Chapter 1: Understanding Feelings

"Umm... I'm not sure."

"Come on Remus. Imagine McGonagall's face" Said James trying to convince his lycantrhope friend to be a part of another prank.

" That's why! She'll kill us!" Remus answered.

"She won't know we did it." James started, but seeing the total disbeliefe look on Lupin's face, he agreed. " OK, she'll know, but is that a good enough reason for the marauders to behave? I don't think so!" and James smiled.

"James, I'm a prefect. I'm supposed to stop and punish this kind of thing" Remus replied with a grin.

" Please Moony" Asked Sirius with a beautiful smile on his face and big puppy eyes. Then he touched Remus's arm and said "You're not gonna let us down, will you?"

Remus couldn't say no to Sirius, especially when he was smiling like that, but when Sirius touched him, he felt a breze in his stomach and wished that hat his friend would never let go of him. Unfortunatly he did, and Remus said "OK" and the marauders cheered. What Remus could not know was tha Sirius felt the same way when he touched the werewolf's arm.

That night Sirius stayed awked for a while thinking about what he felt with that touch. He couldn't understand it , so he gave up and fell asleep.

From that day on the two of them were always playing fight or finding a way to "inocently" touch each other. Remus couldn't help but think about Sirius all the time, and whe he felt his friend's touch he would just melt, so the black haired boy always won the "figths".

What is happening to me? Remus asked himself enen though he already knew. I can't fell in love with Sirius, he's my best friend and doesn't feel that way for me. Or does he? Stop it Remus, this is ridiculous. He's your friend and nothing else!

" Mister Lupin, what do you think you're doing?" Called Professor Flitwick after being trhown at the other side of the room by Remus, who wasn't paying attention to himself or the spell he was supposed to be practicing.

"Oh, I'm sorry professor. I didn't mean to." I'm not concentrating on class because I'm thinking of him. That can't happen again. I'm a NEWT level student!

But it did happen again, and again, and again. Remus was finding very hard to stop thinking about Sirius, even on classes, but apperantly, he wasn't the only one.

That afternoon Remus was pairing Sirius on potions, and he found it even harder to concentrate ( add to the fact that he had never been really good at potions). Sirius didn't take his eyes off Lupin for a second ( neither halped with the potion) and Remus had no idea what he was doing in his cauldron.

BOOM!

"Mister Lupin, Mister Black!" Remus had exploded his cauldron .

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry professor Slughorn" Shit! You better control yourself Lupin, or you'll destroy the whole school! "I'm really really sorry."

"Your appologies won't do, Mister Lupin." Said Slughorn. "Twenty points from griffindor and the two of you will have detention here tomorrow night."

"Detention?" Said Sirius who had said nothing until now, because he was too busy laughing. Then with a sigh. " Fine, wathever! One more detention, one less, what difference does it make ?" Remus couldn't help smiling at this ( neither could Slughon, actually!) for it was true. Since their first year at Hogwarts, the marauders were always getting detentions for all the trouble they caused, especially Sirius and James.

The bell rang, and the four marauders left to the Great Hall.

"What's wrong with you Moony?" Asked James amused. "Or should I say, what's right? You're cousing trouble in every class."

"The bad thing is, he doesn't invite us to take part on the prank." Said Sirius with a mock offensend expression. "I tought we were friends!"

"Well, you contribuited to the prank today. It was your potions too!" James replied. "I should have exploded mine... or Snivellus's, but I guess Evans wouldn't like that." James sighed as Sirius rolled his eyes.

"It was not a prank, none of it." Remus answered. "I'm just finding a little harder to concentrate thes days, that's all."

"And why is that, I wander ?" Asked James with a grin.

" I don't know. I have no idea." Oh my god, does he know? Does James know? He thought desperatly.

"I'm not sure I like this idea of Remus not concentrating on class." Said Peter, and everyone looked at him. "whose notes and homework are we going to copy?"

"Err... I usually do my own homework." Said James

"Me too" Said Sirius.

"Well, there's a good side for everything." Said Remus. "At least now you're gonna have to do your own homework, and actually learn something!"

"Since when that's a good side?" Questined Peter, and everyone laughed. "Prongs, would you let me copy your homework? Please?"

" I'll think about it" Answered James. "but not now. Now it's time for dinner."

That night the four marauders were doing their homeworks at the Griffindor Tower. No, James was doing his homework, the others were just trying. Peter couldn't do it on his own ( except for the transfiguration essay) and, Remus couldn't concentrate because Sirius was always talking to him or playing games that'd caused them to touch and that was driving him mad, though also making him happy. Sirius was doing so, because he couldn't concentrate on his homework ( he could hardly think, actually) when Remus looked so beautiful and charming when he was studing. Wait a minute, Thought Sirius for the thousendth time that week, Why do I care how he looks? And why does he look so beautiful to me?

"I'm gonna read upstairs," Said Remus and Sirius came out of his reverie. "I just can't concentrate." And he went to the boys dorm.

"Peter?" Called James. " Do you still want to copy my homework?"

"Yes, of course!" exclaimed Peter

" take it," Said James handing Peter his homework. "but do it upstairs, wiil you? I want to talk to Sirius alone." He added when Peter just stood there.

"Fine." Peter said and went upstairs.

"I hope he doesn't bother Moony." Said Sirius who was just half listening to the other boys and looking at the stairs.

"Why do you care?" Questioned James examining Sirius's face.

"Well, you know Remus, he cares a lot about that study thing and he's not doing very well at it, these days. He's really worried. Besides Wormtail can be really annoying some times." Answered Sirius.

"I meant, why do YOU care about Remus so much?" Repeated James.

"Well, he's my friend!"

" Peter and I are your friends too, but I don't see you caring about us THAT much..."

"well, that's because Remus is more sensitive and frail looking, especially because of his lycanthropy and ..."

" ... and you just can't stop staring at him." Continued James, as if he had not been interrupted at all, and Sirius fell silent. "And what about all those fight games and everything, isn't it all an excuse to touch him?" And after a small period of silence. "Come on, Sirius. Admit it. I'm your best friend, you can tell me!"

"Tell what? Admit what? That I do all these things?" Sirius exploded. "Yes, I do, but I don't know why! OK? I don't know why I have to touch him, OK? I just have to. I don't know why I just can't take my eyes off of him, like today at Potions, or at dinner. I don't know why I care about him so much, execpet that he is so sensitive, he's so frail and the same time SO strong, he's so pure and innocent even though he's a marauder, he's so intelligent, sweet, beautiful, charming, irresistible,sexy... I love him, alright? I just love him!" And then realizing what he had said. "Oh my God! Oh my God, I love him! That's why!"

"Yes, that's why!" James agreed smiling. " So, what are you gonna do now?"

"I don't know." Sirius said. "Nothing I guess."

"What do you mean nothing? Aren't you going to ask him out?"

"Ask him out?!" Said Sirius in disbelief. "Prongs, he's not interested in me. Besides, he probably like girls."

"Oh really, he likes girls? When was the last time you saw him with one?" James was right, he had never seen Remus with a girl before! Sirius already had a lot of girls ( the whole school knew it ), James dated a few girls too and was always trying to get Lily Evans to like him, and even Peter had been seen dating a girl once, but Remus never seemed to be much interested in them. "And what makes you say he's not interested in you? Sirius, haven't you noticed that he does everything you ask, even when he had already said no to me or Peter? Didn't you notice tha he blushes everytime you touch him? That he smiles everytime you call him? And that lately he just can't concentrate everytime you're around him? No wander he blew up his cauldron today; you were too close and wouldn't stop looking at him!" James explained with a know–it-all expression on his face.

"Do you really think he likes me?" Sirius questioned hopefully.

"Yes. So, will you go upstairs ask him out, or what?" Asked James.

"No. It cannot be like that, mate. He's not like any of those girls I dated. He's Remus! He means a lot to me! Besides I never saw him with anyone before, especially a guy, it may be a shock to hi. I've got to take it easy. Go slowly."

"Fine, just don't take too long, will you? Next time, he's probably going to explode the whole class!" And they laughed.

Author's Note: Hey! It's my first fic in english, cool huh?! I hope you liked! I would really love to know what you thought about it .Please review.