One Small Regret
It's true what they say about your life flashing before your eyes. I had never realized how small the world was until I was lying there broken on the street. How small I was. I had always thought I had lived life to the fullest. I worked out, ate well, I had friends everywhere I went, volunteered at the shelter once a week, and had nearly watched every one of my shows on netflix. But I had always had one regret, and that was DAN.
He was my childhood love. A young scraggly blond haired kid who lived on my block. He was always nice, the kind of kid who held the door open for you and smiled warmly at you no matter who you were. I always felt the most alive when he looked at me, like his blue eyes could ignite even the coldest part of my heart with undying flames. But when I was 8 he moved away. And I was so upset, I couldn't even get the courage to wave goodbye. I just covered my eyes and cried until his car was so far out of view his figure in the window looked like a speck of dust.
When I was in college I found him again. I knew it was him the instant I laid eyes on him. It was impossible not to when I was looking into those bewitching blue eyes of his. I smiled at him, and went to say hello, but his eyes looked straight past me at another girl. I didn't know her name, but she was beautiful beyond words. She had the darkest red hair I had ever seen and wild green eyes that screamed for attention. I knew in that moment, that Dan would never be mine.
Out of all the people I had met had I ever meant something as much as Dan did to me? Had anyone ever looked at me with those same love sick eyes? As I lay there dying on the pavement, I realized there was a man above me, a man with blond curly locks and deep blue eyes. I couldn't be sure but in that moment as he stared deep into my eyes, I felt myself looking into Dan's eyes. But I knew in my heart it wasn't him. Still, I felt him holding my hand and I grasped back with what little strength I had left because it was the only thing still keeping me here. "It's going to be okay." He whispered, "you'll be okay." But I could hear the tremors in his voice.
As I stared at him, I realized something was wrong. He was cold, so cold. Or maybe it was me, it's hard to tell these things when you're in the middle of dying. And his face….it was almost transparent. Everything was getting harder to see now, blurrier. But I forced myself to open my eyes wider because I knew this was important. It was him. It was Dan. And as the cold crept up my body I gathered up the energy to tell him what I had always wanted to, " Dan, I love you. I have always loved you, That's my only regret. I never got to tell you" I coughed weakly, "I never got to tell you I loved you."
He looked back at me and said softly, "I've always loved you." As her body gave in to death, Sarah looked back at him and saw her last moments flash before her eyes and in that moment she realized the truth, just as he whispered his final words to her, "Sarah, I've been dead since highschool. That's why you ran in front of that car, so we could be together. Remember? "
OR
"Sarah, I've been dead since highschool. The me you met in college was never alive. You jumped in front of that car because you thought you were saving my life. But if I had only told you…. I didn't know you would be able to see me. People can only see the dead the year they die. If I hadn't been so lovesick, I could have warned you. You could have lived."
"Sarah, I've been dead since highschool. That's why you ran in front of that car, so we could be together. Remember? "