Title: The Game

Pairing: Remus Lupin & Sirius Black

Rating: M – for obvious reasons

Genre: Angst? Eventually romance? :)

Length: unknown…

Disclaimer: characters are not mine. Credit goes to JK Rowling for creating such wonderful beings

A/N: my first RLxSB fic. Be gentle

Summary: "Let's play a game," You whispered. "the one who falls in love first is the loser."

0-0

I knew being your friend has its perks. Being close to you was enough for me. Being the one who made you smile was all it took for me to keep this affection I have for you. Call it an obsession if you may, but it was an obsession that quickly turned to love.

For four years I harbored that nagging feeling. For three I pretended it wasn't you that occupied my mind, for two I kept that secret to myself. Not until Lily finally said yes to James.

"She said yes?"

Your eyes betrayed everything your heart desired. Oh yes, I knew your affections for James ever since you confessed you were gay fourth year of summer. But despite your efforts, James remained oblivious. Even now.

"Unbelievable, I know!" James smiled more to himself before clapping his hands on your shoulder and squeezing. Yet you remained shocked as if you weren't expecting this. "There I was, sitting in the common room, just thinking about her when she appeared right in front of me. Obviously she couldn't stand my charms."

I smirked under my palm. That comment alone would have had you laughing, but you weren't.

"Well that's good then, isn't it?" Peter said from across me. "I mean, your efforts of wooing her finally paid off."

"Ah, that's the beauty of it, my friend." James ran to Peter's side and draped an arm around his shoulders. "At first, I thought she was going to kill me for placing another letter in her Transfigurations book, but instead –"

"She said yes." You finished and I looked at you.

James beamed, gesturing as if your comment meant the whole word to him, which it did. "Exactly! Oh, merlin… I'm…I could die right now! What say you Mr. Mooney, been awfully silent."

Caught. "I…well, I…uh…" I looked from him to you, but your eyes remained to be staring at something far more interesting, like that someone in front of me. I let out a soft sigh and smiled. "Well, I'm glad it worked out for the both of you."

James beamed once again and clapped Peter on the back. "Well, Gents. I hope the kitchen has something special stored for us for this special occasion. C'mon , Pete, today we're celebrating my ultimate success."

Once the two were out of the room I turned to you and I felt my heart breaking slowly.

"Siri-"

"I'm fine." You answered almost instantly and sat on Peter's bed.

I wanted to sit by you, hold you in my arms and whisper everything you wanted to hear, soothe your troubles and pains and told you 'I love you' and that's what mattered. But against my better judgment, I didn't. instead I walked to where you were and looked at you, acting all cathartic by not saying anything.

"I'm fine, Moony."

"I know."

You looked up at me and smiled but slowly, it started to fade before it even began.

"Don't look at me like that. Merlin, I'm not a fucking bird that cries over unrequited love."

I nodded and answered. "I know."

One moment you seemed shocked, dazed even, then the next your eyes filled with tears, almost as if a dam broke from behind your eyes and you sobbed into your palms. All I could do was stand there and watch you cry. I wanted to hold you, I really did, I knew exactly what you were going through, I felt the same thing every single day I saw you and James together. Unrequited love was a necessary evil. Without it how did we know to correct what we thought was so right?

You flopped onto the bed and placed your arm over your eyes. "I love him, Moony. I love him."

I felt like crying as well.

"I know."

0-0

That night, I lie awake, staring up at the canopy while I listened to the sounds Peter and James made while they slept.

I was still shocked beyond belief at today's earlier events. That was the first time I saw you cry. After what that, you told me you wanted to be alone. So I left you to go to the common room. James and Peter shortly after that and invited us for treacle tart. James was about to get you from the rooms but I told him you were otherwise engaged. He made a face after that, complaining that you'd rather spend the time with some bint or bloke than with us Marauders.

I went back as soon as possible to check on you. As funny as it sounded you were alone in the room on a Friday night, cooped up in your bed with the curtains drawn. The two would have been suspicious.

I sighed and shifted to my side. Gods, Sirius, if only I knew anything to make you happy, I'd do it without thinking, even if it means losing you to James. My eyes started to prickle at the thought.

It was half passed two when my eyes started to feel heavy; suddenly I heard your curtains draw back. The sound of foot against the stone cold castle floor drew closer towards me. I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep but I feel you standing there, hesitating, until my curtains were pulled apart.

"Remus."

My heart pounded loudly against the hollow of my chest. Dear merlin, I swear you could hear it from where you stood. I still pretended to sleep.

"Remus." You hissed and shook my leg.

Without waiting for an answer, you got on my bed, drew the curtains and muttered a silencing charm. And I woke up.

"Sirius? What the hell - ?"

I got up to look at you absurdly, but what happened next caught me off guard.

You tackled me to the bed and held my hands above my head; you moved closer until our noses were touching. Merlin, you were so close I could smell you…firewhiskey?

I started to panic. I struggled underneath you but you were so much stronger than me. In one swift movement you straddled my hips and had my wrists held with one hand, your other hand touched my face, my jaw, my neck, my chest.

"Hey," you whispered. "let's play a game."

I shuddered at the huskiness of your voice. I felt it vibrate through my body and straight down my navel. I bit my lower lip to stifle a moan.

"The one who falls in love first is the loser."

My eyes shot open. Oh, God. This is a dream. Just a dream. Just a –

I felt your lips press firmly on mine.

A/N: ohohoho… there you have it folks! A cliffhanger perhaps? quite short i know. This is unedited by a beta if you must know, notice the grammar? Hahah please I need a beta! Hahah anyways I got the inspiration for this story from a dialogue from a manga that I found in tumblr… yes and ever since that faithful encounter I couldn't stop thinking about how nice it would make as a line in an angsty fic. Hahah and I'm absolutely fond of Remus and Sirius as a pair. I just absolutely love them. This is the first fic that I hope on finishing (since I plan to make it really short and all) but yeah.

Read and review folks! Hahah I thrive on reviews. And let me know if I should continue this. Hahah I might just end it right here. Heeheehee… beg for it… C'mon I know you want to. :)

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