Sunshine
by: RoseWaters
Chapter 1: Midnight
(Disclaimer: we all know I own nothing. Not Naruto and NOT the song.)
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
He sat in one of those metal chairs, his eyes watching the white wall with a blank look. The perfectly polished and sanitized tiles reflecting the ceiling lights on his restless features. Silent empty halls only illuminated by lights in the dead of night. While that haunting childish tune continued to flow out of one of the other rooms.
You make me happy when skies are gray
His eyes slowly moved to the white doors. He came to understand two things tonight. The first, it really was more difficult to wait, and the second, white was much more suited to death than black. How long he'd been waiting, he'd never be able to accurately articulate. If regret could take a form his mind could then possibly begin to rationalize just what that heavy pressure suffocating his lungs was.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
It was nearly mechanical now how his head would snap to the side when a door would open. Then slowly as if by force his eyes would linger back to the perfectly spotless tiles. Then his mind would wonder for only a second, asking as if to comfort, just how did they get all her blood off those titles?
Please don't take my sunshine away
Sasuke suddenly began to hate whoever was singing that song.
Uchiha House
October 13, 2008
3:03 AM
My eyes snapped open at the sound. I could hear the footsteps from down the road. There were two of them, and I was awake before they even knocked on my door. My eyes caught the clock, why I bothered to look I don't even know. It only took one look out the window at the position of the moon to tell me it was 3 in the morning. I suppose it was ironic, or simply routine to make sure she was up before I answered the door while she dressed. When my hand touched the cool cotton of her side of the bed I was reminded that she was on a mission.
It wasn't like it was the first time they called for her when she was supposed to be away on a mission. I opened the door to our room and began to walk down the stairs when a second round of forceful banging continued.
Little fuckers, they're going to be mad when they find out she's not here. I have to say I 'm a little happy with that thought.
I opened the door and was grabbed by the collar; my arm grabbed the hand before I was pulled out of my door. My eyes caught his quickly.
"Bastard, move your ass now!"
I ripped Naruto's arm off my shirt. The idiot really pisses me off sometimes.
"Don't touch me."
He grabbed my collar again and pulled me forward. I was more than a little annoyed by the gesture, in a second a hand pulled Naruto off me and my eyes meet Neji. If this was a mission they could at least give me time to pack and leave a note. My annoyance was briefly pushed to the side as I watched Naruto seemingly struggling with himself as he began to pace back and forth his hands shifting through his hair.
"Naruto calm down."
Why did Naruto always listen to Neji anyways?
I watched Naruto as he ran his fingers through his hair muttering shit over and over again. In a second his head snapped up in my direction and I could see how frustrated he was.
"Bastard."
He was speaking slowly and through his teeth, like being forced to stand still while someone slowly dug a kunai through your skin.
"You need to come to the hospital now. Only you can approve the procedure."
"The fuck are you talking about."
He once again lunged for my shirt and began to pull me from my door frame.
I pushed him away from me, he must be drunk, it's three in the morning and I have no procedure. In a second I found myself stumbling backwards as his fist hit my face.
"Sakura needs you."
I punched him back watching him hit the ground his Anbu gear spread out, and a wound I hadn't noticed spill across the dirt. I watched the blood spill and suddenly felt guilty for hitting him, well for hitting him that hard.
"Sakura is on a mission. Go the fuck home."
He sat up his eyes nearly glowing against the dark skies. His voice was harsh.
"You don't deserve her!"
I felt my jaw clamp down. I couldn't let this turn into another fight. Not like last time. She'd hate me for real then.
It was Neji voice that stopped me cold.
"Uchiha, Sakura is in the critical care unit. Her mission went wrong, the entire team was ambushed. After carrying out her duties as a medic she stayed behind to confront the enemy with Kakashi-san to ensure the Anbu teams protection. You are consider her closest relative consider your current... relationship. They are trying to heal her wounds but if you don't give consent for the procedure she will die. She's nonresponsive you have to make the call"
If you were to ask me how I got to the hospital I could never tell you. After hearing those words my mind froze. My life seemed to have gone suddenly silent.
Konoha Hospital
October 13, 2008
3:37 AM
The other night dear as I laid sleeping
The lyrics, words, whatever you may call them seemed to hang in his mind. Kakashi was always envied, gifted as a ninja and lucky as a man. Kakashi believed one thing in life was true. The grass really was always greener on the other side.
I dreamed I held you in my arms
But as he stood slumped against the white walls of the silent waiting room he realized one thing for sure. He really wasn't on the greener side.
But when I woke dear I was mistaken
Perhaps in was the nostalgic feel. The fact that he'd seem to always find himself in the waiting room rather than the operating table, lucky right? Or maybe it was just an old man's mind playing tricks on him. Whatever it was, Kakashi knew it was his entire fault.
And I hung my head and I cried
Kakashi really wasn't envied.
Border of Sound and Mist
October 13, 2008
12:27 AM
Damn I can't hear a thing!
"Sakura!'
It was the rush of the falling rain against my back that began to put me on edge. I have to find her! I have to find Sakura before this mission becomes even more of a failure. It was reflex the way I grabbed the arm on my shoulder, but I was surprised when lips fell against my ears. I could nearly make out the whisper of "Kakashi" over the ringing in my ears and the pouring of the rain. I let her arm go and I finally let my tired body fall to the muddy wet ground. It was only a second later that her hands were over my ears and her chakra was lacing through my head.
"Sakura"
The rains to thick and I couldn't see her features, or make out her figure.
"Can you hear now? That sound-nin practically shattered your ear drums. Your one tough bastard, you know, your equilibrium should have been so off that you couldn't stand straight let alone run through the rain screaming my name."
I could just make out the way her features softened at me as she gave me a smile.
I'm so tired. This whole mission was a giant fuck up, and now that I found Sakura I just want to run back to Konoha. She seemed fine though, and I began to wonder if she took stabilizers. There were so many draw backs to those things.
I didn't react as I watched her hands fly through hand seals. It was the sound of the Kunai that jumped my senses as it was embedded into her shoulder.
The way you could hear the metal tear through the fabric of her shirt, and the shatter of metal hitting bone. Her eyes widening for a moment before her voice was drowned by the rain. I was speechless as four of the sound Shinobi began to scream bloody murder before falling to the ground. Just what kind of Genjutus was that? She was already fighting when I stood up to block the attacker on my right. I'm really screwing up.
Time is a funny thing. In battle time is in a sense distorted. What seems like seconds to you in reality could be minutes to another. I think that's why I lost track of how long I was fighting that ninja, and just why I missed what was going on.
"Kakashi!!" My head shifted in her direct as a wave of fear spread through me.
It was the way she looked back at me. Her eyes wide and on the verge of tears, as she began to run towards me her hands out stretched her voice at a desperate scream.
I wish I knew what happened. It was like slow motion. Sound simply stopped. The rain wasn't falling. It was just a series of flashing lights. Then everything suddenly sped up. I could hear her scream over the rain. It was a sudden sense of fear, once I heard her voice, and the explosions went off. Then nothing, no sound, no pain, just pitch black.
Konoha Hospital
October 13, 2008
3:38 AM
I'll always love you and make you happy
It never did take much to read him. His blue eyes were an open book. There was rarely a time when you had to look into his eyes to know his thought. He was vocal, he never hid who he was, or how he felt, he prided himself on that aspect, and that made him incredible...weak.
If you will only say the same
Naruto was, however, suddenly very docile. His features were blank and his eyes unfocused. The wound on his side was bandaged but one would have to wonder if that even pained him.
But if you leave me and love another
The truth of the matter was that Naruto said how he felt about everything, as long as it wasn't to or about Sakura.
You'll regret it all some day
"Hey guys, I really hate this song"
Konoha hospital
October 13, 2008
3:09 AM
"Broken collar bone, lacerations to the: arms, legs, waist, and left arm, concussion, internal hemorrhaging, Kidney damage, and one collapsed lung."
I don't have any damn idea what they were talking about. Can all of that really be wrong with Sakura-chan? If it is why are Kakashi and Sasuke just standing there listening like they're telling them that she got scratched by a cat?!
I don't understand! Why are they so calm!
I just want to scream!
I watched as the man was pushed to the side by granny.
"That doesn't matter! The problem is the internal bleeding. I can fix it and save her life if we remove her uterus."
There was a long pause. And I finally broke.
"Who cares, get rid of it! If it's going to save her! Who cares!? Sakura-chan might die!"
There was a short pause before Tsunade ignored me completely and focused of Sasuke.
"You understand what that means right?"
It took a short pause before he answered, "yes"
She was just looking at him and he wasn't saying anything. It was so fucking easy, just say yes!
"Tsunade just do it! You can't let Sakura-chan die!"
I was yelling but I didn't care
Her eyes snapped in my direction, "Naruto! Shut up! It's not your choice!"
My eyes flickered over to Sasuke, I hate him! I really hate him! He was wasting time! Sakura needed help! I hated that he was her fiancé that he got to chose!
"God Damn it Sasuke! It's SAKURA! SAKURA! You're going to let her die?!
I was going to strangle him. Punch his face in. I wanted to kill him!
But Tsunade stopped me, holding her arm out blocking my way.
And he just stood there.
Did he really even need to think about it?
Konoha hospital
October 13, 2008
3:39 AM
You told me once dear you really loved me
You would have to ask yourself how she did it. How she would walk past a group of people who were desperately waiting for news.
And no one could come between
Hungry eyes laying accusations down on you. "You couldn't do it" "You let them die" "They died because of you" But Tsunade would walk past a group of mourners without so much as a "sorry for your loss."
But now you've left me to love another
If you were an on looker you might call that strength. If you had any knowledge of the woman at all you would call it heartless.
You have shattered all of my dreams
But if you were wise at all you'd realize that was weakness.
Konoha hospital
October 13, 2008
3:40 AM
I walked into the room to see her sitting up. Her neck bandaged and her green eyes somewhat distant.
It didn't take long for her to turn in my direction. Her eyes suddenly soft and her body more relaxed.
I couldn't quiet face her. So I let my eyes focus on the window.
"How do you feel Sakura?"
I could hear the grin on her face.
"Well you know."
"Sakura I need to tell you something."
I could feel her eyes on me. It was pressure like I never felt before.
"You see Sakura, we called Sasuke down since you weren't conscious to make the call on your own. Sasuke chose to save your life. Do you understand?"
I knew I was telling her in detail the procedure, why we did it. How it was the only way to save her life. I really couldn't even hear my own voice. I felt like a record. When I was done there was nothing but silence.
I finally managed to catch a look at her features. I could feel the shaking in my hands and knees and I gripped at the side of the wall for support. I nearly broke into tears. She must have had the prettiest smile on her face as her tears seemed to flow out against her will. I could see the way her bandaged fingers gripped at the white sheets. The way her now long pink hair began to cover her features as her head fell towards her hands.
I could her voice repeating the same thing over and over.
"No, no, no ,no." I felt my body shake as she suddenly began to scream out.
I couldn't help the words floating through my head.
I've killed her.
Konoha hospital
October 13, 2008
3:40 AM
In all my dreams you seem to leave me
Anyone watching would have marveled at the way three skilled, feared ninja ran for one door. It was so easy to see the panic on their faces as soon as the sound of her voice echoed through the hall. That sad, hurtful plea. Everyone on the floor must have heard that broken "No".
When I awake my poor heart pains
Anyone would have thought it odd to see a woman crying over the fact that she was still alive.
So won't you come back and make me happy
Anyone would have thought it odd that her fiancée stood back and watched, as another man wrapped his arms around her in comfort. His bright blond hair mixing with that odd pink.
I'll forgive dear I'll take all the blame
Anyone would have thought it odd, but they weren't anyone. And it wasn't odd to lose everything you dreamed about for the future in one quiet hospital.
Konoha hospital
October 13, 2008
3:10 AM
"Just do it."
Her face was somewhat shocked. If Tsunade wanted another answer she should have been disappointed.
"Sasuke, you do understand."
Sasuke's eyes never meet hers.
"I said just do it."
The relief that spread on Naruto's face was easy to see.
"Sasuke are you sure?"
His voice was suddenly harsh.
"I said do it! I don't have a choice!"
Tsunade's head turned to the medic she had just pushed to the side. She gave him a brief nod, and the man rushed back into the medical ward.
Her voice suddenly became soft as she looked at the now 25 year old Uchiha.
"I'm sorry Sasuke. I know how bad you wanted children."
... ...
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
"I'm not going to take back my words. That's my way of the ninja!"
"Dead last" "Bastard" "Annoying" "Idiot"
You make me happy when skies are gray
"Get a good look at my back." "Scaredy cat"
"I love you with all my heart!" "Thank you"
You'll never know dear, how much I love you
"It's a promise of a life time!" "Next time we'll go together."
"He's like a brother to me" "I merely sparred your life on a whim" "I'll protect them"
"Sakura, Marry me." "You can't have children."
Please don't take my sunshine away