Exilation
Exiled....
Banished...kicked out...expelled...driven away.... It doesn't matter what words you use, it's all the same. I've once again become the 'forbidden child' and have been cast away from the one I love because of the hurtful thoughts of others. Once again my feelings and opinions have been ignored and I have been left alone. But this time it's different. It's not because of what I am, but because of who he is.
Kurama...you're the only one who truly cares for me; the only one who could melt this fire demon's heart of ice. You invaded my loneliness and made me feel, with your easy smile and open tenderness. Like those beautiful roses you're so fond of, you're not one to be easily forgotten. What started out as a partnership became friendship...and then more...and I was sincerely hopeful, and anxious, to see where we would end up.
But now, that person whom you'd always spoken so highly of, that woman, has asked me to get out. Told really, for what could I do? Say "no, I won't leave your house"? She wants your happiness, but will drive away your weird little friend if she doesn't approve, whether she knows of your relationship or not. Overly protective of her Shuuichi, ne? Hn. She doesn't even know who you really are.
Will you tell her? Will you tell your human mother where you really come from? What you really are? What you're really doing when you claim to be studying? And what will she say? Will she think you're lying or dreaming? Maybe she'll say it's a phase and will pass; humans like to think that. Especially when the truth isn't what they want it to be. She'll insist you stop pretending, and get back to school work, or maybe go take some pretty girl, one that she approves of, on a date. Humans are stupid.
How you must be hurting now. I wonder...what was your reaction when you returned from your bathing and found me missing? There one minute, gone the next. I didn't even get to say goodbye. But believe me when I say this...I did not want to go. It was out of my hands, for I can not harm this person that you care so much for, even as she has hurt you.
Kurama, please don't forget me. Despite the way things may seem at this moment...you will see me again. When your ties to the human world are gone and you're free to be the kitsune you were meant to be, I'll be there. Until then, be happy. Stay strong, stay sharp, and remember that, somewhere out there, a fire demon is thinking of you, and watching you with all three eyes.
note: as far as I know, 'exilation' isn't really a word (not in the dictionary anyways..). my logic is...it comes from the word 'exile': to be banished. (kind of like 'condemnation' is 'to be condemned') make sense? ~_~* I didn't think so....