I faced my future, feet frozen on cobblestones
Cherry blossom trees lining the walk
Small clichéd pentagons fell on blue-black tresses
The gold emblem on my chest escaped the onslaught
Still attached to my sweater that stretched
Scrunched over the surface of my skirt
Falling onto long legs
To small brown shoes and navy socks
People crowd around that I've never met
Boys and girls all blurring in their similarities
Much like their perception of me
A bell sounded, I stepped forward, passed the posters
The displays, the recruiters, they didn't catch my eye
My outside is carefully cultured, purposeful, when
From the faceless crowd a hand reached out and
A muscular body collided with mine
He looks older than he was
The suit jacket discarded for a blue button-down
His tempting navy tie tucked into the shirt pocket
Hair as soft and chocolatey as his eyes
His hands are callused from working
The same light of talent shining out as when I last saw him
He lets go of my arm and welcomes me
A smile and he meets my eyes
Mamihlapinatapei, Mami-hlap-ina-tapei
The look between two people in which each loves the other
but is too afraid to make the first move
Words that caught my eye always sticking in my brain
This one more than all
It was too late, we were caught
But distraction was my drug
Oh, if I had only known
So I gave him
A hello
A tentative smile
A moment of attention
My ears
My skills
My hand
My love
The most succinct of words
Yet the hardest to translate
A definition too long to comprehend
Feelings that were thought to not have a descriptor:
His eyes from behind the curtain
My smile on the stage
Mamihlapinatapei
That was us.