Dear Diary,

My name is Erin Lancaster, or more accurately Erica Ring Lancaster, but I was nicknamed Erin since I was 3. I was born the princess of the Jack Kingdom, a kingdom supported by the Clover Kingdom. Our kingdom had long relied on the Clover Kingdom's resources and we had always been a ally of the Clover Kingdom. As an exchange for the Clover Kingdom's long-term support, I, as the first princess of the Lancaster reign, would have to serve for the Clover Kingdom until the age of 30.

I was not sad, but instead happy about it. The Clover Kingdom had sent a lot of resources and because of that, our kingdom was able to flourish and dad and mom were able to finally improve the life qualities of every household in our kingdom, and I shall thank them by serving for them. Originally, I was going to become an advisor. But, I was always just so obsessed with magic. The lights, the color, and the power. So, at the age of 7, I had decided to become a part of the Magic Knight squad of the Clover Kingdom in the future once I learned magic. I was living a happy and wealthy life with a bold dream.

Things do change too fast, though.

One day, chaos broke the silence of the palace…

"Erin, you need to go!" My mother said.

"But, mom, how about you? What am I going to do without you?" I asked.

"Life has its own way, Erin. Remember to live on. After all, you are my child." She said.

"But, I don't wanna leave!"

"We found the queen!"

"Go get her!"

"Run, Erin Now!"Mom screamed.

And I just ran and ran and ran. With help from the servants, I was able to blend in with the peasants and escape away from my kingdom. It was a cold night. People are suffering. Men and women are dying. Screams are coming everywhere. And I just run away. This was the night when I lost everything. My parents, my homeland, my title, and everyone I had ever known.

I was able to arrive at the Clover Kingdom with my servant Hachi. He took care of me afterwards. I had to be forced to hid my identity. Growing up in the Clover Kingdom was especially hard, I had no one to talk to and had no friends, well except for one guy. I was alone. The kingdom was full of discrimination and I was constantly bullied for being a foreigner. And as I grow up, I had become lonely. I didn't have many friends, I have no title and no wealth. I was just a poor girl from a small town being bullied everyday. They beat me up, laughed at me, and made me cry everyday. I was a happy girl, but I had become sad, and I was frustrated with my life. I gave up on my dream to become a magic knight since I knew the knights were never going to accept me. My life was pathetic. But one day, I had enough. It was the day when I graduated from college here. Although I'm poor, I could still go to college, and looking back at graduation day, that was sure an intense day.

"Look, it's that geek!"

"Oh my god! She got a grimoire with a nine-leaf clover! This must of been a mistake! How could of this shit got herself a super rare grimoire."

"I know, right." "And she is just a weirdo, Bitch'll die anyway."

"Yep."

"Right."

"Her magic is fucking weak, too. I saw it before and it does zero fucking damage!"

"Oh yeah, and had you seen that black water she use for magic! Fucking weird. It's dirty, too."

"Haha!"

I had enough. I can't take it anymore. Go ahead, steal my books, beat me up, take away my pride, berate me. I don't care. But, insult my magic. No. Just no. I had always been very interested with magic and I had trained for years in hopes to become someone that can protect others. I don't want to run away, anymore. I want to become a Magic Knight of the Clover Kingdom, and I sure as hell trained very long for it. Although there was bullying, I actually like here, Clover Kingdom. Except for the teenagers, everyone was really nice to me. And I want to protect them. I want to. But now, there was just people outright rejecting me. I had become a wimp. I had become weak. I never fought back. I was too nice. I hid my true intentions and never hurt them. I was a huge fake. But, now…

I want to stop pretending.

It's time for me to stop playing nice.

Ever since I had been bullied, I faked my nice personality, it's time to reveal the true me.

I raised my hand and prepare for attack…

"Well, guess what? Nobody even fucking like you guys!" I had an outburst. I charged and got ready for an attack.

"Black Water Magic - Flood!"

I was pretty strong and used a lot of my mana just for that huge wave attack. It did work, but it wasn't the one-hit K.O type of attack. The bullies got angry. They started to attack me with their magic. The attacks were weak, but they outnumbered me. I was being damaged seriously. I needed to think of something. Then, I noticed that the bullies were finally tired! My chance!

"Red Lightning Magic - Light Blitz!" I said as I tried to find a wide open corner to attack

"Sword Magic - Slash!"

A feeling of pain surged through my body. I got slashed in my left arm. It hurt so much. But, I didn't cared. I don't care anymore. This is it. I needed to stand up for myself. No more free pass for the bullies. Fuck them.

"Black Tide!" A surge of water rushed towards the bullies. In a matter of seconds, they fainted. I had won.

"Finally… Finally…"

I never tried to hurt anyone with magic actively. I never fought back. I was tired of fighting and a never fight back. But now,… I finally stand up for myself.

But… I had hurt people. I had hurt them. With my magic. I was scared. I never really tried fighting with others after coming into this kingdom except for Hachi. I trained with him, but this was completely different. I felt bad, am I a monster? By the way, I don't think my left arm is healing… Gosh, why is my luck so bad? My arm was fucked up! Life is unfair! What the hell… How am I suppose to battle with this fucking arm! It hurts so much. I think I'm going to a hospital now. I thought as I ran through the village and rushed towards the hospital.

"Hey, brat!" An intimidating man walks over and talks to me in a very intimidating tone.

"W..W..What's the matter?" I asked as I was scared to crap.

"Your magic looks pretty powerful, do you want to join the Black Bulls? Twerp, I saw you standing up to those brats and you are interesting, kid. Plus, you're a foreigner, and people in the Black Bulls won't judge you for that. You better accept my offer before I kill you."

"I will accept your offer, but before that, can I do something first?"

"What?"

"In case you haven't notice, I have a wound in my fucking left arm!"

"…"

And so, after that, I took off and went a great journey as a part of the Black Bulls.