Hello guys! Thank you for being extremely patient with me, I had this whole book written but my hard-drive crashed and I had to re-write it. I'm going chapter by chapter again, and I am horrible at keeping a schedule for my work. This story is a sequel to Save Me, which I would ask you to read for if you haven't to truly understand the story. This is a 'sneak peek' sort of a chapter to show you guys that I am working on it. Enjoy guys! I do not own the Teen Titans.
The sun has long since risen, but I cannot bring myself to get out of bed. I decided to spend this time reflecting. I didn't know it, but in the six years I have been a Titan I met the love of my life. Six months ago I lost her. I was an idiot, I got intimidated and decided to play it safe with another girl. This other girl happened to be the love of my life's best friend.
The girl who I love more than anything in this world is also the most powerful sorceress in the whole world. Her father was known as Trigon; he was determined to end the world on her birthday, but we stopped him. She stopped him. I mean, I helped but I mostly just told her the truth that only she had the power to beat him. She was so brave; I don't think any of my fellow Titans could have done what she did. Her name was Raven.
She was always the outcast of the group, she thought she had to remain emotionless so make sure her father could never be released. Or that her powers could never get out of control since she too is a demon. Reflecting back, I believe this may have been the reason I never decided to pursue any type of feelings that I had for her. She would never let me in, granted my father is basically the same way. I always swore that I would never become like him, that I would follow my emotions and allow myself to feel, I don't want to be driven by vengeance.
Now the girl that I decided was "safer" is Starfire. She clearly always had a thing for me and long, long ago I had a thing for her. She kissed me upon first meeting me, which I later learned was to help her communication. She can absorb knowledge of a language throw lip contact, but she speaks in a form of broken English. It has gotten incredibly better though.
Everyone always thought Star and I would end up together, I always thought my friend Beast Boy would end up with Raven. I valued Raven too much to ruin anything they could potentially have and her happiness. Beast Boy fell in-love with a girl named Tara, I should have taken that as a sign to make a move on Raven. I didn't. Soon Tara was gone, and I was back in this weird Friend-zone that I put myself in. Nothing ever happened with Raven and Beast Boy, but during a mission in Tokyo I gave into the pressure and the sexual frustration and asked Starfire out. Well, more like we kissed in front of everyone and Raven ended up running away. I then became a major tool and yelled at her.
There was a mission that caused us to go back to Titans Tower, and then straight to my home. Wayne's manor, or the Batcave. Batman, my father, needed us to help round up criminals who got loose after the black gate prison fire and then the Arkham prison break. The Joker was behind it all, as usual. There were more fights with Raven, we have a bond that allows us to enter each other's minds at will, but she learned to put up a wall so I couldn't get in. This drove me crazy because I could never know how she was feeling. I ended up kissing her, more than once but guilt ate away at her because I wasn't man enough to end things with Starfire. She left me a note, along with everyone else on the team. Four weeks of endless searching we found her.
But she was dead. I lost her.