Grave danger
Ch 1
One nick hit the floor grissom was at his side, helping him roll over
"Nick...nick... You ok?" he asked frantically
"yeah..." he coughs
"paramedics now" he shouted, suddenly next to him was Sara
"hey Nicky" she says softly
Nick reaches for her, she takes his hand "don't... Leave me" he coughs
She looks at him, he just nod "I won't" she replies
Her closeness to him baffled his mind and feelings more, he needed to keep these at bay.
Next the paramedics are with him with breathing apparatus, getting him onto a stretcher and into the ambulance. Sara and grissom sat in the back with nick who was drifting off to sleep.
He turned to sara, leant in and whispered "I'm glad your with me" sara smiles and turns back to nick.
At the hospital nick was going to he kept in over night for observation, so they left. Cath picked them up and took them at the lab, everyone was waiting in the break room
"their waiting for the grissom wisdom" comforted sara rubbing his arm,
He nodded and walked in, the words just fell out of his mouth he didn't quite know what to say, he was lost in his head, full of fear, desire, loss, loneliness, among other emotions, this was unlike him.
Talk over everyone leaves, he walks to his office for quiet time though his heads going crazy, he needs to sleep and recover from the goings on, it had been too much for him.
He had trained Nick so well and was a great student, who he highly respected. He sat for a few minutes then decided to go home to try and sort out the emotions in his head, he'd always blocked them out but now they were raw. He got up, rubbed his face and headed to the locker room; he opened the door and jumped. Sara was sat on the bench, she turned
"Hi gris, you ok?"
He just nodded and headed to his locker, opened it
"I thought you'd of left with the rest" he said, almost wishing it would happen if he said it
"no, I don't want to leave yet. I leave work at work but I can't. You going now?"
"yeah, I try the same policy, hence why I work late. But this is different, I can't block all this out and working non stop won't help"
Sara nods "I know. Can I tell you something?"
"yes" he sits next to her
She takes a deep breath "I was scared today, looking at nick in the coffin all I could see was you. Then when the call came saying the guy had blown himself up I flew down there to make sure you were ok. I know your my supervisor and only that but I just needed to tell you, sorry" she stopped and looked at her hands in her lap, his heart stopped in his chest then beat again, this was how he felt looking at nick in the coffin, it could of been her and just before the explosion his life flashed before him, he saw her and how much she had practically begged him to be with her, and how he'd pushed her away. Not anymore, today was the end of that.
He turned and put his hand on her arm, she looked at him, he stood and she looked down again
"sara?" she looked up, he put his arms out "can I? Please"
she stood "you want a hug?"
"please, I think we both need one"
She nodded and walked into his arms, he wrapped them around her shoulders and held her tight, her arms wrapped around his middle, she too squeezed. He felt fully at ease in her arms, he knew he had to do something about this, he couldn't live another day without her but how could he tell her?
She pulled back a little and looked at him, he looked straight back at her, he needed to do something, he moved his right hand to her neck, he felt her shiver and he started moving into kiss her, she didn't pull away or move, she just closed her eyes
"gil?"
"yeah?"
"we can't do this here"
He pulled back, he wasn't going to let this stop him, 'we can't do this here' to him meant to do it somewhere else
"ok, yours or mine?"
Sara pulled back more, breaking his grip on her "mine?"
"ok, ill just go bathroom then well go, ok?"
"ok" replies sara smiling
He walked out and into the bathroom, he knew going to hers may not be a good idea but he had to end this loneliness, he needed to let her in, to be with her.
He went back in the locker room
"ready?" he asked sara
"yeah"
they walked out in silence, what could he say? He wasn't like this, he didn't do emotions, but sara knew this, she never judged him and knew who he was.
They got in the car, and he started to drive. His mind still full of so much, he felt brave and moved his hand to the gear stick, and took deep breaths, he caught sara's eye and smiled, she smiled back and he slowly moved his hand to her leg, it was hot beneath his hand. He liked the feel of it there, he felt sara move and her hand was on top of his. The journey could take as long as it wanted he was content just holding her hand.
Soon they arrived at sara's, she let go of his hand and finds her keys
"you still coming in?" she asks
He nods "yes, if you want me to?
"yes I do"
He stops the engine and climbs out, he gets to the front and she's stood hand out waiting for him, he links his hand and fingers through hers, he feels safe, he feels he should be there.
She opens the door and pulls him in, he pauses, what should he do now? She leads him to the sofa, switches on the lamp and sits down; he sits next to her, still holding her hand.
He's now stuck, full of so much feeling and emotion is blocking his normal responses. He turns to look at sara, he doesn't know what to do or say but so much is being passed between them in the silence, she's letting him hold her hand, she's let him hug her, she pulled away from a kiss but he knows she would never refuse him, or push him away. But what to do next?