Title: Still Holding Out for You
Author: Amanda M. Daugherty
E-mail: Country_girl_2003@Yahoo.com
Rating: G
Classification: (Harm/Mac)
Spoilers: NONE
Summary: Take's place in the future and that's all I'm
going to say.
Disclaimers: Don't own JAG or the song Still Holding
Out for You belongs to SHeDaisy.
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Rabb Residence
Alexandria VA
"Mommy when's daddy coming home?" five year old
Harmon Patrick Rabb III asked running into the
kitchen where is mother, Lt. Col. Sarah Mackenzie
was busy fixing breakfast.
"Soon honey. He's has a very important job.
Here eat your breakfast." Mac told Harmon, who goes
be Hammer, sitting a plate of eggs and pancakes in
front of him.
"Mommy I don't want eggs." Hammer complained.
Hammer was so much like Harm. He never ate
meat, wanted to be a pilot, and he looked exactly
like Harm did at that age.
"Alright Hammer you don't have to eat your
eggs." Mac said as she started to go through
yesterday's mail. She had been so tired yesterday
when she got in from work that she put Hammer to bed
and went to bed herself.
Noticing a yellow package with her and Hammer's
name on it Mac gave it to Hammer to open. She know
how much he loved getting mail from his daddy who
was flying off the Patrick Henry.
"Hammer daddy sent you another tape." Mac gave
Hammer the package. Every since Harm went back to
flying on the carrier he started sending letter
tapes to Mac and Hammer like his dad did to him and
his mom.
Hammer ran upstairs to get his cassette player
so he could hear his daddy's latest adventures. Mac
started to clean up the table where Hammer left his
breakfast.
Hammer's room
"Hey son." Harm's voice came over the cassette
player.
"Hi daddy." Hammer replied just like he was
there.
"You'll never believe this Hammer, daddy's
flying with Uncle Keeter again. Isn't that cool.
Yesterday Keeter and I went up and two Russian Migs
got on our tail." Harm started to explain his latest
fight to Hammer. Hammer listened to the tape over
and over until Mac called him down to go to school.
Mac helped him Hammer with his backpack and
jacket and was about to open the door when there was
a knock on the door.
Opening it Mac found two naval officers. One was
holding a yellow envelope and the other carried a
bible.
"Hammer go get mommy's briefcase for me, okay."
Mac told her son. She didn't want him to hear what
she knew was coming.
"May I help you?" Mac asked although she knew
that they were here to inform her that Hammer's
father was gone and was never coming back.
"We're here to see Sarah Mackenzie." The taller,
one holding the envelope stated.
"I'm Sarah Mackenzie."
"Ms. Mackenzie, we regret to inform you that
your husband Commander Harmon Rabb Jr.'s F-14
crashed into the South China Sea killing him and his
RIO Lt. Commander Jack Keeter. Commander Rabb and
Lt. Commander Keeter were great officers and were a
great service to their country." The taller of the
men said.
Mac didn't hear the rest of what she said she
ran after Hammer who had stood by the window and
listened to what the men had said.
Mac ran out back to the tree house that Hammer
and Harm had built when Hammer was just three years
old. He and Harm spent most of their time together
in that tree house. Mac wasn't allowed in there.
"Hammer." Mac cooed carefully walking up the
steps.
She heard the crying of the tiny child.
"He's not dead. He's coming home. He promised
me he'd take me fishing and help me with baseball.
He's not gone." Hammer yelled.
"I'm sorry Hammer." Was all she said. Instead
she held Hammer as they both cried for the man they
loved.
JAG Headquarters
Falls Church VA
Next Day
"May I have everyone's attention please." Rear
Admiral AJ Chegwidden asked walking into the bullpen
of the Navy's Judge Advocate General core in Falls
Church VA.
"Many of you have noticed that Col. Mackenzie is
not here today nor will she be here for the next
three weeks. I regret to inform you that Commander
Harmon Rabb Jr.'s F-14 tomcat crashed into the
South China Sea yesterday afternoon."
It was like all the air was sucked out of the
room. Everybody was shocked. A couple of ladies
were heard crying.
"Commander was a great lawyer, pilot, husband,
father and a damn fine officer. He will be missed."
was all the ex-seal said before heading back into
his office so nobody could see the tear slide down
his face.
The next few days past in slow motion for Mac.
Trish and Frank had flown in to help Mac and for the
funeral for Harm. Harm was being buried in
Arlington beside Keeter. The Admiral planed the
funeral since neither Mac or Trish felt like making
plans to bury the man they loved. Hammer never said
a word or cried for his daddy after the day he found
out that Harm had died. Hammer put up a brave front
and acted like nothing happened. Trish said he was
being to act like Harm did at that age.
Rabb Residence
Alexandria, Va.
13 Years Later
Today was her and Harm's anniversary. This was
always a rough time for Mac since Harm's F-14 had
crashed 13 years ago. She had never remarried she
couldn't marry anyone else. It just felt like she
was cheating on Harm. On this day Mac was laying in
their bed listening to the radio looking at the
pictures of her and Harm's wedding day.
"I can hear you smile in the dark
I can even feel your breathing
But daylight chases the ghosts
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I'm clinging
Now's when I need them most
I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that's what you would have said."
"I still run, I still swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come
around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you"
"Alright guys I'll see you later." Mac heard a
male voice say from the doorway. It sounded just
like Harm's.
"Harm" Mac yelled getting up off the bed and
running down the stairs. "Harm" Mac yelled again at
the tall figure that was standing in the door with
his back to her.
Suddenly the figure turned around.
"Harm!" Mac gasped.
"Mom?" Mac heard her son ask.
"Hammer. I'm sorry I thought you were someone
else." Mac said through her tear filled eyes.
"You thought I was dad again didn't you?" Hammer
could always figure what Mac was thinking. He had
turned into his father.
"No of course not." Mac lied.
"Mom" Hammer pleaded. " I know you're lying to
me."
"Alright I did think you were your father. You
sound so much like him and when I heard your voice
along with looking at our wedding pictures I just
remember him."
"I know mom. I miss him too"
"Hammer do you blame me for not getting
remarried so you could have a father."
"You know I don't mom. You remember what you
told me about dad. That he disliked his stepfather.
Don't you think I would be the same way. Nobody
could take dad's place and I grew up with plenty of
father figures Grampa AJ, Uncle Bud. So you see I
always had someone around me to be like a father."
"I just miss him so much."
"So do I mom, but he's always watching out for
us. Remember that." Hammer smiled and for a minute
Mac could swear that she saw Harm standing in front
of his 'vette' that now was Hammer's smiling at his
family.
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**********************************************
FEEDBACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS. I've written several fanfics that haven't been
posted on the new lists I've joined. If you would like
to read them e-mail me and I'll be happy to. I really
don't want to post them all over again, because
several people are on several lists and have already
read these and I don't want to clog up their
mailboxes.
Author: Amanda M. Daugherty
E-mail: Country_girl_2003@Yahoo.com
Rating: G
Classification: (Harm/Mac)
Spoilers: NONE
Summary: Take's place in the future and that's all I'm
going to say.
Disclaimers: Don't own JAG or the song Still Holding
Out for You belongs to SHeDaisy.
************************
Rabb Residence
Alexandria VA
"Mommy when's daddy coming home?" five year old
Harmon Patrick Rabb III asked running into the
kitchen where is mother, Lt. Col. Sarah Mackenzie
was busy fixing breakfast.
"Soon honey. He's has a very important job.
Here eat your breakfast." Mac told Harmon, who goes
be Hammer, sitting a plate of eggs and pancakes in
front of him.
"Mommy I don't want eggs." Hammer complained.
Hammer was so much like Harm. He never ate
meat, wanted to be a pilot, and he looked exactly
like Harm did at that age.
"Alright Hammer you don't have to eat your
eggs." Mac said as she started to go through
yesterday's mail. She had been so tired yesterday
when she got in from work that she put Hammer to bed
and went to bed herself.
Noticing a yellow package with her and Hammer's
name on it Mac gave it to Hammer to open. She know
how much he loved getting mail from his daddy who
was flying off the Patrick Henry.
"Hammer daddy sent you another tape." Mac gave
Hammer the package. Every since Harm went back to
flying on the carrier he started sending letter
tapes to Mac and Hammer like his dad did to him and
his mom.
Hammer ran upstairs to get his cassette player
so he could hear his daddy's latest adventures. Mac
started to clean up the table where Hammer left his
breakfast.
Hammer's room
"Hey son." Harm's voice came over the cassette
player.
"Hi daddy." Hammer replied just like he was
there.
"You'll never believe this Hammer, daddy's
flying with Uncle Keeter again. Isn't that cool.
Yesterday Keeter and I went up and two Russian Migs
got on our tail." Harm started to explain his latest
fight to Hammer. Hammer listened to the tape over
and over until Mac called him down to go to school.
Mac helped him Hammer with his backpack and
jacket and was about to open the door when there was
a knock on the door.
Opening it Mac found two naval officers. One was
holding a yellow envelope and the other carried a
bible.
"Hammer go get mommy's briefcase for me, okay."
Mac told her son. She didn't want him to hear what
she knew was coming.
"May I help you?" Mac asked although she knew
that they were here to inform her that Hammer's
father was gone and was never coming back.
"We're here to see Sarah Mackenzie." The taller,
one holding the envelope stated.
"I'm Sarah Mackenzie."
"Ms. Mackenzie, we regret to inform you that
your husband Commander Harmon Rabb Jr.'s F-14
crashed into the South China Sea killing him and his
RIO Lt. Commander Jack Keeter. Commander Rabb and
Lt. Commander Keeter were great officers and were a
great service to their country." The taller of the
men said.
Mac didn't hear the rest of what she said she
ran after Hammer who had stood by the window and
listened to what the men had said.
Mac ran out back to the tree house that Hammer
and Harm had built when Hammer was just three years
old. He and Harm spent most of their time together
in that tree house. Mac wasn't allowed in there.
"Hammer." Mac cooed carefully walking up the
steps.
She heard the crying of the tiny child.
"He's not dead. He's coming home. He promised
me he'd take me fishing and help me with baseball.
He's not gone." Hammer yelled.
"I'm sorry Hammer." Was all she said. Instead
she held Hammer as they both cried for the man they
loved.
JAG Headquarters
Falls Church VA
Next Day
"May I have everyone's attention please." Rear
Admiral AJ Chegwidden asked walking into the bullpen
of the Navy's Judge Advocate General core in Falls
Church VA.
"Many of you have noticed that Col. Mackenzie is
not here today nor will she be here for the next
three weeks. I regret to inform you that Commander
Harmon Rabb Jr.'s F-14 tomcat crashed into the
South China Sea yesterday afternoon."
It was like all the air was sucked out of the
room. Everybody was shocked. A couple of ladies
were heard crying.
"Commander was a great lawyer, pilot, husband,
father and a damn fine officer. He will be missed."
was all the ex-seal said before heading back into
his office so nobody could see the tear slide down
his face.
The next few days past in slow motion for Mac.
Trish and Frank had flown in to help Mac and for the
funeral for Harm. Harm was being buried in
Arlington beside Keeter. The Admiral planed the
funeral since neither Mac or Trish felt like making
plans to bury the man they loved. Hammer never said
a word or cried for his daddy after the day he found
out that Harm had died. Hammer put up a brave front
and acted like nothing happened. Trish said he was
being to act like Harm did at that age.
Rabb Residence
Alexandria, Va.
13 Years Later
Today was her and Harm's anniversary. This was
always a rough time for Mac since Harm's F-14 had
crashed 13 years ago. She had never remarried she
couldn't marry anyone else. It just felt like she
was cheating on Harm. On this day Mac was laying in
their bed listening to the radio looking at the
pictures of her and Harm's wedding day.
"I can hear you smile in the dark
I can even feel your breathing
But daylight chases the ghosts
I see your coat and I fall apart
To those hints of you I'm clinging
Now's when I need them most
I should get up, dry my eyes and move ahead
At least that's what you would have said."
"I still run, I still swing open the door
I still think, you'll be there like before
Doesn't everybody out there know to never come
around
Some things a heart won't listen to
I'm still holding out for you"
"Alright guys I'll see you later." Mac heard a
male voice say from the doorway. It sounded just
like Harm's.
"Harm" Mac yelled getting up off the bed and
running down the stairs. "Harm" Mac yelled again at
the tall figure that was standing in the door with
his back to her.
Suddenly the figure turned around.
"Harm!" Mac gasped.
"Mom?" Mac heard her son ask.
"Hammer. I'm sorry I thought you were someone
else." Mac said through her tear filled eyes.
"You thought I was dad again didn't you?" Hammer
could always figure what Mac was thinking. He had
turned into his father.
"No of course not." Mac lied.
"Mom" Hammer pleaded. " I know you're lying to
me."
"Alright I did think you were your father. You
sound so much like him and when I heard your voice
along with looking at our wedding pictures I just
remember him."
"I know mom. I miss him too"
"Hammer do you blame me for not getting
remarried so you could have a father."
"You know I don't mom. You remember what you
told me about dad. That he disliked his stepfather.
Don't you think I would be the same way. Nobody
could take dad's place and I grew up with plenty of
father figures Grampa AJ, Uncle Bud. So you see I
always had someone around me to be like a father."
"I just miss him so much."
"So do I mom, but he's always watching out for
us. Remember that." Hammer smiled and for a minute
Mac could swear that she saw Harm standing in front
of his 'vette' that now was Hammer's smiling at his
family.
THE END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
**********************************************
FEEDBACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS. I've written several fanfics that haven't been
posted on the new lists I've joined. If you would like
to read them e-mail me and I'll be happy to. I really
don't want to post them all over again, because
several people are on several lists and have already
read these and I don't want to clog up their
mailboxes.