WARNING: Just so you peeps know this story will be SasuNaru yaoi which means boyxboy stuff so if you don't like, don't read. There will be bad language from the start so if you don't like that then please don't read. Otherwise, enjoy!
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters but I do own the storyline and the song in this chapter is 'I'm not okay' by MCR

The Beginning

BAM!

"I've told you to stop spending so much money!"

"You can't decide how much money I spend! I have a job so I can spend how much money I want! Don't shout at me like I'm your daughter!"

"It's not as easy as that! You're not the only one who needs money in this family!"

They're at it again. Another fight about money. I went up to my room and switched on my iPod, it continues with the song that hadn't finished the last time I turned it off... "I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I'm not okay. You wear me out. What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? I've told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means to be a joke and look another line without a hook, I held you close as we both shook. For the last time, take a good hard look..."

"See what you've done! You made Naruto go to his room again!"

"It's his choice if he wants to go to his room. Stop changing the subject!"

Not loud enough. I turned the volume up to level 30 until I could hear nothing more than my precious music. Ahh how lovely the dangerously loud music sounds in my ears. At first, I was a bit scared that it might make me loose some of my hearing at an early age but now I've grown accustomed to it, all I want is for the music to drive away the sound of my parents fighting again. I'm Naruto Uzumaki by the way, 15 and a freshman in high school. My life is what you could call miserable. The only good thing about my life is my friends; when I'm with them it feels like my life at home doesn't quite exist and I'm happy for once. You could also say that school makes me forget life at home as well but I have to say; the homework's a bitch.

My parents are Minato Namikaze and Kushina Uzumaki. Don't ask why I have my mother's last name and not my father's because I don't know. My mother has bipolar depression but still works at a supermarket and my father is a police officer. They fight all the time when both are home from work, – thankfully, both come home late but that doesn't really help much – it's mostly because my mum either spends money on unnecessary things or she just starts shouting random unimportant things at me or my dad and sometimes both of us. The phrase 'I hate my parents' would be an understatement. I would regard it more as 'I despise my mother and don't know why my father married her in the first place'-

"GET DOWN HERE NOW NARUTO!" My father rarely shouts but I guess he's angry at yet another waste of money. His shout was loud enough that I heard it even when the music volume was 30. I turned off my music, my ears tingling from the loss of sound and headed downstairs.

"What?" My voice was hoarse because I hadn't talked in what seemed like hours.

"Wash the dishes."

'Fuck you' I thought giving him a glare but went to wash them anyway. I had nothing else to do either way.

"Your mum has calmed down now and is in her bedroom, don't go in."

"..." Like I give a shit were she is. She could be lying dead on the road and I still wouldn't care.

"...Just so you know." With that he left the kitchen and went to the living room.

While washing the dishes I remembered why I started to hate my mother and how it led to me despising her.

It was somewhere around 7.30pm on a Tuesday and I was watching TV when suddenly I realized my parents weren't with me and that was weird as all we did at night was watch TV – it was our 'family time' type of thing to do. So I went to their bedroom and there I saw my mother sitting at the edge of their bed holding something to her left arm, shaking a bit. She looked at me and smiled apologetically, like she had been caught in some forbidden act; then I looked further across and saw my father standing nearly beside her with the house phone in his hands.

"Wh-"

"It's okay Naruto, go back to the living room." My mother said but I wasn't satisfied with a comment like that so I moved from the doorway to get closer to her and there, I saw her right hand covering her left one with a tissue. I wondered why she was doing that and it seemed like she read my mind because she removed the tissue from what I thought was an injury of some sort and there, lay a red line of blood where her arm folds. Funny, I thought. It was like she cut...herself...or something?

"What did you do?" By now I could feel my face was in the form of a scowl.

"I wanted to die but your dad found me in the bathroom." A smile. She had the nerve to smile now of all times...

"Stop talking and put the tissue back to your arm." My father was on the phone by now. I assumed he was calling an ambulance.

"I swear that razor blade was not sharp at all." Why was she smiling? I quickly turned away and went into the bathroom and saw a small blade lying there on top of the bathtub. Too shocked to say anything I quickly made it out of the bathroom and went to my room as calmly as I could. The only thing I could think of was telling someone, this was too much to deal with by myself. I didn't care if it seemed almost cowardly but I just couldn't deal with this by myself. I grabbed my cellphone and started making a text.

'I-I can't take it anymore. This is too much!' Send. The only person I could think of who was trustworthy enough was my best friend Sakura; she was the one who I texted most of the time and I knew she could keep a secret.

BrrrBrrr. My phone vibrated signaling that I got a text. 'Wt do u mean? wt happened?'

'My mum...she tried 2 kill herself'

'What? Omg is she ok? Why did she do that?'

'That's wt I want to know 2! I'm not sure, my dad phoned an ambulance tho..'

'Omg though, are you ok?"

"Yeah, it's just shocking u kno... dnt tell any1!'

'Dw I won't'

'Gdgd haha... the ambulance just got here, I can hear them frm my room, I think they're taking my mum to the hospital or something...'

'That's good then, I'm sure they will take care of her there'

'Yeah, so wuu2? lol' From then on we started a normal conversation which helped me not think about what my mother did to herself. After a while it was nearly 11pm so Sakura and I said goodnight. Just as I was going to go to sleep, my father knocked on my door.

"...Yeah?"

"Can I come in?"

"Yeah..." He opened the door and from the look he gave me I knew he was going to talk about my mother and what she did.

"Are you okay?"

"Why shouldn't I be?"

"It's not everyday that you see your mother in that state and as young as you are I'm sure you don't quite get why she did that but if you want to talk about it at anytime I'm here to help you understand."

"Whatever," I've never really been much of a social person – with my parents and relatives at least. "I'm gonna sleep now."

"Okay, goodnight son."

"Mm." And with that he got out of my room and shut the door.

That night I didn't dream of anything which is not usual for me.

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(The flashback is going to continue onto the next chapter so don't ask me why it cuts there) Ok, so that was the first chapter of How Long Does It Take To Forgive?... Well, quite an emo Naruto eh haha I'm quite scared of how emo I'm writing this fic right now but meh. I've been working on it since 3rd/11/09 (by that I mean that I wrote this chapter then and edited it a bit now) I don't really have a set plot for this story so it might seem like it's going nowhere and I might not update regularly so sorry in advance and by regularly I mean like once every two weeks or something if I can and just so you guys know, this fic has a true story in it – I'll tell you what part of the story is true when I finish this FF so stay tuned lol oh and tell me what you guys think of the first chapter – was it good or bad or just not worth reading, anything that you guys think will help me write better or something, anything. More reviews fire me up and make me write and upload faster so keep those reviews coming haha :D and i wont actually update if there are no reviews. Wow this is some LONG A/N so I'm gonna stop now ok, byee =)