Will you, walk me
To the edge again
Shaking, lonely, and I am drinking again
Woke up tonight and no one's here with me
I'm giving in to you
After four years of this crazy rollercoaster ride, I, Jude Harrison, have given in to him. For once in the 5 years we've known each other I feel like I can't get hurt, he won't hurt me, not anymore. It could be the fact that that I am now old enough, or the fact that we've finally noticed there's not much holding us back, only the little things. Like the fact that my step-mother doesn't like him or the fact that at any moment something could come up, like it always did. Our relationship was never perfect, we've tried it before. It never worked, but this time I'm making something good out of it. Like the fact that when we're together I feel different I feel like complete, and when he's gone, I don't know, I guess I'm just lonely.
Take me under
I'm giving in to you
I'm dying tonight
I'm giving in to you
Watch me crumble
I'm giving in to you
I'm crying tonight
I'm giving in to you
I can't believe that I'm here right now with him, safe and yet extremely vulnerable. When I'm with him it's okay if I cry. He's my comfort. When I'm with him I don't feel the need to crumble or cry because I know it's going to be okay. I know I'm going to be okay with him. When I'm with him I feel loved.
Caught up, in life
Losing all my friends
Family has tried, to heal all my addictions
Tragic it seems, to be alone again
I'm giving in to you
When we're on the phone we talk for hours. I get so caught up in him sometimes. It never used to be like this, I never used to need him so badly. Maybe I don't really need him; maybe I just want him here with me, forever. My sister and step-mom don't support my decision to much. They think he'll break my heart… again, but the way I talk about him, I think it makes them think about it a different way. I think the way I say he is makes them trust my decision. Even though my step-mom and Sadie think it's cute that I talk about him so much, my best friend Jaime doesn't, he thinks there's something wrong with me. Like I have an addiction or something. Maybe he's just jealous though because it was so obvious that he liked me, like more than a best friend should, but I keep that in the back of my head. I really don't even usually talk that much about tommy to him anyways only when it's something major because I can tell he would care less.
I look forward, to dying tonight
Drinks 'till I'm myself, life's harder every day
The stress has got me
I'm giving in
Giving
Giving in, NO!
So now as you can see I've finally given in to him, I've given in to Tom Quincy.
Take me under
(I'm killing all the pain)
I'm dying tonight
(I'm sick of all this pain)
Watch me crumble
(I'm killing all the pain)
I'm crying tonight