Why? I've always tried to write my own life, in a peaceful way not like this!
Still a question echoes in my head so much… What did I do wrong? Have I ever made an unforgivable sin? Why am I living this? I always knew, or believed that God is fair! What have I done wrong? What? As much as I try to remember my memory is betraying me, was I too young and I don't remember, maybe I should just stop wasting my time thinking and start fixing, maybe it'll help…. Just maybe, I hope!
"Bill! Snap out of it, you really should stop thinking of bad stuff you're scaring me!" Tom said snapping his figures in my face
"I'm sorry Tom, I'm just a little bit confuse, don't worry about me" I said forming a fake smile at my face, shit he's gonna notice
"What's wrong Bill! I know you, you're fake smiling!" Tom said, man I knew he'd know!
"Tom I'll tell you when I'm better okay? Now let's go already" I said grabbing my jacket
what is that?! I looked at the wall terrified! I swear I saw some kind of a shadow! I swear
"Bill!" Tom said opening the door
"Sorry" I said still confused. We went out to the elevator and Tom pressed the lobby button
"You better not do this in front of Andy! He's gonna keep yapping about it for ages Bill" Tom said in a stupid way or let's say in a Tom-lish way
"Tom I'm fine don't worry!" I said opening the apartment building door
We went down the street to the parking lot, We got in the car, Tom is driving cause I failed my driving test, Oh stop laughing! Just kidding you can laugh, anyway I'm 18 I'm still young I have a lot of time to learn driving!
"Tom what are these useless turns for?" I asked pointing at the street
"Shortcut!" Tom said smiling
"Tom! Andreas is gonna kill us for being late, so stop your stupidity cause I'd really like to be there on time and not 5 hours late!" I said
"Oh come on Bill! I used to always do that in Germany" Tom replied
"This is Canada if you don't know! Besides you used to get lucky by the useless turns you did back at home!" I said in a serious tone
"Meh! Whatever Chicken, I'll go by the map! And don't underestimate the power of Tom Kaulitz!" Tom said laughing
"Bite me!" I said laughing too
after 20 minutes or so we arrived to the café, I came in after Tom and saw Andreas sitting tapping his fingers at the table
"Sorry Andy my stupid twin tried to take another shortcut" I said pointing at Tom while sitting on the chair
"I figured much!" Andreas said laughing
"What would you like to order guys?" The waitress said to us smiling, she's nice I thought smiling
"I'd like a cup of coffee with Tow spoons of sugar and a chocolate muffin, Thanks!" I said smiling at the waitress
"And you sir" She said looking at Tom
"I'd like a milkshake and a cup of Vanilla Ice cream please" Tom said in his {Your sexy} way
"And you sir" She said looking at Andy
"I'd like some hot chocolate with a donate and ice cream, Thank you" Andreas said smiling
"Right away guys" The waitress said smiling and heading to the kitchen
"She's nice" Andreas said
"Yeah!" I said
"And hot!" Tom added
both me and Andreas looked at him in the {Stop fooling around} look
"Damn it stop it guys I'll shut up" He said
Me and Andy laughed
"Here's your order guys" The waitress came smiling
Her eyes… They clicked at mine, that Mediterranean shade of blue… Crystal, maybe my life is starting to get fixed
"I guess my baby bro is in love" Tom said laughing joined with Andreas
"Oh shut up you, Plus 10 minutes doesn't make me your baby brother!" I said
"Calm down Bill, God" Tom said laughing
after an hour we got out we went back to the car, and back to the apartment, I kept silent the whole time… What was that feeling back there? God! I swear someone wearing black appeared in the mirror! I swear! I'm not insane! Right?
I need to get out of here! I got out of the bathroom and into the living room to join Georg, Gustav, Tom, and Andreas
"Hey Bill" Gustav and Georg said
"Hello guys" I said trying to smile
"You ok?" Gustav asked
"Yeah" I answered
maybe that's it! Maybe lying to my friends about not being okay in my mistake and my life is the punishment, I need to stop thinking about this, and focus more on my music, Tokio Hotel is getting universal, be strong to handle everything now…