Good evening to all. Happy Hollidays and welcome to the first chapter of the story I wrote. (Very Formal. Lol)

Anyways, I own nothing.

CHAPTER 1

SHE WILL BE LOVED

"Listen, there is this concert. I am not sure if you are going to like it or not but I think I am really going to like it. So . . . do you wanna come . . . with me?" I asked my boyfriend, Christian in a very awkward manner. We have been together for six months now yet I still don't feel open to him. Like now, I am standing right in front of his desk and he is focusing on the computer. I really do feel like I am the secretary and not the girlfriend.

"When?" He asked formally as if I am his assistant.

"Tuesday night so it means tomorrow night. I really love Maroon 5 so . . . yeah." I whispered at my last word.

"I have a meeting tomorrow night. I will make it up to you. I promise." My heartbeat suddenly decelerated. God, I am rejected over and over and over again. When will this ever end?

I gathered the brave side of me and insisted, "Okay, so if you are not available tomorrow, maybe we can go somewhere else this wednesday?"

His eyebrows arched together. "Is there still a Maroon 5 concert this wednesday?" I sighed at that. He really doesn't get the point.

"Okay, look . . . I am going to be honest with you. I really am a big fan of Maroon 5 but the main point of going out is to spend time with you. Can you just have an Anastasia appointment day please?" I bit my lip at that. Even though it was very awkward, I said what I felt.

I looked at him and sighed frustratedly. "Christian?" What? He didn't even hear me. He just typed actively on his computer. I rolled my eyes at that. Okay, this is getting too much.

I hissed, "Christian, for once, just listen to me."

He stopped typing and scratched his head. He looked really aggravated. "You know what Baby? It is really hard to be the CEO of a successful company and it is going to be harder if your girlfriend is not understanding at all."

What? I am the one who is not understanding now? I rolled my eyes at him but thankfully he did not see that. He proceeded on typing whatever he needs to. I sighed multiple times at that. I am really losing it. I am really losing my temper . . . and I am sure he is losing his too.

"Fine Christian" I swallowed my pride. Mom taught me that when your boyfriend is mad, don't get mad at him also and it should be vice versa.

Okay, I know he didn't hear me again. He is just so busy.

"Christian, I need to go now. I still have to write an article for the magazine." I just stood up and looked down.

"Okay Baby. I love you." He said and I secretly thanked the Lord because he heard me.

I took a deep breath before saying, "I love you too"

With that, I went out of his office or his building I must say. My face was too disturbed as people from GEH greeted me. I walked so fast because I cannot take this anymore. I ignored the cabs because I just want to walk my anger off.

He claims that I am not understanding. I really don't understand why. He has let me down so many times. I can give ten reasons.

First, our relationship is not public. Both of us only know that we are together. He claims that he is not ready for extreme commitment.

Second, he hates animals. I had a dog once and he made me get rid of it because it turns him off.

Third, he's got that hot and cold attitude. I don't know why but there is something that's holding him back.

Fourth, he never likes movie nights with me. I had no choice but to put away Meg Ryan and Rachel McAdams films for Quentin Tarantino ones.

Fifth, he spends more time with his friends than he has with me. Like last time, I waited so long inside of his apartment for him and he arrived drunk in the middle of the night. He claimed he had boy's night out with Eliott and the other boys.

Sixth, he doesn't like my job. He said that no one ever reads LIFE MAGAZINE. He wants me to work in magazines like Time or US Daily or Nylon. He won't ever get me to agree with him.

Seventh, he's got a bit of temper. Sometimes I just have PMS and he loses it. He combusts right in front of me.

Eighth, he never opens up. He shares about his life but he seems too guarded. Hell, he knows my biography and I just know like ten percent about him.

Ninth, he makes me feel like I am the last on his list. I don't want to talk about that.

Tenth, he makes me feel unloved.

I walked along the street and just hugged myself. Sometimes I wonder why I am still with him when I am just the last on his list. There are times when I want to leave him but I just can't. I just want to relax and find a love that will heighten my self esteem and not cause inferiority.

Sometimes, I just want to give up.

I paused on the side of the street as I received a text message. I pulled out the iPhone he gave me and just like before, he made me smile in just a few words.

From: Christian

Baby I am really sorry. I will find time for us. Go watch the concert tomorrow night. I love you.

PS be careful as you go home

All of a sudden, the bitterness went away and I just forgot the ten reasons why I should give up on him.

I realized that the reason why I am holding on is because I was hoping that he can love me as much as I love him.

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