A/N: sooo... this in my first FF with some chapters... ( I know the others are just OSs) I hope u will like it. and pls write me an review. For telling me if u like it or not. also for telling what I could make better! and for telling what u think this could happen at next!

Now enjoy reading it!

Jo

It was two weeks ago as they quitted their jobs. McGee, Tony and Ziva quitted because of Gibbs.

McGee said 'Gibbs would do the same for us!' and he was right Ziva thinks. Gibbs did so much for them, all the time. He also helped her with her revenge at Bordnar. But she didn't ask for it. It was her revenge for her father's dead. And he took all the consequences.

She didn't want that, because her whole life she had to take the guilty for her own mistakes and doings. She learned to take the guilty if she did something wrong and also how to handle with it. Her dad never took the consequences for her, in the opposite of her mum. She always was there for her and saved her. But Ziva's dad wanted that she would be a real Mossad agent, with all the consequences for her doings. In these moments she missed her mum a lot. Also for just getting an advice from her. But she wasn't there, so Ziva had to find her own way how to handle with it. And it always fit also without her.

But now Gibbs took all the consequences and she couldn't do something. She found out where Bodnar was, with the help form McGee and she is very thankful to him. She went to Berlin with Tony to catch him, and she was very happy that Gibbs said Tony should take care of her, also if she didn't need someone for taking care of her. She trained her elf for the revenge. And she killed Bodnar and not Gibbs.

She cannot realize it since yet what Gibbs does for her now two weeks ago. And as they wanted to help him getting out of that bad situation and to catch Parson he didn't wanted that.

She couldn't believe it. He said it wasn't her job. No it wasn't because that was something about her family.

After losing all of her family. Her Israeli family. She was happy to could call her team as her family. The whole team not just only Gibbs and McGee and Tony. No the whole all in clouded with Palmer, Ducky and Abby. And after the killing from Eli David and Jackie Vance, also Director Vance was a part of her family. More than even before.

Gibbs took the father position in her life, and she had the feeling that he was more her father and a better father than her real father sometimes. Because he takes care of all his kids. Of all of them. Not just of her, also of McGee, Tony and of cause mostly of Abby, too. Maybe because they are girls, and they remind him a little bit of Kelly. However Eli never took care of his children.

It sounds a little bit weird to say that, because after all she loved Eli so much. And still love him. It was still her father. And short before he died their relationship was like a real father daughter relationship. They loved each other so much.

Ziva always thought that maybe the thing that she leaves the Mossad and goes to the NCIS and become an NCIS Federal Agent, changes the relationship between them.

Because before, it was more like an employment relationship and after all it becomes more and more a father daughter relationship. So Ziva gets the feeling that the work or more the Mossad, because Eli was the director of the Israeli Secret Service, stood between them to lead a normal relationship.

And as Eli David got shouted by a killer from Bodnar, her whole world broke down into a second. She couldn't realize how this could happen. And she felt fault because she went after the killer and didn't look up at Eli, her father. But that was her ninja mossad instinct. To catch the bad guys.

However she cannot change the past. She has to live with it how it is right now. The life goes on.

But there was one person in her life he cares so much about. She needs him. She can't live without him. She didn't wants to lose him like her dad.

She will always protect him.

But Ziva thinks she made a mistake. A big mistake.

First of all she hurts him. Because she had broken his trust to her.

He told her that she wouldn't be alone and she just get over to Israel and slept with another man.

And he had to find it out on an ugly way. Because she didn't told him that at first. Parson told him that more or less.

Then she had to tell him that she slept with Adam. And to look into his face at this time her heart broke. And as he told her that he said to her, he would be there for her, she wouldn't be alone. She realized that he was serious about what he said to her.

And her heart stopped beating at this moment.

She never ever wanted to hurt him. But she did.

But that was not the only mistake she made in the last 2 weeks.

She also told Tony in the woods that she cares so much about their 'friendship'!

Friendship!

How could she use this word? She doesn't know.

Perhaps that's because she wasn't sure what's on between them to right now. After she hurts him so much with the Adam thing.

But Ziva knows that for her they are not just friends or more. Ziva has some feelings for Tony which aren't remind her of just friends feelings. And she would be happy if he would feel like her. But she thinks that after all these happenings he would changes his mind of that.

During she thought about all these stuffs she arrives her target.

Tony sat on his couch and thought about all the happenings in the last 3 weeks.

And mostly his thoughts went to Ziva.

He always wanted to take care of her. And he thought he did. But then the thing with Adam came up and he got hurt so bad.

He never thought that it would take him so hard. But it took.

And as he gets over it and he thought 'Okay, it hurts. But it's over now', they were in the woods and Ziva called their relationship just a 'friendship#.

BAMM!

Next hit to his hidden heart. But he gets over it like every time he does it.

But he doesn't wanted to be just her friend. He wants to be more. But as Ziva told him her friend he wasn't sure if it would work.

Or more he was sure that this could never work like he thoughts.

He wanted to stop thinking about it and watch the movie onward. He even doesn't know what he was watching.

But suddenly there was a ring at the door. He looks at this watch. Tony wasn't sure who could come for a visit to him at 10pm on a Monday.

Or more there could be just one person outside of his door.

Then there was a knock on the door and a ring again. 'I'm on my way' Tony said and jumped off the couch. She has to be it, Tony thought.

He went to the door and opens it.

A/N: I really really hope u liked it! I know my english s bad but I hope u understood me! ;)

Pls write me a review.. that I can going to be better for the next chapter. :)

Love,

Jo