A/N: This story is actually my feelings but I thought it applies to how Bella feels about Edward so I thought I might put it up here. Tell me what you think. I have to thank Rena and her Awesome self who plays the role of Angela in this. This is set in New Moon
Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, if I did, Bella would have died
My Unrequited Love
Bella's POV
Love is a losing game
He walks away and my sun goes down.
I don't know why I got so attached
Having the love of your life say let's just be friends is like your dog dying and your mum saying you can still keep it
Love: It's just an excuse to get hurt
You threw away the only thing I had
If you want me to fall for you, you have to give me something to trip over
I put on my prettiest dress, dancing around the room, wishing you were in my arms
You led me to believe one day we would be together
Be happy with what you have in your arms, one day you may be left holding emptiness
The easiest thing is to forgive you for what you have done
The hardest this is to forget what you did
I was picking up the pieces to me broken heart, then I see you and they fell to the floor breaking even more
When I think of you, it hurts because I know you're not thinking of me
If your taking chances, know the chances you take because a broken heart is the highest price to pay
Love doesn't brighten your days
Love darkens your soul
Break ups break hearts
And broken hearts never heal
Even a small frown of yours fractures my heart
Love is the slowest form of suicide
I'd kill myself for you and you wouldn't notice
To love is to live
Waiting but crying, wanting but screaming "Why her?!"
"What has she got that I don't?!"
"I'm fine really! It only hurts when I breathe!"
In my world it rains everyday but when I met you, the sun started to shine
And then you broke my heart
And they say your body revolves around your heart and once that's broken, you can't go on living
And I cry myself to sleep at night
For the person that has hurt me most in my life
I used to live to be with you
Now I live to see you one last time
My heart is breaking and no matter how hard I try, I can't tell you how it feels
I wish I was a tear drop, so I can be born in your eyes, live on your face and die on your lips
You ask me what's more important to me, you or my life, I'll say my life any you'll walk away not knowing you are my life
Angela POV
It's hard right? Well, I don't know how it feels, but when reading and writing, it's easy to empathise. However something you should know is that it's not all that bad.
A first love doesn't always bloom.
However, if the first one wilts, the soil becomes more fertile. You crave for love, the nutrients of the first wilted flower but that makes you grow, because while looking at the old love, you meet a new one that will bloom. However if it once again doesn't, the process will be repeated until it will.
He hurt you. I can't say he didn't, but I'm not sure he meant it, I wasn't there.
Even though he hurt you, there is a saying which I love, "Scars show weakness and vulnerability, but they also mean I SURVIVED!"
The scars of your heart show that you have survived and prove that love isn't the slowest form of suicide. It makes you stronger.
A/N: So, what do you guys think? I actually wrote this down in a notebook based on my own feelings then I showed Rena and her Awesome Self (because she is my best friend) and then she wrote down what she thought about it and then it turned out that after I read the whole thing, it suited Bella and Edward's relationship, so in this fanfic, I am Bella and Rena and her Awesome Self is Angela. Read Rena and her Awesome Self's fanfics please! They are really good!
Reviews please! I love you guys 3