Disclaimers: I don't own Escaflowne it belongs to all the companys that own it, if I did own Escaflowne I wouldn't need this disclaimer now would I? Don't sue I'm just a middle school student the most you'll get is my computer and it's my computer ya hear mine!

I don't own the song "Never Ever" either it belongs to All Saints. I got this idea somewhere around two in the morning, my damn muse has no respect for the fact I need sleep to function at school.

Never Ever

A few questions that I need to know
How you could ever hurt me so
I need to know what i've done wrong
And how long it's been going on
Was it that I never paid enough attention
Or did I not give enough affection
Not only will your answers keep me sane
But i'll know never to make the same mistake again
You can tell me to my face
Or even on the phone
You can write it in a letter
Either way i've have to know
Did I never treat you right
Did I always start the fight
Either way i'm going out of my mind
All the answers to my questions I have to find

Hitomi sighed as her thoughts once again trailed to the far off planet Gaea, specificallt the boy king who had so easily stolen her heart. She couldn't help but ask what had she done wrong, did I not show him I cared? What did I do wrong, how could I have left my heart and happiness behind without a second thought? I haven't been able to enter a sucessful relationship with a guy since I came back. Life was so easy before. Sighing Hitomi looked at the sky wistfully.

My head's spinnin'
Boy i'm in a daze
I feel isolated
Don't wanna communicate
I take a shower
I will scour
I will roam
To find peace of mind
The happy mind
I once owned yeah

I tried to talk to my friends, I tried to talk to my mom, why can't I convey my feelings to them anymore, Why can't I stop thinking about you!?! Hitomi yelled at the sky.

Flexing vocabulary runs right through me
The alphabet runs right from a to zee
Conversations, hesatations in my mind
You got my conscience
Asking questions that I can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong, no
I'm just waiting cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Why? The question won't leave me alone, how come you won't tell me! Hitomi continued to yell at the sky.

Never ever have I ever felt so low
When you gonna take me out of this black hole
Never ever have I ever felt so sad
The way i'm feeling yeah you got me feeling really
Never ever have I had to find
I've had to dig away to find my own piece of mind
I've never ever had my conscience to fight
The way i'm feeling yeah it just don't feel right

I want to go back, I want him to come I just want to see him again! Hitomi was starting to get hoarse from yelling at the stars that twinkled in seemly mocking amusment at her outburst.

I'll keep searching
Deep within my soul
For all the answers
Don't wanna hurt no more
I need peace gotta feel at ease
Need to be
Free from pain
Go insane
My heart aches yeah

Hitomi reflected on the time she spent there and her actions, how at first she seemed to love Allen. taking a deep breath Hitomi yelled to the stars again vexated by their stony silence, "Damn you Allen, Damn you Van!" she screamed. Falling to her knees Hitomi began to sob losing hope she would ever see the one who held her heart again.

Sometimes vocabulary runs through my head
The alphabet runs right from a to zed
Conversations, hesatations in my mind
You got my concience asking questions that i can't find
I'm not crazy
I'm sure I aint done nothing wrong
Now i'm just awaiting cos I heard that this feeling won't last that long

Whispering now Hitomi continued to question the stars, "Why haven't you talked to me Van, have you found another? Did you forget about me already?" she asked between sobs.

Hitomi wiped her eyes and looked at the stars, they now seemed to smile serenely at her instead of mocking her. Sniffing Hitomi hugged her legs to her chest wondering when she became such a wreck, was it last year? Last week?

"Van will I ever see you again, how while this fairy tale romance end, happily ever after or tragedy?

You can tell me to my face
You can tell me on the phone
Oooh you can write it in a letter babe
Cos I really need to know
You can write it in a letter babe
You can write in in a letter babe(fade)

Getting up Hitomi glanced at the stars once more, slowly a smile spread across her features. Gazing at the stars she asked "You won't tell me will you?" only to be answered by a single white feather falling into her hands.

How was that? I hate songfics but I write them anyway *sigh* I'm just the walking contradiction aren't I. Review please. Ja Ne!