Hello all you fellow Rushers out there! I'm new to the Big Time Rush fandom; I really only started reading BTR fanfics back in like May, and I've had so many ideas. Soo, I decided it was finally time to post a story of my own. About all four boys, because I just love them so much. Too bad they aren't stopping in Colorado all summer! I'm so bummed!

Anyhow this is one of my first real angst stories and friendship/bromance (no slash this time guys :() besides one other I did for another fandom. Which means don't be afraid to leave your opinion and comments as a review. I'll accept anything, even helpful critiscm to improve my writing. It's my goal to major in writing one day when I'm not in Highschool so any help I can get will be great.

Now I don't have a Beta at all, so please excuse any mistakes. I try to throughouly go throw each chapter myself, but hey, even I can't catch it all. So again, please excuse any mistakes. I'm new to all this, I'm not sure what Beta's are or anything.

So enjoy this mutlichapter angst-y, bromanc-y story! I hope you all like it!

Disclaimer: See if I owned the boys of BTR, they would do much more than just be amazing singers :). So I don't own anything but this plot and any OC's.

Long rant DONE!

Prologue

"Waitin' on weekends it's Friday night

We gonna get dressed up

For the time of our lives

Let's get it started, started, started

'Cause I've been feeling down, down, down"

-Big Night

June 5th, 2012

"DOGS!" The bellow was loud, louder than it really should have been, so naturally every person in the room jumped. It wasn't unusual though. They really shouldn't be so surprised anymore; it happened practically every day of their new lives. The four boys of Big Time Rush groaned in unison rubbing their foreheads – which they managed to smash into each other – on the ground. Logan was the first to recover, not wanting to be yelled at again.

He sighed and stood up, dusting off the trade mark sweater vest he wore and tan khaki pants. Looking down at the other three he held a hand out to anyone who would take it. Logan was always the quickest to recover from almost anything. He was the quickest to recover from small injuries, colds, and surprise. He just wasn't the quickest to recover from…pain. On the inside.

"Yeah Gustavo?" He asked patiently, as the other three got up grumbling under their breaths in annoyance. He could have sworn he heard a mutter, "All bark but no bite." and sent a sharp glare to Kendall. Which immediately shut the leader up. Logan was probably the only one who could shut the blonde up with one look. Although, Logan could probably shut anyone up with that one look if he wanted to. Without trying, Logan had a solid glare that chilled even molten lava.

"Listen up and heel dogs," Gustavo began waving his hands around. Behind him Kelly rolled her eyes as he began yet another one of his famous rants. Here we go again. "You four have done…alright so far. Becoming popular with a worldwide concert was only the beginning of your new fame. Now it's time to let your fans see more of The. Big. Time. Rush." By now the four teenage boys were curious and they listened to everything Gustavo had to say.

"By that I mean it's time to let the dogs off leash." The larger man grimaced through his costumed shades. Kendall on the other hand looked very much satisfied. James and Carlos couldn't stop the grins rising along their face. Even Logan had to raise his eyes brow in enjoyment. It wasn't every day the boys got even a little bit of freedom. "BUT, if you ruin this, I don't even care if you are famous worldwide; I will be the END of you four!" He yelled (once again louder than necessary).

"What he means," Kelly yanked on Gustavo's sleeve shutting the older man up instantly. That was the thing the boys loved about Kelly, besides how kind she could be. She was probably the only one who could stop Gustavo's rants and screaming. The only one. "Is, you boys have a nationwide interview and concert to be broadcasted across the entire North American region on Friday. But this time, you four are in control of the entire interview."

Four loud and bright cheers erupted throughout apartment 2J, all the way down to the PalmWoods pool. The four boys were not only happy they could run this themselves, but that also meant no biscuits. Now no biscuits were a very blissful thing for the boys. The four simultaneously shuddered at the memory of trying to impress Deke. Along with those two annoying people in research and development buzzing them every question.

"But boys," Kelly reluctantly broke the mild celebration to finish. Logan peered at her with even more curiosity. But? Buts can't be good, can they? "This isn't an interview for Big Time Rush." Confusion would be the best word to describe the atmosphere then. Or maybe bewilderment. How could it not be about Big Time Rush? "What I mean, is this interview is about YOU guys."

It was at that moment the four boys chose to tilt their heads to the left at the same time, just like real dogs would.

"Dogs!" Barked Gustavo once more. "This interview is to show the fans the four of mah dogs that make up Big Time Rush. Not mah band, this time."

"See the fans have constantly brought up they would like to hear more about the four of you guys. Individually and together, just not as the band." Kelly cut in with a proper explanation. "This interview is to help promote you four and show the world Kendall, Carlos, James and Logan. Not Big Time Rush." She was quiet for a moment and so were the boys. They hadn't said a word since the news. "So this is going to be a personal interview about you four."

Logan turned to James and Carlos, Kendall also turned to them. One look passed through the four boys silently. It was if they could communicate with their eyes and body language. Finally all four nodded, with bright white smiles. Kendall stepped up.

"So, interview huh?" He laughed. "Well tell the world to be ready to know the real side of Big Time Rush, because we're in."

Friday came rolling around faster than any of the boys anticipated. Excitement radiated off all four of them, but something was underlining that feeling. A small wave of anticipation and nerves were settled in the bottoms of their minds and body. The two words rang through each of their minds.

Personal Interview.

James was staring at his own reflection in the mirror, as he dragged his lucky comb through his shorter brunette hair for the umpteenth time. If one glanced at him from afar they would believe with his flawless smile, combing his perfect hair, James was more than ready to be interviewed. They would say he looked absolutely perfect and was beyond confident. Though if someone looked close, or someone who knew him, would know James was actually very nervous. One would see how his hand trembled slightly, shaking the comb in his hair. They would also notice the pained look in the corners of his eyes.

He took a deep breath running the comb through his already perfect hair one last time when a figure stood in the doorway. No words were exchanged for a few long moments. There was no need to exchange words, they already knew how each other felt.

"Nervous huh?" Logan finally mustered out. James chuckled dryly turning to the boy in the door way with a shaky smile, that would have fooled anyone else. But this was James' best friend they were talking about. Logan knew practically everything about the taller teen.

"Aren't we all?" James muttered. The two made their way towards the kitchen where everyone else seemed to all be hanging out in. Carlos had his mouth stuffed with pancakes and syrups, barely acknowledging his friends. His helmet however was resting on his lap instead of on his head. A nervous habit the Latino picked up years ago.

"So, today's the day huh?" Kendall brought up casually after finishing his pancakes. The other three tried to nod eagerly, because they were excited in actuality for the most part. In fact the only reason the boys weren't jumping off the walls in various moods of joy, was because of one little thought.

The fact that this was a personal interview.

Some secrets were just better left unsaid. But some…maybe some needed to be said.

James took his time to casually glance at the clock before letting off a soft smile. It was half-past-eight right now. The interview was in San Diego at 10:30 sharp. They needed to get moving with wardrobe and make-up and set up. For a second all four boys met one another's eyes.

"Well, it's time we should be heading out. Isn't it?" Kendall stood up clapping his hand. Instant leader mode flowed through him and breezed through the others. "Let's show the worlds who Big Time Rush is, and make this and interview they'll never forget." Knowing the boys, they would somehow make this interview one the station would never forget.

"Right." James grinned taking a spot next to his blond friend. Carlos and Logan followed in suit.

"What if- what if…" Carlos bit his lip unsure if anyone else was thinking what was running through his mind. Kendall's eyes softened at Carlos' expression for a moment. His heart ached just a little already knowing what was running through the younger boys mind already.

"What if they ask a question and – and it comes up."

"Well," Kendall sighed slinging an arm around James. Then the other around Carlos. Logan also stepped beside Carlos, raising his own arm around Carlos. "We if…it does come up, then we take it. And the interview goes how the interview goes. But don't feel like you have to tell them everything if you can't. That goes for all of us." He looked into the eyes of each and every band member. From dark brown, to hazel to chocolate eyes. All were saying the same thing. I agree.

With that the boys each stepped forward with their right foots and then with their left foots. Leaning on each other, knowing they would always have each other's back.

"Alright we're live in two minutes. Two minutes people, places. Camera 3 on the center, camera 1, get ready!"

Carlos felt his knees bouncing impatiently as air time came closer and closer. His helmet was lying once again on his lap – the producers refused to let the teen wear that during their show – and his fingers were drumming nervously on the couch. To his right were Kendall, Logan and finally James on the other end of the couch. The other boys were chattering away with the host and hostess and other managers, wide smiles glued to their faces. Carlos had his own smile on. He was honestly happy to be here, to allow fans to see the real Carlos Garcia. No matter what though, everyone got nervous just before show time.

"Here we go. And, 5…4…3…2…" He pointed right at the host and hostess and a camera man to their right faced them. The crowd erupted into applause in front of them, on their feet eagerly clapping. Carlos and the other's grins became so wide their faces hurt.

"And hello America. A hello also to everywhere else in the North American region. This is being podcasted live all over isn't it." The hostess, Julia Warner, laughed pettily at her co-host. The man, Robert Williams, smiled in return with a nod. Slowly the crowd calmed down on cue, sitting down again.

"It sure is. Doesn't feel like it at the moment does it?" Robert chortled. The BTR boys laughed in pursuit. "For those just tuning in, my name is Robert Williams of the 411 Of The Morning show."

"I'm Julia Warner, and today we are with rising pop star boy band Big Time Rush, whose recent album Elevate and recent world tour has certainly made the boys a phenomenon all over. From their concerts, to the album artwork all the way right to their cute faces and clothes." The hostess giggled receiving multiple squeals from girls in the audience. "Now boys, why don't you introduce yourself to those few who don't know who you are."

"Well, hello there." James said, in his practical flirty voice. He flashed a grin to the audience and hostess who erupted in squeals. "I'm James Diamond."

Logan was next. He smiled shyly waving at the crowd earning quiet 'Awww's all in the audience. "Hey, I'm Logan Mitchell."

"Hello to all you Rushers out there, I would be Kendall Knight." Kendall laughed wiggling his bushy eyebrows. Multiple claps came out for the blond pop star.

"Hey there party people! I am Carlos Gracia!" Carlos waved energetically at the audience and at the camera, his smile never leaving his bold face. Through the crowd a couple, "I love you Carlos!" broke out.

"And we are Big Time Rush." The boys said together. Leaning back, relaxed they let out a chuckle. "Like that, we've been practicing." The audience broke into small laughters.

"I believe we all have." The host smiled shifting in his chair. "Now boys I hear you just completed your first tour, worldwide?"

"Yes, it was just unbelievable that we went all across the world spreading our music to Rushers. We just got back just under a month ago." Kendall laid one leg on top of the other with a far away look in his eyes. "To think of all the places we got to go to and just be able to sing and make music."

"Yeah. I mean we went to London, Paris, Tokyo. Berlin, Vancouver. Just all over." James continued to talk where Kendall left off. "And that was only some of the places we went to."

"Nice very nice boys. Now to get to know you four boys. That's why you're here after all, isn't it?To get to know Kendall, James, Logan and Carlos." Julia crossed her ankles leaning forward. "You're all best friends correct?"

"Of course." Logan answered immediately. "Actually these guys are more like my brothers. We've been through so much together and all our lives. I couldn't imagine anyone better." He smiled at his best friends who grinned back. But Logan couldn't shake the uneasy feeling of what she was bound to ask next.

"Well why, don't you tell the story of how you met? For everyone to know." Julia and Robert smiled warmly unaware how the innocent question would affect the boys.

Immediately silence followed. Not one of the boys bothered to start the story. In fact none of the boys bothered to move by then. Their eyes were glued to the floor, as if that was suddenly so much more interesting. An awkward silence rand through and the hosts smiles faltered for a second. Quiet and frantic whispers broke out not only in the audience but also behind the cameras and management.

"Uh boys?"

Slowly each teen-heartache looked at one another without saying a word. Minutes passed before one by one they slowly nodded. Logan swallowed thickly hugging his arms. Carlos and Kendall leaned back in the couch with tight smiles that were obviously forced. James ran a hand through his hair once and breathed out.

"So, you want the full story? Of how we met and why we're so close?" He asked shakily.

Julia nodded almost hesitant. "Y-Yes we would love to know how you boys have such and incredible and strong bond."

Kendall sighed raising his head up. "Well, you see, you tend to become close to those who were a part of what you faced for over a year." He took a deep breath to steady not only his nerves but the others. "You tend to depend on the people who survived, with you, through a kidnapping."

LE GASP! _

So that was the prologue. Please notice the date in the beginning of each chapter, because starting from the next chapter on, it will be in the past. So pay attention so no confusion arrises!

Did I do okay? It is the prologue after all, believe me more angst and love will come soon!

BTW I am going to put lyrics from any BTR song that I believe fits the chapter, sort of as a summary or maybe opinion of the mood of the chapter and the boys. I'm not using a different song EVERY chapter because I'll have too many songs. So some songs may be repeated but no lyrics will EVER be repeated. Comprende?

Anyhow until next time, I'm off. Leave a review! They make me sing and dance ;)