ColdCrossfade (Ariko's POV)
Looking
back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never
stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I
cannot win
I was sitting quietly listening to my CD player. 'What an ironic song.' I thought quietly, 'I didn't think about what was going to say to Jen, I just said it and I hurt her.'
You
are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug
that gets me high
Jenna had been my first friend for a long time. The first time we met I told her she wasn't going to be my friend just a partner...I messed up. She turned into my best friend. A comfort zone.
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold;
I was just so nasty to you Jenna, I shouldn't have been. I'm not mad at you. It's those damn vampires...
To
you I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You
could see me stand on my own again
I've been lieing to you about other things too and I can see why you're angry. I should tell you the whole story of why I hate vampires maybe then you'll understand the new plans. Maybe then I wouldn't hurt anymore.
Cause
now I can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something
strong like a drug that got me high
Maybe I can show you those memories...I wonder what you would do...You'd stay with me though. I know that much about you.
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
Yeah. That's what I will do. I'll apologze and explain why this happened. I hope you can forgive me.
I never meant to be so cold
I
never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I
keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I shouldn't have yelled. Especailly not at you. My only friend. I'm just jealous. Of them; of the vampires. And the perfect lives they have with their loving family. It's not very fair, is it Jenna? I shouldn't be like this.
I never
really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I
guess for me there's just no hope
I never meant to be so cold
Jenna will you still be my friend? Even after all this? I never meant to yell or call you worthless. I'm just as bad as the things we hunt aren't I? I'm sorry.
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
I came through the woods only to find my best friend being hugged by the vampire Bella. I couldn't help but stare at my friend, feeling my expression twisting quietly, "Find comfort in the enemy's arms right Jenna?" I hissed. My body shook violently and I could feel the blood rushing to my face in anger. Jenna wiggled out of Bella's embrace, eyes wide and vulnerable for once. "Ariko, please," she started worriedly. I turned quickly and stormed off.
What
I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never
meant to be so cold
I never meant to be so cold
This is my punishment.