AN: Hey guys! Clodagh here with an old show and a new ship! Watched the first season and was obsessed, missed the second season but then I binge-watched the two seasons over a weekend with my mum and IS IT MARCH YET?
And oops, I walked away with a new ship. Mike and Max though. 3 The angst and potential is real.
This ended quite happily so no doubt I'll write a more angsty one about how it got fucked up between season two and three. But for now, have this semi-happy piece of poetry writing thing!
Let me know what you think and have a great day!
I recommend listening to Kodaline's 'One Day' while reading this because that song just screams Maxton to me.
You've felt this way for far too long
Waiting for a change to come
You know you're not the only one
And life passes you by
Don't be wasting your time
On your own.
-Kodaline 'One Day'.
It feels like every time Joe Carroll comes
Into your life
You walk away with nothing but scars
And darkness.
However Ryan's just like you
So at least you aren't alone in your
Bitterness.
Last time you walked away still a rookie
With your first loss and
First battle scar
And optimistic that when someone gets
Caught in an explosion
They have to be dead.
Oh how you were so young and foolish back then.
But Carroll is back
And the words
'I was wrong, Ryan, I'm sorry'
Taste like vinegar
And a piece of that innocence is lost.
But you aren't alone,
Because Max came into your life.
You never understood why hurricanes
Were named after people
Until you met her
And saw storms
Destroying small villages
In her eyes.
She was impossible to understand
Except for her relentless love for her uncle
And you understand the feeling
Of idolising Ryan Hardy
Then getting to know the flawed man
And loving him anyway.
So two became three
Reluctant at first
Because you never can quite take back what you said about the death curse
But slowly she starts letting you in
To that circle of trust and caring
That only held Ryan before.
You may have gained an ally
But you're losing yourself in the process
And sometimes even Max can't bring you back.
So you leave, but you come back
(For her, always for her)
But oh the price is hard to pay.
You swallow your grief
And stand tall at your father's funeral
And don't let yourself crumble
Until you're with her
The two of you sitting in silence and with
The comfort of knowing
In the city where it's so easy to get lost
You've at least found someone who can share your pain.
But it doesn't last
(It never does)
And your entire being is thrumming
For justice
For revenge
For blood
And you can't be the good person Max thinks you are
But it's okay
Because she never thought you were perfect
And she understands that need to do something about what you were
Powerless to stop
And she understands when
You show up at her apartment with a bloody face and soaking wet
The smell of whiskey coming off you in waves
Because she knows what it's like to be empty.
And she smiles and says 'Finally' when you kiss her
And you think
'yeah, finally'
Because maybe all you needed
To give you the incentive to be whole again
To be good again
Not even for her but for yourself
Was standing beside you
all along.
You walk away
With a few more scars
And a lot more darkness
Than before
But you walked away with her
And that makes the load easier to bear.
