Alone
I do not own Gundam Wing
Alone
Leave me alone.... Just stop it with your endless talk of peace and happiness and letting things out. Make me something else. If you're are the friend you say you are, then you'll let make me and stop trying to change me..... stop trying to make me become you. Just as you are not me, I am not you. I do not react as you do. I don't want or need the same thing you do. I don't want to talk. I don't want physical contact. My misery does not want company. I don't want your caring. It is annoying. It makes things worse. I just want the world to go away so I can restore my defences. Rebuild the walls that keep the world out.
I do not want to 'open up' and talk about what's bothering me.... And pushing, bugging me, trying to force me to tell you something won't help. If I feel you need to know some thing then I'll tell you. If not, it doesn't concern you. You can't do anything about it anyways. Don't waste your time, your life on me. I don't want your pity.
Yes. I ignore your calls. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to force pleasantries I don't mean. I don't want to pretend to enjoy your company. And yet you keep calling, keep trying. Are you really that dense that you can't see? You can't tell that I want you to go away and leave me alone? I know that the war has ended. But I still have no life. I do not want one. I am a soldier and that is all.
Forget those cliché's. Words are only words. They do nothing, mean nothing. You can't make it better. No one can. This is not a happy world. Things don't always work out. Talking about it won't make me feel better. You will just feel worse. That human part of me that you are searching for has long departed. Nothing is left. There is no buried soul, no heart hidden too deep. I should know. I was there when they killed it. There is no hope there is only pain. That is what I know. Hope is just another way to get broken. If you expect nothing, you can never be disappointed.
You can't touch me. Don't bother wasting your breath.
Stop trying to create a life for me.
Just let me alone.
Just leave me in peace.
***end***
Wow...okay that was interesting.... I'm not sure how I expected for that to turn out but I don't think it was like that.... *shrugs* oh well
That was Heero griping there.... a very pessimistic Heero in fact so let me know if you think that was okay or just too wrong for words. ^_^
Alone
Leave me alone.... Just stop it with your endless talk of peace and happiness and letting things out. Make me something else. If you're are the friend you say you are, then you'll let make me and stop trying to change me..... stop trying to make me become you. Just as you are not me, I am not you. I do not react as you do. I don't want or need the same thing you do. I don't want to talk. I don't want physical contact. My misery does not want company. I don't want your caring. It is annoying. It makes things worse. I just want the world to go away so I can restore my defences. Rebuild the walls that keep the world out.
I do not want to 'open up' and talk about what's bothering me.... And pushing, bugging me, trying to force me to tell you something won't help. If I feel you need to know some thing then I'll tell you. If not, it doesn't concern you. You can't do anything about it anyways. Don't waste your time, your life on me. I don't want your pity.
Yes. I ignore your calls. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to force pleasantries I don't mean. I don't want to pretend to enjoy your company. And yet you keep calling, keep trying. Are you really that dense that you can't see? You can't tell that I want you to go away and leave me alone? I know that the war has ended. But I still have no life. I do not want one. I am a soldier and that is all.
Forget those cliché's. Words are only words. They do nothing, mean nothing. You can't make it better. No one can. This is not a happy world. Things don't always work out. Talking about it won't make me feel better. You will just feel worse. That human part of me that you are searching for has long departed. Nothing is left. There is no buried soul, no heart hidden too deep. I should know. I was there when they killed it. There is no hope there is only pain. That is what I know. Hope is just another way to get broken. If you expect nothing, you can never be disappointed.
You can't touch me. Don't bother wasting your breath.
Stop trying to create a life for me.
Just let me alone.
Just leave me in peace.
***end***
Wow...okay that was interesting.... I'm not sure how I expected for that to turn out but I don't think it was like that.... *shrugs* oh well
That was Heero griping there.... a very pessimistic Heero in fact so let me know if you think that was okay or just too wrong for words. ^_^