This is a One Shot about the scenes while John was helping Sam during childbirth on 6/1/12.
[b]The Heart's Cry [/b]
"I know I don't understand," John wished he did, wished he understood the surge of feelings that was running through him. He'd been able to bury them so far, to chalk them up to so many things. Natalie's absence, Liam's, the distance, but he knew he was still on shaky ground.
He would always love his son, but in all honesty he and Natalie's relationship was in the midst of rebuilding when he'd ventured off to Port Charles after Star and stumbled onto Sonny. They were in limbo and this sudden little nymph had been slowly stealing his heart without even knowing it.
"What would he say if he were here right now?" John didn't really want to know, but he thought it might bring some relief to Sam to hear what she had needed from her Husband for months now.
"I don't know what Jason would say, he's so conflicted about this baby." Sam was in gasps of breath between the pained breaths and tears, her skin glistening in the soft glow of hotel lights and lightning strikes. John's heart was ever breaking for her. What a damn jackass! John knew the similarities to his and Natalie's case but then Brody hadn't raped Natalie.
She had been there of her own accord and John had been cut with the betrayal and lies so deep, he thought he would never heal and then the small comfort of knowing Liam was his had come, but it hadn't healed the wounds Natalie had inflicted.
And yet somehow in the midst of distance and her own tragedy Sam was making her way into his heart…John bit back a breath against her screams as his own anxiety gave way to that uncanny calm and his whole world was broken open in realization. "I think if he was here, he would say…" John swallowed so hard he almost choked on the next words, knowing that they weren't Jason's. They were his own. "You look very beautiful right now."
And oh how she did, in the throes of pain, worry, fear, none of it could mask her beauty. "I love you," John almost stumbled over the words. It should have been reserved for Natalie but as the words tumbled out of his mouth the excuse of trying to portray Jason's feelings hanging over him and yet he meant every word. "I'm sorry…" and he was for her loss for that bastard that was leaving her to fend for herself out here. "And I stand by you and this baby for the rest of my life." John may have been speaking for someone else but the words came from the depth of his heart and soul.
She'd won him over and over and over. It was his hearts cry though he spoke for another man that should have been here.