Hey everyone! As you know, I am in College, and now that it is summer, I finally can get back into writing!
So this is it! As promised! Chapter one of Despair leads to Happines! Yay!
TrueheartAlpha
Disclaimer! I don't own this amazing series! J.K. Rowling does and I still grovel at her feet in amazement
Harry James Potter sat on the ledge of the astronomy tower, his eyes downcast as he thought of all those that had died because of him. His parents, Cedric Diggory, and Sirius. All of them were dead now. Because of him. He never wanted the fame that came with his name. The Boy-who-lived. No, he never asked for any of it. He wanted nothing more than to join his parents and those he'd lost to Voldemort. He wanted death. But death wouldn't have him. That's why he was here now, on the ledge of the highest tower in Hogwarts. Tonight, he would join his mum and dad. End his suffering and torment on earth.
Harry eased himself up from the ledge and stood balanced on it. His breath rapid as he closed his eyes and leaned forward. Tonight, he would greet death and join his parents.
But that never happened…because of a hand... that pulled him from his despair.
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Severus Snape always enjoyed his night rounds of Hogwarts. It allowed him the peace and quiet that teaching brats never gave him. This night was no different than the last as he made his way up towards the last place he checked before retiring for the night, the astronomy tower. As he climbed the stairs to the tower, he heard the scrapping of feet on brick. Quickening his pace, he prepared to take points as he came into sight of the student out of bed, not at all prepared for the sight that he was greeted with.
Potter was standing on the ledge towards the outlook of the grounds.
Severus didn't let himself think about anything other than the safety of the boy that was his sweet Lily's. As the boy leaned forward, Severus caught the boy's wrist and pulled him back over the ledge. His eyes meet those green eyes that held so much pain in them. Briefly, he saw himself in the boy before him. Everything he saw in the Gryffindor before him vanished as he saw the raw pain and despair in those brilliant green eyes.
Not knowing what else to do, Severus brought his arms around the teen and held him as close and as tight as he could. Silently reassuring him that there was one person that still cared for him. For his life.
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Harry felt a hand grasp his wrist as he leaned forward and prepared to fall off. A strong and firm yank had him on his back and staring into black eyes that belonged to none other than Professor Snape. His eyes locked on to those onyx eyes as he felt the feelings of anger and sorrow fill him. Anger at once again not being allowed to join his parents in death. Sorrow for leaving those he knew would morn him. But lastly, he felt loved as those strong arms wrapped around him and held him as though he was the only thing that mattered. The person he had thought would never mourn his death, was the one who prevented his death. The one that was currently wrapped around him like a security blanket.
After a few minutes, Harry found his voice,
"Sir?" was all he asked before the older man exploded and began to rant at him.
"Potter! What in Merlin's name were you thinking? Have you lost your mind? Jumping from the blasted Astronomy tower. What in the hell possessed you to do such a reckless thing? I swear to Merlin, I will not stand by and let this happen! I may be a cruel man, but suicide is not what I wish upon you!"
Harry looked down and played with the man's sleeve as he found his eyes misting.
"I'm sick of everything, Sir. That's why I did it. I'm tired of being idolized like a god and then looked down on and abused by my relatives. Every day I wish that I could have died with my parents. Every day I wish that it had been me that died, not Cedric…" Harry faded off as silent sobs shook his body. All the pent up grief and pain that was held in for so long, left the teen as he cried on the man's shoulder.
Not once did the older man sneer at him.