How You Sleep – Johnkat
Starts in Karkat's POV, then goes to John.
You're currently laying on your bed, in your comfy clothes, ready to fall asleep, but dammit, something is bothering you.
"John."
"Hm?"
"John."
"Hmmmm?"
"John, can you fucking stop kissing me, I'm trying to sleep."
John giggles and doesn't stop. You flip around to face him and push him away from you.
"I know this whole relationship thing is new and all, but I'm not going to fucking cuddle you like I can't be separated from you. Now go to fucking bed before I hit you. You're too close."
"But you-"
"No! Not hearing it. My ears are closed my eyes are closed my fucking mouth will be closed if you stop kissing and hugging me and then everything will be fine now please GO TO FUCKING BED."
You flip back around, expecting your requests (demands?) to be met, but almost immediately you realize that they're not. He's kissing you again, your neck and your cheek, anything that he can reach from being behind you. His hand is on your hip and massaging it, and it actually all feels really good. But even though it all feels really good, and something inside you is purring a pleasurable yes, your brain is hijacking that pleasure and dictating to it one simple word.
"NO."
"What?" John asks as he kisses your ear.
"No no no no no! I refuse to fall into your trap John Egbert," you say, turning back around so you're facing him. "I want to sleep, and you must know that this is a very rare occurrence, so for the love of gog, and my sanity, and your head, let me sleep."
"You didn't cuss in that sentence," John smiles.
You groan loudly and throw your hands up in the air, barely missing John's head. "HOLY FUCK! YOU JUST DON'T FUCKING GET IT! We've been sleeping toge- next to each other for the past week, you should know how hard it is for me to fall asleep! And now, at this moment, I am so fucking ready to sleep but noooooo, you're keeping me awake with your kissing, and hugging and FUCKING TOUCHES AUGH-"
You continue the rant and had stood up in the middle of it, now pacing, and you don't notice the slight frown on John's face, and you also don't notice him trying to interject a word between your own.
"But Karkat-"
"-AND YES, OKAY, I LIKE IT BUT IT DOESN'T FUCKING MEAN-"
"Karkat, don't you know you-"
"-FUCK SHIT UP, JUST BECAUSE YOU-"
"Karkat! Don't tell me you-"
"-UN-FUCKING-BELIEVABLE-"
"Oh, never mind!" You notice John flop his back onto the back and roll over into a ball, his regular sleeping position. You pause at this, wondering if you did anything wrong, if you should ask him what happened or if it's your fault. But no of course not, it's his fault (right now at least) and you know what, it's finally time for you to get some sleep. So you climb back on the bed, curl up on the opposite side of John, whom has his back to you, and close your eyes, deciding to let this situation go until it comes up again, which it probably will.
XOXO
You hear the whimpering again. It starts out soft, but Karkat can't really stay soft for long in any situation, so it steadily gets louder. You open your eyes fully and turn over to face Karkat, whom is now hugging his legs to his chest, body shaking and eyes shut tight from whatever nightmare he's currently having.
You move forward and place your hand on his hip. You kiss his neck, his chin, wherever you can reach, until his whimpering settles down and the shakes have calmed. This is what you do every night. This is how you wake up every morning.
And it doesn't matter if he doesn't remember why this happens, or that it happens at all. You'll still do it every night if you have to.
You'll hold him close, you'll wipe his tears, and you will definitely, always, kiss away his fears.