The first time Maura realized she was in some serious trouble with the love affair she and her best friend were having just so happened to be the first time Jane stayed the night. Well Jane had stayed over all night before but not since they started sleeping together. She was lounging on her couch with a glass of red wine watching the history channel when a knock interrupted her relaxation. Maura looked through the peep hole to see Jane who looked exhausted. When Maura opened the door she saw that Jane wasn't alone standing next to her was a four year old mini version of herself, right down to the olive tinted skin and dark brown eyes.

Jaxon held his mothers hand and leaned against her hiding half of his body behind Jane's long legs. She smiled at the other women and then turned her attention to Jaxon.

"Hey, Jax those are a very nice pair of pajama's you have." she said pulling lightly at his dinosaur covered shirt.

"You bought them for me." Jaxon laughed as he stepped from behind Jane's leg.

"Yes I did didn't I?" She grinned at him and stood back up.

Jane looked at her for a long moment before she spoke. "Are you going to let us in?" Her tone was one of amusement.

"Oh yes, of course I'm so sorry Jane."

Jane just smiled and leaned in, for a brief moment Maura looked down at Jax and panicked a little but Jane only kissed her on the cheek before she stepped past the threshold fallowed by her son.

"Do you mind if he sleeps in your guest room?" Jane asked biting her lip. She felt like she was intruding on Maura, she hadn't even called the other woman to see if it was okay to bring Jax over. She wasn't to sure about the norms of an affair but what little she did know was that bringing your son to the house of your lover was a no. What else was she supposed to do with him though? She wasn't the type of mother to just throw her kid on her family constantly.

"Not at all." replied Maura.

Jane nodded, picked up her son and headed down the hallway to the guest room. Maura busied herself in the kitchen while Jane put Jax to bed. Fifteen minutes later Jane came back into the kitchen and gladly took the glass of wine Maura offered her and sat on down on the couch so close to the blonde that Maura could feel the taller woman's body heat. Silently she told herself to keep it together, this affair was just sex between two friends and nothing more, a way for Jane to escape from her horrible marriage. And a way for Maura to release a little tension.

Jane leaned in and brushed her lips against Maura's. "I've missed you." Jane mumbled as she sat down her wine glass as well as Maura's. The next time Jane's lips met Maura's she applied more pressure pushing her back until Jane was on top of her.

"Jane, your son." gasped Maura as Jane's teeth sank into her neck. She couldn't just let Jane fuck her on her couch with a four year old in the other room.

"Seriously? Maura Jax is who you are thinking about right now?" Jane sighed and fell to her side so that she was laying next to Maura. She brushed a hair out of Maura's eyes and trialed her fingers down the side of her face.

"You're so beautiful." Jane whispered as she pressed a chaste kiss to the other women's lips. Maura's breath caught at those three words it wasn't often that Jane called her beautiful, sexy yes, hot definitely but only beautiful once.

"Tell me what happened."

Most nights when Jane showed up at her doorstep, she and her husband had gotten into a fight or he was out of town but tonight there had to be something more to it. She had never brought Jax with her, never it was sort of an unspoken rule for her.

"I just… needed to see you." Jane sighed but when her voice broke Maura knew there was more to it.

"Talk to me Jane before anything else I'm your best friend no matter what."

"Just another fight ya' know? It's all we ever do he hasn't spoken a civil word to me in months Maura." She took a deep shaky breath. "If it wasn't for that little boy in there I would leave him and never look back but a boy needs his dad. He doesn't deserve to grow up without a family Maur but I don't know how much longer I can do this."

"What Jax doesn't deserve Jane is to be raised in a household with two people who can't sit in the same room as one another without saying something nasty."

"I know Maura I know that trust me you don't think I don't see the look in his eyes when we fight? He's terrified but it's not that easy to end a ten year marriage. I've never in my adult life not been with Vince."

"But it's easy to fuck me after the two of you fight." Maura asked unable to hide the bitterness in her voice. She looked away from her lover and told herself not to cry. Crying right now would not make anything better.

"Don't… Do not say it like that."

Maura sighed. "It's what we do right? We fuck Jane."

Jane's hands found there way to either side of Maura's face, she gently stroked Maura's cheeks with the pads of her thumb. "It is so much more than that Maura." she let out a deep breath and kissed Maura's forehead.

"What we have is so much more than that."

"And yet you stay with your husband."

"For my child! It's not just me I have to worry about Maura it's Jaxon as well. For all of Vince's flaws he is a very good father."

"What are you so afraid of Jane?" Maura asked quietly all signs of bitterness gone from her tone she could tell this was something that tormented Jane frequently.

"If I leave him what if he doesn't want anything to do with Jaxon?" Asked Jane biting her lip.

Maura ran her arm down Jane's back pulling her tighter against her. "You just said yourself that Vince is a good father honey."

"He is… it's just I know he's having an affair Maura…"

"So are you." Maura pointed out interrupting Jane. After a short glare Jane continued.

"And he's become distant with Jaxon he barely looks at him. He I used/I to be a good father not so much anymore."

Maura nodded, "Okay I get it I won't pressure you to leave him anymore… I know I'm just your mistress."

Jane growled softly and rolled over so that she was on top of Maura intertwining their hands above Maura's head.

"You are so much more than that." She said kissing Maura hard when she pulled back Maura gave her a small smile.

"Yeah like what?" she asked quietly if Jane didn't know her so well she would have missed the hint of insecurity her tone held.

"Like you're my best friend." started Jane which made Maura's face fall a little and she scoffed.

"Let me finish." Replied Jane in a sing song voice. "And…" She paused taking a deep breath.

"And I love you."