Disclaimer-I don't own, If I did…. well there's no use wishing.
Warnings - Slight shonen ai One-sided Al/Roy
Al's Point of View
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"Snow"
I sighed and gazed out the window at the scene that was laid out before me. Outside the sky was gray, and darkening rapidly. It had begun to snow again, adding to the inch that had fallen the previous night. Snow.
As beautiful as it was, the sky had to be gray for it to fall. The sun couldn't shine when it snowed. And for that it was beautiful.
Why am I doing this to myself? I thought. I'm only making myself feel worse.
Tears unwillingly slipped down my cheeks. Why am I forcing these memories to resurface? Why am I torturing myself like this? Why can't I ever be happy!?
Sure, to everyone else I am happy along with hyper and enraged, always an extreme, always one or the other. Even Al has grown used to my little façade, so used to it in fact; he has forgotten that I am pretending.
But how could I not be, when my entire life, my existence, my whole being has always been filled with pain and suffering. I tried to forget all those memories. I tried so hard! And then one small thing brings everything back.
I hate having to fake my life! I hate having to pretend and hold back my tears. All I want is to be able to cry on your shoulder. And to have you understand and comfort me, to cry with me even. Because I know you are holding back too.
Truthfully, I never thought I'd have to deal with all this.
I sniffed and more hot tears slid down my cheeks. I never thought I would fall in love either. Maybe that's the real cause behind this. It's because I fell in love with you. Because I saw the sadness and painful past behind your eyes as well, and I knew we were more similar than you would have liked me to believe.
You would say I was too young to be in pain like this, to truly understand things, and way too young to truly be in love. I only wish I could agree with you.
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M.Y.