Sleepless Nights
Disclaimer: I don't own Yu Yu Hakusho, any of the Yu Yu Hakusho characters or….ah, come on. You all know the drill. .O
A/N: I am bored. And anyone who knows me, things get dangerous when KF gets bored. This is something born from pure and utter boredom as I wait not-so-patiently for my rp partner to hurry up and e-mail me the next part of our rp…so I make no guarantees as to the quality of this…thing. I may end up labeling it with a PWP, but I don't know yet. Depends on what I end up writing. P Which, might I add, is completely undetermined at this point.
Ah, hell- you didn't choose this fic to hear me jabber on. Enjoy and please review. .+
Hiei closed his eyes as daybreak loomed on the horizon. There would be precious few hours before daylight came, therefore precious few hours for the youkai to restore his energy for the day ahead. Not to say he would sleep…no. Hiei never sleeps. Not anymore. Not since the nightmares started. The closest thing to sleep he encounters is passing out from pure exhaustion after a day and night of endless fighting, and even those occasions are rare. Most often he is like he is now- drifting somewhere between wake and dream; somewhere where he is not fully conscious yet not fully lost in the realm of sleep. Somewhere lost in his thoughts, lost in his memories, lost in his mind, but not by any means lost in slumber.
A small frown make it's way across the small demon's face, this soon becoming a snarl. Yes, it seems that once again Hiei has danced too close to the fire of the realm of slumber, the taunting teasing flames licking at him, becoming him in until he once again became engulfed in sleep. And you know what happens when he falls asleep...Sure enough, he awakens an hour later with a strangled cry of agony. His breath comes hard, jets of ice still pulsing madly through his veins. A thin film of cold sweat covers his toned body, his chest rising and falling sharply with each shaky breath. Slowly, he sinks back into the branch he is so precariously balanced on- it is a miracle he hasn't fallen- and closes his eyes once more, though this time he is nowhere near that fearful realm of slumber. His mind is spinning much too quickly for him to get anywhere near that again anytime soon.
…Looks like it will be another sleepless night…
Months have gone by, and still no change can be seen in the little youkai's sleeping patterns, though more often now than before he resorts to exhausting himself to make himself fall asleep. Lately, however, even that hasn't been working- he falls asleep sure enough, though even when deeply unconscious he experiences those awful nightmares that keep him constantly sleepless. He would cry himself to sleep if he knew how to…Instead, he settles for staying up until he passes out from exhaustion, then repeating the cycle. Sure, this makes him cranky and aggravated….but no-one notices anything new. To them, the only change is that he is now more vocal about his hate of everything around him.
How little they know.
Sometimes, he wishes he could show them what was really happening to him; what had happened to him. Sometimes he wonders that, maybe, if he wasn't all alone, that things could be different.
But then he slaps himself and brings himself back to reality. Nothing will change. Nothing can change…
It's times like this that make the little fire demon want to curl up in a dark corner and cry. But he doesn't. He doesn't know how. The only tears he knows how to cry are those of blood, and even when he is sobbing no-one notices the ruby tears or any signs that they were ever there. Either that, or they notice and just don't care. Hiei reminds himself it shouldn't bother him- no-one has ever cared…why should these morons be any different? But he knows deep inside of him that he needs someone to be different…He doesn't even know why, but he knows it's what he needs.
If only he knew one of those morons was different.
Twilight hovers on the horizon, the sky not able to decide if it should stay light or give in to darkness. Darkness wins, of course, and in a matter of minutes the sky is pitch black. The city streets slowly empty, those who have homes locking themselves tight within them, those who don't securing themselves wherever they think will keep them safe for one more night. Few wander the sidewalks, though those who do are of the kind you don't want to associate yourself with, Hiei found out first hand on more than one occasion. It didn't take the little youkai long to debate his options, and finally he settled on the one logical choice he had left.
Three soft taps on frost-laced glass later he was standing in the corner of Kurama's warm bedroom. It was only the second time he had been there- normally he would just conjure up some of his energy and warm himself through the night- or at least through most of it. But tonight he didn't have enough energy for that method…it was just too damned cold for him to be spending his energy like that. If he tried, he would be warm for all of 10 minutes before he would be out of energy and pass out, this time to never wake up again. And as tempting as that sounded, frostbite was not how Hiei wanted to go.
The young fire apparition sighed softly as he settled down in the dark corner, curling up near the radiator. He stifled a laugh as he heard the kitsune's faint snoring- only the bedside table separated Hiei from Kurama's platform bed. He blushed as he realized he thought the sound was cute…that the human youko looked adorable when he was asleep…the half-fire apparition quickly shook his head, hoping to clear it from these thoughts. Sleep came easily that night for the first time in years, and no nightmares haunted him in his serene slumber…
Okay, so I finally titled this thing…though the title may change later. I am too lazy as of right now to come up with anything better… .O I hope it doesn't sound too random, but then again, I did warn you. If you couldn't tell this will likely later become a KxH fic. Though I wish I knew where I was going with this….I am kind of typing as it comes to me, so if any of you have any suggestions they are greatly appreciated! Please Review! 33