"Who was I before I met you, before I had you in my heart. Where was I when you weren't by my side lonely and lost in the dark. Now it's the hardest thing I'll ever know, learning to let you go"
I picked up Erica's photo. There were so many things I didn't get to tell her before she walked away. How much I loved her, and how sorry I was for all that I put her through. She deserves so much better then me… but I want her to come back so badly. She taught me so much, she changed everything about me, she made me meet the real me. She changed my life in the best way possible.
"And I thank you everyday for all you gave to me, for saving me. For the strength to carry on. And when I close my eyes I feel you close to me, still holding me, even though your gone. And every night, I leave the light on"
To much time has passed since I've seen your face. Held your hand, or had the comfort of my best friend. I miss you more every day. I miss every detail about you. But your bright blue eyes could haunt me every night in my dreams. We could have had kids with eyes like that… But I cant cry because I pushed you away. You deserve to be happy with someone else and I bet you are. No one would ever pass up the chance to be with someone as amazing as you
"Days go by I'm here without you. I'm missing all the things we shared. But I wont cry I will not worry about you in my heart you'll always be there. Can you hear these simple words I say a million miles away?"
You changed me for the better. I deserved everything I got when you walked away. I deserved all the pain. I hurt you so I deserved the tears that you had me crying. Erica- you will always be my best friend, and the only person I would want to be my lover. The only person I could ever lie in bed with. I don't deserve you but I'd love for you to come home. Back to me.
"And I thank you everyday for all you gave to me, for saving me. For the strength to carry on. And when I close my eyes I feel you close to me, still holding me, even though your gone. And every night I leave the light on"
Everything about the way I freaked out when we were together should prevent you from coming back. Your to fucking brilliant to come back to me. But I will always remember you as the love of my life. The one who got away.
"Just to remind me"
Come back Erica please!
"I dream you'll find me once again"
Just look for me in the dark. My light will always shine bright for you. Only you.
"To lead you home. Where I am waiting"
I will never love someone else like I've loved you. Forever and always you.
"And I thank you every day for all you gave to me, for saving me. For the strength to carry on. And when I close my eyes I feel you close to me, still holding me, even though your gone. And every night I leave the light on…,"
Song credits: Leave The Light On by Sara Ramirez