so this was my fate hehwell can't really say i plame big brother didn't know him well enough and i would like to know if he was a traitor of a friend after the only friends i had were my two brothers Yazoo and Loz and as i lay here in this endless sea of white waiting for my being to fade into nothing of coures i was already a puppet to began with so it doesn't really matter does it
i never had a reason for a life to began with the only thing i knew about living was to find mother and the reuion and then i would fade away and be with mother for the rest of my life hem but know i guess i can't start over after all i am at the edge soon to be faded into nothing
I know that i am not a puppet anymore but still here alone in this place i fell emty i don't really fell like myself i just fell lonely without my dear brothers at my side
I am no one i don't exsit
as i lay here my time is almost up but i will tell you one more thing before i fade
i was never understood even now i think upon the past i have in my memory i can see my dear brother loz crying for me i can also see yazoo silently crying heh my dear brothers even now i can't but if i could just once i wish i could tell them how much the mean to me and how much i love them i never really got to tell them this but i guess since this is the last time i will get to talk i will just say this my brothers without them i could not go on
my wounds will not heal without pain
And now i fell broken like a piece of glass shattered into a million piece to tell the truth everything i said and done i regret it all becaues with mother or not this endless sea of white fells not like a safe place but a cold and broken jail sell
my heart is broken i can't stand it i fell nothing more then a burden of shame
and now as my last minutes are being tooken away from me i would just like to say that i am sorry my dear brothers i never got a chance to thank you for all that you have done for me if it weren't for you two at my side i would have not been able to experiance what a family could be even thow it was just you two i couldn't have ask for any others brothers and i guess my life wasn't a waste becaues i had you two at my side and even if your not here its okay i know the two of you know the same but please dear brothers never forgot without you two the life i had would have been useless without you two
and now my time is over i wish i could have talk more about my feelings for my brothers who i loved so dearly but even thow my time was short for me to talk i would just like to say this as my final words
never regret never dought my brothers I was happy that i had two i had both of you my dear brothers.