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Chapter 1
Kate didn't know what she was doing. When she was young and she had dreamed of love she hadn't pictured it this way. She had thought it would lead to a happily ever after or something, but now that she was in love it wasn't that way at all. For it had happened, she had met a man, a tall, dark, and handsome man, and she loved him despite everything. If only their relationship were what she wanted it to be? If only he loved her too. But he didn't, Kate knew she meant nothing to him. And as much as she loved him that didn't make that hurt anymore.
"If only I could fall out of love with Butch," whispered Kate as she lay on her couch waiting for him as she always was. Butch Gilzean was the last person she ever thought she'd love. It was by chance that they even met, but they had. For her it had been love at first sight. But their relationship had been complicated from the beginning because no one could know about it. He said it was for her safety because of his job with Fish Mooney, but Kate didn't believe that anymore. She was sure she was just one of many girls spreading their legs for him and if she hadn't of loved him she wouldn't have stayed this long. But not anymore, tonight she would tell him that if he didn't make a change that they were through even if it killed her. She couldn't do it anymore.
At first Kate hadn't minded, it had been sort of a thrill sneaking around to be with him; in the beginning they had had a real relationship or at least something that resembled one. It felt that way until it didn't anymore. Butch used to bring her flowers and chocolates even jewelry on occasion, once he even took her on a real date, but a little over a year later here they were. He didn't do that anymore. Most of the time when he came over they would just have sex and then he would leave. Kate wanted it to be the way it was in the beginning. She couldn't live with it the way it was anymore.
Kate kept repeating what she would say to him when he arrived, but when he did show up it was like it all died in her throat. Butch arrived looking as incredible as usual dressed in a fine looking suit and even considering everything when he smiled at her she still couldn't help, but melt. He usually stopped by before going to Mooney's for the night and just looking at him nearly made her lose her resolve. But she didn't, Kate was still determined to say something to him.
"Hay Gorgeous," whispered Butch as he sat by my side on the couch his big arms surrounding me instantly. For just a moment she let herself snuggle close to him, she loved being in his arms and when he kissed her she let him. She let him because she had to. If this was their last kiss she would savior it, she would revel in it because she loved him, and if she lost him now she would have to remember this kiss for the rest of her life.
Kate indulged in the kiss for as long as she could before she pulled away seeing his confused face immediately.
"What's wrong?" said Butch that look remaining on his face as he stared her down. In that moment Kate didn't know what to say, she knew everything she wanted to say, but she didn't know how to say it. And he only made it harder when he pulled her close once more his chubby fingers moving strands of stray hair from her face in the most endearing way.
"No…I just…I wanted to talk to you," whispered Kate moving away from him to stand. Butch stood up with her almost as soon as she had, his big arms were around her again, and he pulled her back into his chest. When he did she couldn't help, but shiver. Resisting him was like resisting air.
His lips found her neck soon after that making her head falling instinctively to his shoulder. Kate could feel him then, his hardness was against the swell of her ass as his tongue, and teeth marked her. It all combined made it nearly impossible to think let alone string along a sentence, so telling him to stop was proving hard.
"We can talk about it later, for now, I need you. Can't you feel how badly I need you, Katie?" growled Butch his hands sliding down to the curve of her hips giving them a squeeze as he brought her closer. She couldn't say anything, she needed him too, but as one hand came to palm her breast she suddenly came back to reality. She needed to talk to him and they were going to talk. For once he was going to listen to her. This was the way it always was, this was why sometimes she felt like his personal whore.
"Get off me," exclaimed Kate suddenly pulling away from him quickly turning to face him.
"What the hell is wrong with you tonight?" snapped Butch taking a step towards her.
"This is what's wrong! I'm tired of the way things are between us. You don't listen to a word I say, you just come here, we fuck, and you leave without a word. I'm sick of feeling like all I am to you is your personal whore. I want more, Butch. I want a real relationship with a man who gives a damn about me," screamed Kate her eyes filling with tears.
"Oh come on, Katie. It's not like that. What we have here is really something," exclaimed Butch surprise etched on his face as her words repeated in his mind. He never would have guessed that she felt that way.
"No, it's not. All I am to you is some girl who spreads her legs for you. You used to treat me like I was more, but you don't anymore. I don't like the way things are anymore. I want something real," whispered Kate her tears moving down her cheeks before silence fell as she waited for his response. But the silence hung in the air. She waited and waited for him to break it, but all too soon it became apparent he had nothing to say. In that moment Kate couldn't take it, she broke down crying her head shaking rapidly as she moved further away from him.
She quickly left the room part of her hoping he would follow her, but he didn't.
"Leave, Butch. Leave and don't come back," said Kate as she left, but he didn't. Instead Butch stood there everything she said still in his head. Slowly he fell back down on the couch his head lying against the back. Not once had he considered what she had said. He had never even considered that she felt that way; he didn't want her to feel that way. Katie was his girl, he really truly loved her, and he wanted her to feel it. Thinking back on it now, he realized that he didn't really spoil her or treat her the way he did when they first got together. He was so busy all the time doing something for Fish that sometimes he forgot. And thinking back on it he could understand why she felt the way she did. He did tend to come fuck her and leave a lot. But that would all stop now. Sitting up he looked at the closed door that led to her bedroom as he moved from the couch quickly approaching it. She was his girl and from this moment forward she would know it.
Butch gently knocked on the door receiving no response immediately. But putting his ear to the door he listened. Kate could be heard on the other side crying her eyes out and the sound broke his heart. He wanted to make her happy, to keep her safe in every conceivable way, but as of right now he wasn't doing that.
"Katie, please, let me in. I wanna talk to you," exclaimed Butch his voice traveling through the door, but once again she gave him no response. Sighing Butch banged his head against the door bracing his hands on the door knob. But then he looked down at it deciding to take a chance. Slowly he turned the door knob and much to his surprise it wasn't locked at all. The second he pushed it open his eyes found her. Kate lay on the bed turned away from him on her side. From the doorway Butch could tell she was still crying just by the shake of her shoulders. All he wanted to do in that moment was hold her, get her to stop crying, and let her know just what she meant to him. That was what he was going to do as he entered the room going straight to the empty spot on the bed by her side. Sitting on the bed beside her, Butch put his arms around her hearing as she continued to cry as her pulled her closer.
"I said to leave, Butch. Get off me," exclaimed Kate attempting to leave his embrace, but failing miserably. He was too strong and was holding her so close now she had no chance of escaping.
"No, I won't, not until we've talked," whispered Butch stroking her arms soothingly hoping it would make her look at him, but she didn't. She only laid there in his arms and continued to cry.
"Please, babe, look at me," whispered Butch moving to kiss the back of her head.
She didn't respond at first, he could hear her sniffling still, and was about to ask again when she moved. Turning around Kate faced him, her eyes were red from crying tears were still leaving her eyes, but as he looked at her he smiled still. She was the most beautiful woman he had ever laid eyes on even when she cried.
"What do you want?" cried Kate her entire body shaking in his arms. She refused to look at him in that moment, but grasping her chin Butch tried to make her. But still she refused keeping her candy green eyes on everything else in the room. Butch wiped away at her tears with his fingers before covering her face in kisses.
"Come on, sweetheart, look at me. I can't talk to you if I can't see those eyes of yours. Look at me, please," breathed Butch feeling as she trembled from his actions. At first it was just the same. He received no response, but then suddenly she looked into his eyes. When she did he could swear his heart beat faster just as it always did when he was with her.
"You don't really think that, do you?" whispered Butch referring to her words from before as he stroked her cheek.
"How can I think anything else? That's the way you make me feel. We don't have anything here, as much as I want us to have something, we don't. I want you to really care for me like I do you, but you don't. I'm just some girl who you're fucking," cried Kate breaking down once more as she finished.
"No, Katie, no. That is not how things are with us. That's not how I see things. You mean the world to me, Katie, you're my girl. That's why no one can know about you because I have to keep you safe. If something happened to you it would kill me. You are my girl," exclaimed Butch taking her hand.
"You've said that before and look how things are. You're just ashamed to be seen with me. You probably have a bunch of other girls who are at your beck and call. There are probably plenty of girls to replace me with; I'm just another girl spreading her legs for you," snapped Kate her anger showing through her tears.
"No, you're not. There are no other girls, you're my only girl," snapped Butch his own anger flaring as he made her look at him again not letting her look away again.
"Katie. You are my one and only girl. There aren't any others there is only you. I only need you, you're the only one I want," exclaimed Butch attacking her lips once he finished proving his point. Kate couldn't believe what he was saying at first, she didn't want to believe him, she thought it was just a ploy as she struggled against him during the kiss. But as he held her tighter and kissed her with a fury she started to believe. Kate slowly softened in his arms as the kiss progressed, she let herself believe the words he said, and then she wrapped her arms around him really truly kissing him now.
"Do you believe me now?" whispered Butch as he pulled away caressing her cheek as he waited for her to nod in answer. When she did he quickly kissed her again.
"If I could I would have you on my arm all the time, but it's just not safe. If something should happen, if anyone saw you with me it could get you killed. I couldn't live with that," whispered Butch his forehead against hers.
"Yes, but will it ever be safe? You can't hide me forever," whispered Kate her hand covering his against her cheek. Butch didn't know how to answer her as he pulled her closer. She had a point, but he wasn't ready to admit that as he gazed into her eyes. He wanted to tell her he loved her then, but for some reason he couldn't. So as he found an answer for her or at least as good an answer as he could give he would have to find a way to tell her that too.
"Maybe someday it will be safe, but never think I'm ashamed. You are so beautiful. Too beautiful for a guy like me. Never think that I wouldn't be proud to have you on my warm," smiled Butch kissing her once more. This time Kate kissed him back immediately her arms went around him and as did the same she felt soothed.
"Better?" breathed Butch letting one hand trail down the length of her body.
"Yes, but I'm still going to find a way to make you spend more time with me that doesn't involve sex. All we ever do is fuck and I for one would like to do something more," whispered Kate giving him a serious look.
"It's not all me, you're the hot one. Keeping my hands off you is just hard sometimes. But I promise we'll try to do something else sometime when I'm not in a hurry. Sometime when Fish gives me the day off or something," whispered Butch kissing her. Kate looked at him then she couldn't deny that usually he was pretty busy. Fish kept him busy at all hours of the day in fact he was probably going to have to leave soon.
"How long do I have you for now?" said Kate snuggling closer to him?
"I got a little time. Please let me have you, Katie. I need you. I promise next time I'll make it up to you," whispered Butch moving his lips along her jaw before finding her lips.
Kate melted into him almost immediately. She could feel him harden against instantly and she felt a pride deep inside that she did that to him. With that pride in her heart she started to remove his suit.
"You know, you look really good in this suit, but it takes way too long to get off," whispered Kate her fingers moving rapidly to open the buttons with a pop. She felt him growl in response his face buried in her neck lining it with kisses as he began to mark her as his own. His jacket then his vest started a pile on the floor then, his shirt soon followed.
"Butch," gasped Kate as his teeth sunk into the skin of her neck as she removed his pants. And then he followed her lead beginning to undress her too. Her skin became hot just at the feel of his hands on her, but when his lips began to do the same that heat increased. Suddenly it was like she was on fire. Butch was covering her body in kisses as he practically worshipped her body as if she were his own personal goddess. Throwing her clothes to the floor he eyed her with a smile then for she was beautiful in every way.
"Who's my girl?" smiled Butch suddenly his hands on either side of her head. Kate answered him with a kiss to the lips before they looked at each other a smile on both their faces.
"I am. I'm your girl, always. Now prove it and make love to me," purred Kate pulling him down to kiss her once more. This kiss lasted a long time as they both fell into it with a passion. Kate just loved when he kissed her, he did it with such fervor, and the way he did it she could always tell that he reveled in it as much as she did.
" Anything for you, Katie," breathed Butch bringing his hands to her thighs as he spoke to wrap her legs tighter around him both of them groaning as she started to grind her sex into his. It was in that moment that his lips moved down her body to the beauty of her breasts eyeing them appreciatively. When her legs held tight around him on their own only then did he let his hands roam up to her breasts. Holding the soft mounds of flesh in his hands Butch squeezed them making her moan as he let his thumbs stroke her nipples helping them harden.
"Butch," moaned Kate her hands finding the front of his pants.
Just as she was opening them his lips found her nipple making her moan louder as he laved over it with his tongue.
"So, beautiful," growled Butch moving to her other breast.
"God baby…that feels so good," whispered Kate using her hands to tug his pants down wanting them off as he continued his ministrations. And then she smiled, it was a smile he matched when his cock sprang out at her. He was hard, so hard, and was getting harder by the second. Kate felt that pride spring up in her again because he was like that because of her, her, only her. Holding him in her hand, Kate stroked him letting her fingers trace every vein, and by the groans he couldn't hold back he liked what she was doing. As she touched him his lips went back up over her shoulders to the column of her neck burying his head there.
"Is this all because of me?" smiled Kate making him look at her a groan leaving him again as she squeezed him. It was in that moment that her hand stopped as their eyes became locked together. There was something in his eyes in that moment as he gently kissed her on the lips before smiling as she continued.
"You're my girl," breathed Butch as he claimed her lips once more feeling as she continued in her hard and gentle touches as his fingers laced in her hair to hold her in place.
" Only you, sweetheart," breathed Butch groaning as she wrapped her legs around his waist even more letting go of his cock feeling as it fell to poke at her thigh. After that Butch wasted no time, he continued to kiss the skin of her neck going over the marks he had already left. He removed his pants finally throwing them to the floor before fully aligning himself with her entrance giving her a poke just to tease her before kissing her strongly.
"Look at me, I want to see you," whispered Butch looking into her eyes as both his hands gripped her hips.
Slowly then he entered her savoring the feel of her warm tightness surrounding him, squeezing him until he couldn't take it anymore.
"Yes baby…so good," whimpered Kate seeking out his lips as he stayed inside her a minute both of them enjoying the connection they shared. When his thumbs gently stroked her hips Kate knew he was asking if she was ready to continue.
"Show me I'm your girl," gasped Kate parting their lips for just a second before connecting them again taking his face in her hands. Butch gripped her hips tighter as he started to move inside her their lips colliding over and over again. And as always it was like magic between them.
Their lips didn't part for the longest time, but when they did she looked at him her hands smoothing down his back. He moved inside her so perfectly, he knew just what to do to make her fall over; he was perfect for her. And as he made love to her all Kate could think was how much she loved him. How she loved him with all her heart. And Butch never took his eyes off of her; he couldn't even if he tried. Kate was so beautiful, too beautiful for a guy like him, but she was especially beautiful right now. Her skin was coated in a light sheen of sweat; her eyes were heavy lidded in the most arousing way. Kate was close he could see it in the movement of her body, the way she matched his every thrust, and the way her head was thrown back so sexily. And he caused all of it. She was his, completely, and god if he didn't love her. More than he loved anybody else. And just as she felt a certain pride that she turned him on, Butch felt that same pride. Because only he could bring that pleasure to her. She was his; he was the only one that would touch her, ever. He wanted her to always be his that was the only thought he had as he made love to her. He had her screaming now as he found that spot inside her that controlled her pleasure. He loved the sound of her screams that as much as he wanted to kiss her he couldn't bring himself to. He couldn't silence those screams. And then he added to that pleasure letting a finger circle her clit.
"Oh baby," gasped Kate nearly there as he continued. He watched her still his lips covering her body eagerly and smiling still Butch finally couldn't take it anymore. He had to kiss her, so that's what he did claiming her lips with a ferocity that took what breath she had away.
"More," whispered Kate her breathing coming in heavy pants. Gazing down at her, Butch smiled then because she wanted more. He could give her more and with a bite to her throat he began to pound into her relentlessly.
"Oh god…Butch," exclaimed Kate thinking in that moment how much she loved him. All she wanted to do in that moment was say it to him, to tell him just so he would know. And as she fell over the edge she couldn't hold it back anymore.
"Butch, I love you," exclaimed Kate her hands going down his back leaving scratch marks making him follow her over the edge. When she said it, Kate looked at him for his reaction in their pleasure induced states, and much to her surprise he was smiling at her. She almost couldn't believe it, but before she could ask he kissed her.
When she said it, when she said she loved him, Butch almost couldn't believe it. He had never dreamed she would say it, but now here she was. Butch knew he had to tell her he loved her too, but in that moment he couldn't as he found his release. But even as he found it he gazed down at her a smile forming on his lips. All he wanted to do was kiss her then, so that's what he did. He kissed her. He kissed her long and hard with all the love that he held in his heart. And when they both came down only then did their lips part.
"Butch…about what I said…please don't be mad," whispered Kate her voice wavering as she looked into his eyes fear evident in them.
"I don't know, gorgeous. Say it for me again, I didn't quite hear you," smiled butch moving strands of hair out of her face so he could see her properly. He watched as she looked at him then tears gathering in her eyes before she looked away from him.
"Come on, Katie. Let me hear it again. I promise you I'm not mad, I just want to hear you say it again. I need to hear it again, please," whispered Butch kissing her face over and over again.
"You're not mad?" said Kate immediately looking at him once more as he took her face in his hands a smile forming as soon as he began to nod.
"I love you," cried Kate.
"I love you too," smiled Butch capturing her lips almost immediately.
"You're really not mad?" whispered Kate accepting another kiss from him.
"No, I'm not. I told you Katie, you're my girl. My girl and I love you. I love you so much," exclaimed Butch holding her face in his hands still before she pulled him close once more kissing him intensely hard. The kiss lasted the remainder of their time together. For when their lips finally parted it was time for him to get dressed and go back to the club. But he didn't leave her without one last kiss.
"I really love you," whispered Kate wrapping her body in a sheet as she watched him begin to dress. When she said that Butch turned back to her only his pants on now before kissing her again. He would never get tired of her saying that and as he kissed her Kate would never tire of saying it.
"I really love you too, gorgeous," whispered Butch before continuing to dress. Kate watched him dress then only one thought on her mind; she was the luckiest girl in Gotham.
She was so lucky and coming up behind him as he fixed his tie she wrapped her arms around him.
"Who's my guy?" whispered Kate remembering when he had said the same thing seeing as he smiled instantly looking at her through the mirror. When he was finished Butch turned to look at her immediately pulling her as close as possible. He loved being there with her and kissing her he smoothed his hands down her back stopping to grip her ass.
"I am all yours, always," smiled Butch tenderly pecking her one last time on the lips. When he said that he loved the way she smiled as she snuggled close to him. And he held her, for as long as he could in that moment he held her. But before they knew it she was walking him to the door.
"Please be careful," sighed Kate as she wrapped her arms around him afraid as she always was that one day he wouldn't come back to her. Butch held her just as tight before suddenly turning her around to lean her up against the door. Their foreheads connected then and looking into her eyes it was like they were memorizing each other.
"No need to worry sweetheart. I'll be fine, I'm always fine. And I will always come right here back to you," whispered Butch knowing by the look in her eyes that she was listening, but that she would worry none the less. Giving her one last passionate kiss, Butch left promising to come back as he always did. After he left though Kate thought about everything he had said. Would it ever really be safe for anyone to know she was his girl? Would it be his way, would she be a secret forever? All she really knew was that she was keeping him safe, that he loved her, so he had to keep her safe. But lying in bed alone later that night another thought entered her mind. Kate loved him so much, she loved that he was keeping her safe, but part of her wanted to do the same for him. She wanted to keep him just as safe as he kept her she just didn't know how.