Going in Circles

Hi! This is another one of my brilliant creations. Even though people don't think that my others are all that great... anyway I really hope you enjoy this fic!

AU

Prologue

I sit there with the child cradled in my arms. I lower him into the warm water. He doesn't deserve this kind of life. I can't have him suffer through all that I suffered through. So that's why I have to do it. I have to kill my own son. It's the only way I can free his life... and mine.

My heart aches as I lower him in further. He starts to fuss, he doesn't know what is going on, but he knows whatever it is, it's not good.

The water just about reaches his neck and my tears start to shed. They land on his little 2 month old fragile body. I'm really starting to cry know, so much that it hurts. I feel so guilty, but it's the only way. Either that, or I can have him be beaten to death by them. It's better for me to kill him anyhow.

I close my eyes as I lower his head in all the way. I couldn't stand the look on his poor little face as he struggles to breathe.

I can't help it; one of my eyes opens slightly and I see his face horrified. His eyes filled with such fear and anguish. His mouth is open, he's trying to cry, but his tiny mouth fills with water before any sound comes out.

I can't stand it. I lift my baby out of the water and cradle him to my chest. The poor child, so frightened and confused.

"I'm so sorry! I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Sorry!" I keep telling my son. No matter how many times I say it, I still fell as guilty as I did before.

"I couldn't do it, I should have, but I just couldn't do it I'm so sorry my baby." I cry as I hold him. He is still bawling his eyes out. And I am doing it just as hard as he is. We do this for awhile, comforting each other.

"You are sorry for what?" questions an older male who is a ways away from me. He must've been there for quite some time.

I look up to see my master standing there. I look at him with my tear stricken face and still blurry eyes. My eyes turn to anger. I don't answer him, I just look at him the way I always have: disgusted with him.

I get up and leave my position in the bathroom. I have my back turned to him. I've been giving him the cold shoulder ever since we met.

END

Confused?

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