Yeah, don't own Final Fantasy.
Darn it, I've been working on this forever and it's still not right. Dang my muse and her tempermantality. Please, if you can suggest anything to make it better, that would be great. Thanks so much. Anyway, enjoy.
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She lives her life around the spaces where he might have been. There's always just enough room at her side to accommodate the width of his shoulders, a silence waiting to be filled with his laughter, a single flower at the bottom of the basket he'll never receive. These are the hollows around which she's built her life, skirting the edges to keep from falling in, even though she knows that they are only deeper holes in the chasm she fell into the day she wrote that last letter. She is that last flower, a bloom slowly losing its color as time passes on.
Cloud is an almost painful reminder of those little spaces, an echo of loss that reverberates in those empty spaces. He falls into her life with Zack's sword strapped to his back and SOLDIER eyes, a pale shadow of the man she knew. He's not the same, but he's close, so close and yet not close enough. There's something off about his smile, a shadow in his blue eyes that steals their vibrancy. The eyes are the windows to the soul, and through Cloud's she sees a reflection of the man she knew, superimposed over Cloud's own broken being.
She needs Cloud to be himself. She speaks honestly when she says that she wants to see the truth of the blond swordsman, but more true is the need to separate him from Zack, to cover the mirror lurking behind his eyes so that she no longer sees there the one she so misses. She's woven her life around the spaces he left, spaces that are his and his alone; to let someone else try to fill them doesn't feel right.
The gaps only seem to grow larger the more time Cloud spends trying to fill them, and sometimes she wishes that she'd never met a SOLDIER with dark hair and an easy smile. Then she remembers the back to when she still had him, and takes it all back, because the time she spent with him was worth everything- even all the spaces he left behind.
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Hate hate hate the ending. Don't know why, but the last paragraph took forever and I still don't like it. No flames. Please review. Thanks. ~Seeker