I Promise to Kill You
By: NeverMe1213
Chapter One
I enjoy......
She sat in a little metal chair in a little white room. It empty except for a little window face level. The window only showing the dreary gray sky of rain.
Her hands sat calmly, folded, in her lap. And her face showed no emotion. It never did anyway.
She had grey eyes and raven colored hair. Her skin cream colored and her fingers delicate but yet strong. And then her face.....
Her face showed pain and anger though no emotion ever came from the girl. Her hands and arms also showed it. Their scars illuminating against her skin. Each scar a repentance for every sin she had ever done.
No one ever knew why she did it without wincing or tears forming in her eyes. No one every knew why she cut herself every place that she could and every place would turn to a scar....except her face.....
She had cut her face many times. Slashing at it away. Leaving multiple cuts. But not one left a mark. Except a single scar that crossed her left cheek and barely grazed her chin.
No one ever knew why she mutilated herself. No one ever knew that she was repenting. No one ever knew.....that she enjoyed the pain. Enjoyed the site of red blood trickling down her skin. Tainting it a red color. Thrilled a the sight of a knife as it slashed human skin. Her own skin and other's as well. Loving screams of agony....Loving the tears of a person.....
She loved pain. She loved the thrill it sent through your spine. Going through your nervous system and heading its way to brain. The sensation of the brain telling you to stop....and you rejecting it.
She looked up and over to the window. Rain drops streaked its glass making only the faintest sound.
Getting up, her bare feet padded across the cold floor, making only the faintest sound, her hospital gown swishing as she walked.
Reaching out, her fingertips touched the glass, and slowly she let her hand feel its coolness.
Their was also another thing she loved. She loved the rain. She loved to see its majestic wonder change the scenery. Change the people. Change the way feeling.
She loved the cool, refreshing air it gave, as its clean innocence purified it.
She loved every part of the rain. Except the thunder and lightning it sometimes gave. That scared her. Scared her so, that she would whimper and cry in a corner until it ended.
But she never used to be scarred of lightning and thunder. She used to love to see it light up the sky and to hear the dramatic boom it gave.
' I used to love it.....,' she thought, ' I used to sit out on the porch with mama and little Sota....We all used to watch the rain silently fall and hear the lightning clap in tune with the thunder....I remember the last time we did it....The day before.....,'
She heard the sound of a door opening and then closing. The sound of the chair in front of hers scraping from being sat in.
"Hello Kagome," she heard her name being said by the woman doctor. Her pointless name still unknown to the girl.
The girl turned from her window and sat back down, across from the woman doctor. Her eyes averted to the ground.
" How have you been?," the doctor pointlessly asked.
The girl bangs covered her eyes as she spoke to the doctor in her mind. She wanted to tell the doctor that she had only seen her yesterday. And that she was the same as always....
But she didn't. She kept her mouth closed and her hands folded.
" Well Kagome, I see your not talking as usual...," she sighed and wrote something on the clipboard that was in her hand.
The doctor said that every day. Every day the doctor and her had the same conversation. Nothing at all and the doctor always said " Well Kagome, I see your not talking again." But today was different.
The girls eyes went to the two-way mirror that settled in the middle of the wall.
They thought she couldn't see through it. They thought she could only she her reflection. But they were wrong. Dead wrong.
She scanned over the usual people there. Sitting. Waiting for the hour to be up so they could leave.
But they her eyes caught someone she did not recognize.
A boy. His eyes downcast to the floor like hers had just been. He had white hair.
She stared at him. Ignoring the doctors usual speech. His black hat that covered his head (an: not a baseball hat but like a toboggan I guess you could call it or a beanie hat....I don't know) twitched a little and he looked up. His golden eyes looked directly into hers and they locked. His face a little surprised as they stared at one another.
But then she left his eye contact and looked back down to the ground.
Her ears hearing bits and pieces of the woman doctors words as her mind drifted. Then it stopped. Everything became quiet.
The doctor had stopped her chattering and waited for the time to pass.
Then she spoke. For the first time she spoke.
" I enjoy it...," she said.
" Enjoy what dear? Books, games, we could get you all that if you would ?cooperate...," the doctor answered her. Unknown of the girls meaning.
The girl look up at her locking her eyes. It was the first time the girl had ever spoken to her, less look at her.
A innocent smile played on the girls lips as she said some more.
" I enjoy pain...," she said and looked down once more. " I enjoy blood when it trickles down your arm. I enjoy screams of agony. I enjoy pointy knives and how they cut into human flesh. They cut so cleanly....," she stopped and looked up at the woman doctor. A fear playing in the doctors eyes....and the girl saw it.....
" Are you scared of me doctor...," the girl simply said. The doctor gave no reply.
The girl just chuckled and looked two-way mirror at the people inside.
" I can see you doctor...," she said directing her sentence to the other doctor that was on the other side of the mirror.
" I can see your little nurse beside you.....She's practically asleep. I can see the look on your face as I talk to you....," she continued. The other doctor started looking at the speech monitor. Trying desperately to find the off switch.
The girl knew....what he was trying to do....
" There is no 'off ' switch doctor. You can't turn me off....," her voice scared the woman doctor and she nodded her head to someone.
The girl noticed and turned her head a little to see behind her. She smiled and turned her head back straight.
" I can see that nurse behind me. I can see that shiny needle with it's drug inside to take the pain away. To make me 'feel' better....," she smirked.
" But it just gives me pain. It doesn't, make it go away....and I enjoy pain.....I do...."
She felt a prick to her skin and felt that familiar feeling run through her blood. The feeling that everyone wants never to happen. Pain.
" This will make me go to sleep now....," she said a little groggily. " Then when I wake up you'll will give me another drug....that also gives me pain....lushish pain...." her head began to droop as she took one last look at the woman doctor.
" I also enjoy one last thing doctor...," she said as blackness crept through her eyes. " I also enjoy the rain...."