Let down, wanting to come around
Wants to see, but has to be in order to be seen
Tries to hide but, can't any longer
Too many things need to change
But, the past can't be erased
Waiting around for something to come
But, nothing comes.
Looking trying to answer why I am here
Why I have I not let you go
But, why haven't I told you what I wish you would know
I know I'm you son
And you should be here trying to answer me
But, you'll still be there ignoring me, letting me be
You made up your mind
And our lives are no longer entwined
Fine!
Then stay away,
Don't come back until one day
But, don't expect me to happy
Because mark my words father
You left
You let you go of us
Don't expect some happy family reunion
Because you won't get one
You left me depressed
Hurt and angry
We are supposed to be family
No-one listens to me speak anymore
I can't form words in my mouth
I've had about enough of this I can take
I've already broken
Your words last spoken
Broke me
I never saw anyone come around
The sound of laughter is what is heard in the background
No longer can I hear my body make that sound
I'm a ghost to them
I'm dead in their eyes
I am nearly there
You'll be happy won't you father?
You'll be so proud
Like when I made that mistake that day
Oh Dad is this pay back for that?
No-one utters a word
The voice is always unheard,
Tries but, fails
No-one hears the wails
Dark at night when things never go right
No matter their efforts
They end up where they were
I end up broken and beaten inside
I can no longer fight
My heart is broken Daddy!
I don't care if I'm eighteen or not
I'm still eleven inside
The one who wants to hide
From the world who never wants to seek
Afraid and weak
Not strong enough
Still stuck on the ground
Can't pick themselves off it
A broken heart left in bits
Daddy, please fix this
I'm sorry for the blame
And my mistakes
I need help
It's so cold and dark here
These tears keep coming down my face
The pain won't just go away
No matter how many times the dice has been rolled
It always come back to the same numbers
They won't change
Things need to change
Before it's too late for me
…and for you