Disclaimer: VICTORIOUS IS NOT MINE :P

A/N: Sorry for my lack of writng lately. A certain somebody ;) has been keeping me distracted. So blame it all on Zoe :) hehe! But I love her :)

For those of you who are reading 'Once Upon A Time', I will update the story as soon as I can! I just have to figure out the rest of the storyline.

CHAPTER 1: What is this feeling?

I walked to my locker, and ripped a pair of red scissors off. I opened and closed them, enjoying the sound they made when the metal scrapped together. The sound always calmed me down. I was interrupted by an awful noise that made me drop my scissors. It was Trina "singing" at her locker. I walked over to her and shoved her into the lockers. She dropped all of her books, and I walked away in satisfaction. I can't stand either of the Vega girls. They disgust me. `

They're not the only people at Hollywood Arts that I hate though. I love this school, but the people here? Not so much. Except for Cat. She's different from the rest in ways I can't necessarily describe. It' s a good kind of different though. She doesn't usually talk to me. Probably because I scare her, and I can't blame her for that. I don't really talk to her either, although, I've wanted to. If I did talk to her, what would I even talk about? Rainbows, unicorns, and happiness? Umm, no...

I'm Jade West. My conversations don't usually include happiness or anything like that. I talk about gory things, like how amazing the movie "The Scissoring" is.

I walked into Sikowitz's class. This is the first time that I've been early. I sat in the back, where I usually always sit. I tried not to think. My mind has been a hell hole lately. All I can think about is...

"JADE!" Cat came skipping in the classroom and plopped down in the seat next to me. Why the fuck did she sit next to me? Not that I didn't like her next to me, it's just random that she sat there.

My stomach started to do flips. I didn't know what to say to her. "MOVE!" I yelled. Cat ignored me, and stayed sitting in the seat.

I took this as an opportunity to look at Cat while she was off in her own little world. She's really pretty. She was wearing extremely short shorts and a blue shirt that said "Save the Earth, It's the only planet with cupcakes". Her legs were really sexy and tan. I began to wonder about what layed between her sexy legs. Shit... these were the thoughts I've been trying to avoid! I took my eyes off Cat before I got worse thoughts.

I don't know what's been wrong with my mind lately. I can't stop thinking about Cat! Ugh... I just need to relax to the sound of scissors... I closed my eyes and blocked the world around me.

When I opened my eyes again, Cat wasn't next to me anymore. Instead, she was sitting next to Vega. Suddenly, Sikowitz entered the room with a wagon filled with coconuts. I knew it was going to be another lesson about the hairs on coconuts, or some weird shit like that. I closed my eyes again, wanting this class to be over as soon as possible.

I was in a long hallway with only three lockers. It was dim, and quiet. I started to walk towards two doors that were at the end of the hallway. I could hear my combat boots clicking as I took a step. Fog began to drift through the hallway as I walked closer to the door. Then, there was a flash of red in front of me. At first, I thought it was fire, but I then realized it was hair. The next thing I saw was two big brown eyes, a dimple, and soft, pink lips in front of my face. I tried to talk, but was met by a finger against my mouth. The finger was soon replaced with lips. A faint bell rang in my head and I was snapped away from the red head's lips and was brought back into Sikowitz's room.

Holy shit, it was just a dream. Everyone was walking out of the classroom as I remained in my seat, trying to decipher what just happend. "Jade, you commin?" I looked up to the same eyes that I had just seen in my dream.

"Cat?"

"That's my name! Hehe" Cat started to giggle as I grew more and more confused. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah... I'm fine." I said as I stood to join the gang for lunch.

I don't know why I still sit at this table. The only people that I can actually tolerate are Andre and Cat.

As I sat at the table in silence, I began to watch Cat eat, while the rest of the gang talked. Cat was strangely silent as well. It's not normal for Cat to be quiet. She looked up and saw me examining her. My face turned red, and I quickly looked down at my untouched food. I wasn't really hungry. I just wanted to look at Cat more. She's so interesting to watch. The way she moves her lips when she talks, the way her eyelids close when she blinks, and the way her dimple appears on her cheek. It's all so intriguing.

I thought about my dream that I had in Sikowitz's class. Did I really just have a dream about kissing Cat? Do I want to kiss her in real life? I looked across the lunch table and watched Cat's lips. I began to imagine how they would feel on my lips. They look so soft and welcoming unlike guys lips. I wonder how they would move against my mouth and how much passion she would put into it. I hadn't realized that I'd been puckering my lips until I pulled myself away from my thoughts and saw Cat, Andre, Beck, Tori, Robbie, and Rex all staring at me.

I felt my face get really hot. I quickly stood up and walked to the bathroom. I closed myself in one of the stalls and pulled a pair of scissors out of my black purse. Then, I opened the blade of the scissors and scraped it along the stall door, carving whatever came to my mind.

When I finished, there was an eye with a tear. I wanted to cry. I don't even know why. I just couldn't though. No tears would form in my eyes.

I have moments like this all the time. Those moments where you don't understand any of your feelings and you're just numb. I don't really understand anything right now. Whenever I see Cat, a new feeling that I'm not familiar with flows through my body.

I know what the feeling is, I've just never had it before, and I don't understand why I feel it around Cat.

I can barely even say the word because I'm so used to saying the opposite of it. It's so easy to say you hate something, but I don't hate Cat.

I love Cat...

A/N: Sorry, It's a slow start!

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