I wanted to believe in them. I wanted to believe that I was valued. I wanted to believe that there was hope.
But no matter what I tried, I was ignored for twelve years.
My loneliness was like an inescapable disease. I could never stop it. There were moments, yes, which I could feel wanted…but such moments left as soon as they came.
To the world, I showed all that was good about me. I put on my happiest face and declared my dream. Was it because I wanted acknowledgement? Was it because I just wanted somebody to turn my way and smile genuinely? Or was it because, I wanted to rule them all, to make them realize the depth of their fault?
It doesn't matter now.
Everything has been a lie. So many times have I seen their darkness, only to reach out towards the flicker of hope. The ones who did love me are long gone, killed by those that hate me. When will this nightmare end?
I saw all their happy faces when I saved them from destruction; the very same faces that held nothing but contempt for me when I was but a child. Is this real? Is it even worthwhile? Why should I sacrifice and fight so hard for what others can obtain easily after a single mission?
No, I'm sick of it all. Yet, there's nothing to do be done. Because…
I'm not the one in control. I've always been a tool. That's what a being a ninja means, after all. Everybody used me, and now that I'm a target, they hide me. All for the sake of their precious villages.
And even now, I'm not in control of myself. This pathetic farce that calls itself "Naruto" is nothing but a figment of imagination. "He" is my hope that should have long ago disappeared. It is an entity that refuses to face the truth. This "Naruto" must be stopped. But how can I stop "him"?
I want to yell at "him", that everything has been a lie, that the world still hates us, and that we cannot forgive. I want to yell at "him", to tell him that was it not for his foolish clinging to hope, we would be so much stronger. I want to yell at "him", to make him understand, that hope means nothing, that hope is naught but resignation to our fates.
But "he" cannot hear me. "He" will not hear me. "He" has not heard me, not for the past sixteen years. Because…
I am the darkness "he" hides deep within himself.
And all I can do…is to just keep watching…just until I take over…and destroy this false "Naruto" forever!
"He" has come to the fountain of truth.
Then let it be known, that here is the end of "Naruto Uzumaki".
Today, I will destroy "him".
My hatred will overwhelm his pathetic and foolish hope at last. How could I fail, when even the Nine-Tailed Demon Fox will be fighting on my side? How could this "Naruto", who is but resignation, stand up to the combined might of our hatred?
"He" shall not.
Therefore,
Let this be the birth of the true Naruto Uzumaki.