Time
I'm so tired of being here, surpressed by all my childish fears.
If you have to leave, then I wish that you would just leave.
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.
These wounds don't seem to heal, this pain is just to real, there is just too much that time cannot erase…
My Immortal, Evanescence.
She is dead.
Time has taken her small body, quickly from my grasp.
Why wasn't I there? Why didn't I stop her? Why didn't I get more than a broken nose? Why couldn't time have taken me? Instead of the beautiful and innocent.
Why are the heartless left on the earth to wallow in their own self-pity, when the truthful lay in heaven, unable to shield us from the cruel world?
The power of time, it sweeps us away in a flood, quick and merciless. Taking our lives from under of feet, each day pushing us to the edge.
Time ticks away fast, as I call her name, shake her. Even though, I know the inevitable. She was always on a knife's edge and I pushed her off, cutting her where it hurts, into the black vortex. Out of this cruel world into the next, too early, too soon.
Time had done too much to her already, I could not erase it, but I wish I could erase what I did.
Ambition, greed and lust.
They are my enemies my friends, they helped my time speed up.
I am cursed to live with burden of knowledge and am a sucker for power.
I didn't try to protect her from time, I didn't listen to the little voice in the back of my head.
When one protector was dead, I drew back too little, too late.
Again time plays it's innocent music box, I know when the music stops, so does time.
I can't go back, I can't go forward.
This is real life not school, when if you make a mistake you can go back and try again,
Nobody can be brought back from the dead.
I must live with fate, that I become the most hated and loved.
Loved by all, hated by my own brother who knows the truth.
I am too much a coward to admit it was my fault, even when we met up, both regretted too much to see the spell that had finished her.
My excuse was my veil much like the one she would have entered, the one that separates the living and the dead.
I don't know much about why time acts, however this I do know:
Time takes lives before it's meant to.
Time cannot be changed.
Time leaves the guilty heart forever more.
It was my fault time took her away.
However, the most obvious is that time has now taken me, standing, the way my brave sister Ariana did. When she died, I realized she had sacrificed herself to save me, in a twisted fantasy.