Just one curse warning for you kiddies reading.
I never realized you were like oxygen, thought you were harmful CO2.
I never realized that your pigtails were a bit uneven when you ran and they swung, left and right, as you forgot your homework in your desk in home room and I didn't have enough heart to tell you you forgot it.
I never realized that when I kissed you that night after the group date that you smelled like flowers and that your left nostril is higher than your right by a bit and that your breath when I kissed you was hushed because you didn't know I loved you.
I wish you would have known.
Or the time that I pretended to be your boyfriend so that those girls would leave me alone.
I never realized how skinny your arms were and how your ears get just as red as mine when you're nervous or how every girl wears the same uniform to school yet I think it suits you the best or how I can't stop thinking about you because every time I sit next to you in class my heart is beating because this girl eats like crazy and I'm in love with that.
Man I wish you knew.
Or shit, the time when you asked me out.
I never realized how you sweat so easily when you're flustered or how one of your socks always manages to fall down while the other stays up, like you're wearing two different socks or something, or how your eyes are so big and beautiful when they capture me in them, and I'm so lucky to be caught, oh that day I was so lucky to be caught.
But most of all, I never realized how a kiss could feel when the girl you love is in your arms after having a better guy trapped in her head for so long, thinking that he was the one and that he would love her forever and she would make his life like the lottery but he bankrupted her heart and now this girl came running back because she finally came to terms with what her head was telling her, because that heart came to concordance with that head, and now they were kissing on the floor because that guy kissed her after that group date and professed his love for her at an aquarium. And that guy was me, locking a woman in his arms whose pigtails he dreamt about and whose positivity made him throw up. Yeah, this is the girl I want.
I wish I realized sooner.