Title: Observing
Characters: Castiel
Summary: Castiel observes a Catholic Mass as he waits for the Winchester Boys
Sound of Bells pealed from St. Peter and Paul's Ukrainian Catholic Church and well-dressed humans entered the church in masse. Castiel stood back watching them flood into the church. He liked the Ukrainian Catholic Church's better they were less ordinate than the other churches he had visited during his time in the meat suit. He entered the Church at last once everyone was inside and took the last seat remaining. He always listened in on their thoughts while in the Lord's House, it made him feel closer to humans and closer to understanding what drove them towards his Father.
He closed his eyes as if in prayer. Their thoughts assaulted him,
God, please make my brother better
God, take care of my wife up there in heaven
God, why did you take my beloved son? He had such a life ahead of him, why'd he have to die to become a hero?
God, please let me come home in one piece from Afghanistan
Please, let my parents accept Troy, it's not like he's a bad person or anything.
He opened his eyes and raised those skywards where his Father resided. He thought about those thoughts he heard. He wondered how a man who lost his wife still came to Church and believed in God, when he lost something so dear to him. He wondered how a mother who lost her son still came to Church and believed in God even when she questioned his motives. He wondered how a young man had the capacity to ask God to let him live through war rather than just arrogantly believe he'll make it home. He wondered how a man could pray for his brother even though there were medical advances. He wondered how young women prayed to God for acceptance of her choices.
Most of all he wondered how humans could still have believed when so many things knocked them down in life. He wondered if he would have that kind of strength.
Then he heard Dean Winchester call for him.