Hey, my faithful readers. WellI decided to post this one-shot because I heard a sad song and I thought I would make this one-shot a songcif. It is Inuy/Kag, but it is quite sad. If you don't want to cry, don't read. Or do, I'll try to make it good. But anyway I hope you like it.

One-shot song fic featuring a sad Inu/Kag.

Dislaimer: I do not own Inuyasha, nor do I own the song, "That's What I Really Meant To Say." It is sung by Cyndi Thompson.

"That's What I Really Meant To Say"

She walked slowly and deliberately down the dismal streets, not even bothering to wipe off the rain falling so ruthlessly as it beat down upon her face and drenched her once, nicely pressed shirt and pants. No, the rain couldn't hurt her. Nothing could except for the painful secret she kept inside her soul, buried so deep she knew no one could ever penetrate it.

She was staring blankly ahead with unseeing eyes, never noticing the silver and red blur that spotted her as she seemed to ghost over the brick road. The figure smiled slightly at her before walking up behind her.

"Hey, Kagome."

It took me by surprise,

When I saw you standing there.

Kagome's eyes widened, before slowly turning to face the one person who she had no will to face as of now.

But even so, she found herself looking deep into his golden eyes. "Inuyasha," she replied, not even bothering to shower him with her normally cheery attitude; just a small smile that never reached her eyes.

He was standing there drenched in rain, but even that did nothing to defuse his gorgeous looks. Looking handsome as ever, he was wearing a red muscle shirt, black jeans and a black leather jacket. His long silver white hair traveled low down his back, just gently brushing his butt, as the rain slithered down his face and neck.

Kagome gulped, swallowing the painful lump in her throat at his proximity.

But, oh god he was so close to her she just wanted to touch him, as she allowed herself to trail her endless blue orbs uponthe once-upon-a-time love of her life.

Close enough to touch,

Breathing the same air.

"So, what's up Kagome," he asked. "You doing all right?" He was smiling that cockysmile of his, the one that sent her stomach all aflutter with feelings she had never gotten used to in all the years she'd been with him.

She couldn't help it, letting a small smile grace her lips. "Yes, I'm just fine," She responded softly

You asked me how I been,

I guess that's when I smiled and said, "just fine."

His smile grew wider, boyish even. They stood in silence, Kagome feeling the slight strain she always felt around him these days while he continued to look oh so utterly happy. Yes, he looked happy. Her heart shattered again. And she struggled endlessly for something to say to him. What she really wanted to say. But for some reason, the words wouldn't come.

Oh, but baby

I was lyin'.

"So how is Kikyo?" Kagome asked, her voice betraying none of the pain she was feeling. Wait, that's not what I wanted to say.

What I really meant to say,

Was I'm dyin' here inside.

And I miss you more each day,

There's not a night I haven't cried.

And baby, here's the truth,

I'm still in love with you.

Yeah, that's what I really meant to say.

"Feh! The woman won't stop complaining. Day and night she sends me out for more food as her cravings are getting worse and totally disgusting," he said this with a grimace, but Kagome knew. She could hear it in his voice, hear just how much he was in love with...his wife. Kagome's heart nearly bled into tears as her face once again betrayed nothing of her inner turmoil and never-ending pain and suffering.

"Yes, but, when it's all over, it will all be worth it," She replied politely.

"Feh!"

But he was smiling on the inside, while she...she was crying.

Inuyasha's smile was quiet and serene this time, and Kagome knew he was thinking about...about her.

"Well, Kagome, I've got to get going. Kikyo has a doctor's appointment and I'm supposed to be picking her up right about now."

"All right." Wait...no. That wasn't it either.

He gently pulled her into a friendly hug, and Kagome felt the whoosh of rising heat and tried to control her body and feelings, only allowing herself to soak up these last few moments in her old lover's arms.

He pulled away, smiled at her again, and began ambling down the street whistling a sweet, happy tune.

And as you walked away,

The echo of my words,

Cut just like a knife,

Cut so deep it hurts.

Oh god it hurt; Kagome clutched her chest trying for all her might to gain the strength to hold in her failing composure. How could he just leave like that without knowing her feelings for him?

"Inuyasha!" she blurted out before realizing what she'd done.

Up ahead, Inuyasha turned at the call of his name, but Kagome ducked around a corner just in time to conceal herself where he couldn't see her. She watched as he shrugged his shoulders and turned back around continuing blissfully on his way.

I Held back the tears

Held on to my pride

And watched you go.

I wonder if you love me.

Kagome was now choking on her tears, reigning in what little pride she had left. No, she could never tell him. He would never know; never know how she'd cried his name for nights on end, never know how much she wanted to be the one in his life, married to him and carrying...his child.

What I really meant to say,

Was I'm dyin' here inside.

And I miss you more each day,

There's not a night I haven't cried.

And baby, here's the truth

I'm still in love with you.

Yeah, that's what I really meant to say.

Yes that was how it was going to be. Although she just wanted to crumple inside and break down all her barriers and run after him, to correct him on his mistake, to make him understand, to make him love her again. Oh, God, Inuyasha, how can I be strong without you with me? I'm dying without you; can't you see that?

What I really meant to say,

Is I'm really not the strong.

No matter how I try.

I'm still holding on.

Here's the honest truth,

I'm still in love with you.

Yeah, that's what I really meant to say.

Kagome closed her eyes and peered around the corner again, watching him walk away from her for the second and last time as his wife came out to greet him and kiss him lovingly. She watched him, before turning away.

That's what I really meant to say.

Kagome looked to the sky, closing her eyes allowing her tears to flow freely now, combining with the wind and rain, and creating her own sad world.

"Inuyasha, I love you," she whispered brokenly.

"That's what I really meant to say."

So, what did you all think? Was it good, bad, terrible? Well, respond and tell me what you guys think.

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