Author's Note: Inspired by thephoenixandthedragon4ever.
Ruin
Loki had gone back to the Weapons Vault and he stared at the stairs in denial. Not wanting to believe what Mother had done. It wasn't possible because Father hated him.
'What Mother has done ? What has Mother done. What have I done ? W-what if this is the time h-he doesn't wake up ? If I'd never made that deal with Laufey to make Thor learn something, we'd never have gone to Jotunheim. If we had never gone, I never would have found out...I-I'm-. It's not you're fault he fell into the Odinsleep. If he had told you the truth this wouldn't have happened. He knew you would find out somehow, this is his own fault.'
"Loki ? What happened to Odin ?"
His head jerked up and he turned to see Fandral looking at him. Clad in his silver armour, Fandral's blond-hair glowed in the torch light. Fandral would have frozen from touching the Casket, unlike him...the jotun, the monster.
'I can't tell Fandral what I am, he would hate me, everyone would hate me. He would think I put Father asleep on purpose to help Laufey. To ruin our chances of winning against them. I can't tell him, think of something else, anything else. Just omit the part about making the deal with Laufey, after all, it's still true without that. It is my fault.'
"It's-s m-my," When he realized that he was not only stuttering, but crying again, he wiped the tears away and tried to steady himself, "fault, Fandral. If I hadn't convinced Thor to go to Jotunheim, he wouldn't have gotten banished. The stress of it was too much for Father to bear...and it's all my fault. Father is asleep, Mother won't leave his side when she finds out and Thor is banished. What are we going to do if the Jotnar really do attack us ? We're almost helpless without Thor."
'You're not helpless, you're one of them, despite being a runt. I am not ! You are, Father said so, even though he's not your father. You heard what he said, you were just a tool to him, he doesn't care about you. All he wanted was to use and ruin you with your true heritage, not bring peace. No matter what Mother says, you know that he's always cared about Thor more than you.'
Sympathy in Fandral's grey-eyes as the Asgardian put a hand on his shoulder saying, "It's not your fault Thor went to Jotunheim, Loki. He would have gone anyway with or without us and he would have died without our help. Like you said earlier, he wouldn't have stopped until they were all dead or he was. We're lucky you told that guard or we all would have died. As for what we're going to do about the Jotnar we're going to fight them, of course."
He shook his head, "We can't, with Father asleep we can't use the Destroyer. If we could go to Midgard to find Thor and help him be worthy of Mjolnir again, we could defend Father and Asgard. We need to find Thor, Fandral."
Fandral stated, "Odin is asleep and Thor is banished, Loki. There is no one else...you are King of Asgard, now." It confused and frightened him far more when Fandral knelt with his fist over his heart than when the guard had presented Gungnir.
In response, he shouted, "No ! Father is not dead and Gungnir is not mine ! Get up, I am not King of Asgard, get up !"
"Then we will go to Midgard...my Prince."
His heartbeat pounded too loudly in his ears and he felt almost like passing out from relief when Fandral got up.
'Just find Thor on Midgard, help him get Mjolnir back. Father has to wake up after it, he must wake up. Then Laufey can die and no one needs to know that it was me. Thor need never know it was me. O' brother, dear lover, forgive me for this. He's not your brother anymore. Shut up !'
They set out for the Bifrost...his only hope for any sort of redemption.