This is an AU where instead of Duncan cheating on Courtney with Gwen, he cheats on her with Heather. I don't own Total Drama
I stood out in the moonlight. I want to cry, I want to scream, I want to feel, but I cant. I've just always kept my emotions bottled up inside of me. I'd rant like hell in my room alone, and just think about how great it would be when I got the nerve to actually scream that rant at the actual person it was directed at. However, I still continue to scream at me bedroom wall and let myself continue to disintegrate into almost nothingness.
"It's not your fault you know." I whipped my head around, snapping out of my rolling thoughts and emotions to see Gwen standing about 10 feet behind me. I shook my head grabbed my wrist, wringing it in my hand. I couldn't say anything to her. If I did, it would all come out one of my horrible rants about everything. Or I'd just break down on her shoulder. As the seconds ticked by I figured it would probably be the later. I know that's what she wanted me to do, but I couldn't take it out on her. She's the one person who hasn't betrayed me or screwed me over that's actually being there for me.
"Courtney." I could feel her breath on my neck now. "Its ok." She hugged me from behind, letting her presence be a source of comfort I hadn't know I needed. I always liked hugs, and found them comforting. Real hugs though, with actual feelings through them. When people are sort of forcing themselves, it feels empty, but when they mean it, its like you can feel it. You can feel the care and comfort resonate off of their body into yours.
"Gwen, I can't." I felt the tears in my eyes, heavy drops that couldn't be blinked back. I looked to the ground and let them drop, hoping their wouldn't be more, even though I knew there would be. Giving in I turned around and collapsed on her shoulder.
It would never be enough. Nothing would ever be enough. I'll never be able to keep myself together forever. I'll always need somebody. It's not that I hate people, well actually I do but I just hate how disloyal most people are. So many people are there ready to give you everything, and turn away a second later. I pulled away to look into her deep dark eyes. I know Gwen would never abandon me, but that doesn't mean something wont happen.
She brushed away my tears, and wordlessly took my hand and lead me to the plane. I could see the beautiful setting sun in Greece. I'd never thought it would be that majestic. Gwen squeezed my hand before leading me back to the plane. We were in loser class, but we'd eliminated Heather, which was very much a win. We propped up against each other and I fell asleep putting aside my incomplete emotional thoughts and doing my best to ignore the world around me.
Ok, I know that nobody actually got eliminated in Greeces pieces, but hey. I had to give Courtney SOMETHING to smile about. I'm not that cruel. Also, I started dabbling on another story about Courtney a while back. Its actually Duncney. But hey. Tell me if that sounds like something that might interest you guys!