, locking the door behind me before I made my way to the sink.

Splashing water on my face, I allowed myself to finally cry after so long of me having to keep up a façade since I've seen Seiya today.

It's obvious that she loves me even less than last time I've seen her.

It's also obvious that I don't even know her as well as I used to from how much she's changed over the years, but …

I looked into the mirror, puffy red eyes staring back at me while whimpers and sniffles sounded from my throat.

The biggest thing I realized is that I need to move on and finally let her go, even though it'll hurt.

I wiped at my eyes and sniffled some more with a cough.

I'll also be happy for her and Kakyuu since that's all I can do.

I just hope that my heart will be able to heal with time.