Main Pairing: None

Summary: "I promise to remain true to you, in sickness and in health, for as long as we both shall live." Sometimes mistakes happen, and for Kira and Lacus, moving on is one of the hardest things to do.

Warning: Contains course language, and mature thyme. Not recommended for anyone under 14 years of age.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed/ Destiny; they belong to Sunrise, Bandai and Sotsu Agency. No trademark infringement intended and no money was made from this fan fiction. Any similarity to names or events to any individual or other works is coincidental.

No Yesterdays

Chapter One: Relationships Are Like Broken Glass

"I'm so sorry."

Ignoring my call he continued to pack his belongings, and I helped him.

I helped fold his cloths and place them inside his single suitcase I helped because it was the only thing I could think too do, every move I made was mechanical.

I could feel the tears dripping down my face as I held one of his shirts in my hands, he was leaving, and I couldn't stop him.

"Please…" I begged.

He looked up at me; so many emotions ran through those eyes that I love so much.

Anger, resentment, confusion, but most all…hurt.

Continuing with his packing he didn't spare me a glance.

"There is nothing left to say."

I winced at his words; I wished that I could just go back in time and change everything. I wouldn't have done what I did. I wouldn't have betrayed his trust, I would have been a good wife, I would have been better to him.

"How can you say that? After all we've been through?" I asked my voice was shaky and it hurt to look at him. It hurt to look at the man I love so dearly, the man who was about to walk out of my life.

He shut is suitcase and turned to look at me. "It's not that hard to understand Lacus. I thought you were happy with me, I thought….you loved me."

"I do!"

I was shouting and my tears continued to fall, I didn't care that I was practically begging, I didn't care that I was so pathetic. I just needed him…to stay.

He glared, his handsome face contorting with heart ache.

"If you loved me then you wouldn't have done something so cruel. You wouldn't have slept with him."

I gasped, the air leaving my lungs as I shook with every word he through at me. But he didn't sound angry, just hurt, that's what stung most, the fact that he still loved me enough not to be angry. Never ever had he raised his voice to me, never had he ever called me a name, he was perfect. He was everything that I couldn't manage to be.

"I know, what I did was wrong but…"

"Do you still love him?" a small voice, like one of a child.

It was a hard question, one that I couldn't answer with out hurting him further. If I said yes, he would be heart broken. If I said no he would be confused of why I would betray him in such a way with a man I did not care for.

"I love you more." I could manage that, there was no hesitation. I loved him more than life itself.

Tears welled in his eyes but he stopped them. Somehow I wished that he would cry, so I could comfort him but…he never cried for himself, only others. That's why he was able to stop the tears before they broke his barriers.

"I'm leaving. I'll be back for my things in a few days." He spoke clearly but his eyes never left our bed, where he found us together.

"Please, just stay until tomorrow morning, what am I suppose to tell the kids when you don't come down for breakfast?" I hated doing this, using our children as a bargaining tool.

"I'm not disappearing Lacus. I'll come by to see them of course; nothing will keep me away from them. But I won't stay and live my life in a loveless marriage for them. It wouldn't be fair to them. They are still young, they won't fully understand for a few more years."

Years…

I sobbed. "I didn't mean it. It was a mistake, that's all. It meant nothing!" I cried. I went to him and hid my face in his chest, but he didn't wrap his arms around me, he didn't console me, he just stood there. Like a stone statue.

"I have to go." He whispered and left the bedroom.

I remained still for several seconds. I looked at our bed, the sheets were tangled and messy, the pillows where scattered on the floor. My cloths which I hadn't put back on (I had only pulled on my bath robe) were everywhere. I couldn't cry anymore, I had done a terrible thing.

"Kira, wait!"

Rushing through the halls and down the stairs I came to a stop at the front door where I spotted Kira and someone else who I thought had left well over an hour ago.

"A-Athrun, what are you still doing here?" I could hear the worry in my voice. Kira had his back to me, he was staring at Athrun, I couldn't see his face but from Athruns reactions, he was either very angry or he looked like he was about to cry.

Athrun, now fully clothed, looked at my husband with a mixture of shame and worry. "Kira…you don't have to leave."

I watched as Kira clenched his fists, his knuckles holding the suitcase handle turning white. I silently begged for Kira to listen to Athrun, he was his best friend after all.

"Athrun, please…let me leave."

Athrun glared at Kira and took a step forward; he was right up to his face.

"I'm not letting you leave her like this."

I heard a sound from Kira; I couldn't identify it but is almost sounded like a growl coming with in chest.

"You have a family Kira; think about what you're walking out on. Two handsome sons, a little girl, a beautiful wife, do you know how many men are envious of that?"

"Like you?" Kira spat. I had never heard such a tone from him; it was dark, holding no emotion but hostility.

"Kira…" I said approaching but Athrun held up a hand, telling me to stay back.

Athrun took a firm stance but backed away a step.

"Yes, I am envious. Cagalli…she doesn't want kids. Her schedule just can't make room for a child just yet."

"So you decided to sleep with my wife?"

I winced at that comment, I never felt dirtier in my entire life. I didn't want to be with Athrun, I love Kira.

"It's not like that Kira…" I whispered and hugged him from behind. I must have startled him because he stiffened slightly.

Kira turned out of my embrace. "Why did you two do it? At least answer me that before I make my decision…" The look on his face was different from anything I had ever seen before, his eyes held nothing. "Was I such a terrible husband, friend?" Kira asked looking at both of us.

A minute went by before I broke the silence.

"I was…lonely…you were so busy with Orbs military that I felt that you never had time for me anymore. You come home from work, and then spend time with the kids, but when was the last time you spent any real time with me? We had sex but it felt mechanical, like you felt moreas an obligation than a desire." I explained. "Then Athrun started coming over more, then one night you weren't home and…."

I felt the tears again, keeping my head down I tried to avoid eye contact. I would not look at him; I couldn't look at someone who in no way deserved what I had done to them.

"I needed Lacus just as much as she needed me Kira. I love her."

That's what stopped everything. I could feel the tension in the room build and my heart stop. I looked up to see Kiras face completely blank, he eyes were shadowed by his hair, but I could still make out the faint glow of his gaze shining with anger.

"What about my sister?" Kira asked his voice was sharp, a voice that belonged to a General not my Kira.

"I plan on telling her everything. We'll have to get a divorce and then…" Athrun looked at me. I shook my head no, I knew what he wanted.

Every time he came over he looked at my children longingly. When they ran up to Kira, laughing when he picked them up or ruffled their hair, he would always look jealous. Athrun wanted a family, something that Cagalli could not give him at the moment.

I just kept shaking my head no. I wouldn't let this happen, Athrun wanted a family, and with time he grew to want mine and Kiras. He loved our children but he was the uncle, not the father. I wouldn't be with Athrun, maybe there was a time when I would, but not now, not when I had Kira in my life.

"I'm sorry."

It was the only thing I could say. Sorry to Athrun, I knew how much he wanted a family, but I couldn't give him mine. Sorry to Kira, whose love I betrayed, and I could never regain his trust completely.

Kiras looked confused but then when he looked into my eyes and then back to Athruns pleading face, he knew.

"You bastard!" Kira screamed and lunged at Athrun.

Everything happened so quickly. I saw Kira grab Athruns collar and bring his left fist back too punch Athrun in the jaw.

I screamed as Athrun staggered when Kira let him go, only to recover and lung back. He managed to knock Kira back into the wall but Kira blocked a punch headed for his face. Brining his other arm up he managed to hit Athrun in the stomach, knocking the wind out of him.

"Stop it!" I shouted, both men weren't listening, Athrun recovered again and made a move to hit Kira in the chest, when Kira blocked Athrun managed to hit Kira in the mouth.

Blood dripping from a cut lip Kira attacked again both of them ended up on the floor, grappling for a moment before Kira managed to flip Athrun onto his back. I had never seen Kira fight before, but suddenly I was fearful for Athruns safety, Kira could kill him. I was sure of that, Kira had received formal training from Orb once he became General, Athrun was a trained soldier as well, but my husband had the upper hand, he was angry. He had however not gone Berserk, I was thankful for that.

Rushing over I seized Kira around the shoulders as he continued to punch Athrun.

"Kira! Please, stop it!" I yelled trying to pull him away from Athrun, but he didn't move.

He only stopped when a cry came from the top of the stair case.

"Daddy?"

Authors Note: Taking on a new approach…

1) I've never written in the first person for so long before and I'm finding it a bit of a challenge. I figure that if I try it out with a couple of short chapters that I should be able to grasp the method in no time…I hope.

2) This story is not going to be very long…5 chapters max…maybe not even that much.

3) As far as Kiras and Athurns little fight scene I think I made it a bit too one sided. I'm assuming that if Kira got some formal training that he would be able to hold his own with Athrun. Plus, remember Kira is very angry at this point in time.

4) To clear a few things up, yes Athrun and Lacus were having relations and Kira walked in on them.

5) This story takes place about 8 years after Gundam Seed Destiny, so the characters are 26-27 still young, but old enough to have a family.

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