Ashleys p.o.v
Have you ever wanted something you just cant have? I dont mean like a piece of candy but a person you crave to be around and get mad when you dont have their attention? This is how I feel, I want someone that I cant have for many reasons and that is the story of my life. Let me explain I wanted my dads attention when I was younger but I couldnt obtain it becaus he was always on the road singing his life away. Then I wanted my mother to love me after she found out I was gay but instead she just basically bailed on my life but I understand I was never the daughter she truely wanted but she got and she deals with me the best way she can which is by just being absent in my life. That leads me to my new issue which us wanting some one who is unobtainable.
She is unobtainable because she is married...to my cousin aiden and it sucks but I know I could never get between them because I may be many things but I am not a homewrecker. Now heres where the issue begins she has feelings for me to...how do I know this well she has told me through one of our many long text message sessions. Oh ya did I forget to mention we text all day every day and I literally wait by my phone like an idiot for her to text me...I know needy right. I dont know when it became a thing that I developed such strong feelings for this girl but I did and I dont know how to act around her and him because all I want to do is just pull her into me and kiss the hell out of her. However I know she will never leave her husband because she is the type of person who doesnt believe in divorce and it tears me apart because I think we cold be something great but instead I will just let my crush continue to grow until maybe I find someone else to fall for. Why is a crush so
Spencers p.o.v
Why me? Why now? Why did I have to have feelings for someone who isnt my husband and why after 2 years of marriage did this have to happen to me? Life is so messed up sometimes, ecspecially when all I can think about is kissing her soft lips and how when she is just near I smile and act a fool. I dont think she realises how all she has to do is walk into a room and it makes my day so much better. I mean she has this smile that is so damn contagious and it makes you want to smile with her and oh god her laugh is something from the gods. I swear they made it to torture the likes of me and many other people on this planet. It sucks to be me because I want so bad to be with her but I just dont know how to leave my husband when we have built so much with each other and he has been my rock for so many years, without him I am not sure who I really am. I mean we got married so young and I feel like I never really got to live but back then my heart knew what it wanted but now I am not sure what the heck I want.
On one hand there is this man I have been with for many years who has been my better half for years and the on the other hand there is this girl who I am crushing on really hard and I want to know where it could go but I know I never will.
I guess that is the morale of wanting something you cant have/span/p