Chapter 1
'You're not who I thought you were.'
I'm not who he thinks! I'm this girl that he wanted! To talk to, to help through tough times, and show him love. Real love, but now it's over. He's with Vanessa. My so called friend who took the letter from me that was sent from Nate, dated him behind my back, and even said that guys aren't as important as friendship. Pfft, BULL! She is such a liar, I don't know why I decided to be friends with her. Guess me and her have one thing in common. We don't fit in the Upper east side. We're just the Brooklyn girls, that aren't flashy or popular, just plain. We're the outsiders. Now that she has Nate, I'm all alone and it feels cold.
I was standing in the middle of the dance floor, staring at the ground like it was amazing and beautiful. I can't move and blink, which I've noticed. Till something wet leaked down on my cheeks. Tears. I knew I couldn't stay, I don't want anyone to see me crying. It's too embarrassing. So I left, as fast as I can. I was out of the Ball, so relieved, and suddenly I saw a taxi and there were two people also. It was Nate and Vanessa! Vanessa was crying and Nate was… comforting… her. I don't know why I stay and watch, but my legs won't obey my command to move. So I just stay there and watch the most painful scene that will tore me up in pieces.
"I'm so sorry Nate. I just- I was- I love you. I really love you Nate."
Vanessa buried her face on Nate's chest, wetting his trousers from all those tears and shit. Oh, what a drama queen. Nate lifted her chin up with his fingertip and looked her straight in her eyes.
"Vanessa I forgave you for all of this you've done. I love you too and that's all that matters."
What did he say! Did he say he love her and forgave her! Nate…why? After all that we've been through, you chose her. Why? Am I not good enough for you? I care more about you than she does and you just left me for Vanessa. As I stand there cold, shocked, and upset I watched Nate rested his forehead on Vanessa's forehead. They both giggled a bit and then Nate put his hand on her cheek. Oh no don't tell me he's going to… and he kissed her. Sweet and passionate. Warm and soft. Companioned and happy. I'm done here, it's over. I'm done. So I left and went straight home. Didn't even bother to take a taxi, just went home, alone.
I've just made it home. It was quiet, guess dad and Dan aren't home. Which is perfect for my plan. Moving back to Brooklyn. I packed up my clothes, money, and everything I need to survive and never come back. It was selfish of me to leave my dad and Dan behind, but I can't bare to live to see Nate again. It's too painful and hard to keep up. So I do what I have to do and besides I'm 15, close to becoming an adult. So I'm old enough to make my own decisions. As I finished packing my stuff, I left. Didn't leave note or anything. I don't want them to find me and since I'm not going to stop by to visit my mom, who happens to live in Brooklyn herself, I don't want my dad calling her and have her find me. I just wanted to be left alone. When I left my house, I took a taxi.
"Where you heading to miss?"
"Brooklyn."
The driver just nodded and started the engine. As he was driving, I was staring at the window, watching the city lights, people walking, and cars driving by. Can't believe I left, well it's the best for me. Probably dad would be really pissed, but I'll worry about him later. Right now I just need some time alone. To be away from people, away from drama, and away from Nate. So goodbye dad, goodbye Dan, goodbye Serena, goodbye Erik, goodbye Lilly, goodbye Blair, goodbye Chuck, and goodbye Nate.
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