This is Hawkeye's thoughts after the episode with the gay private who Frank wants to get chucked out of the army. I know, I should be finishing something else. But oneshots are easier.
Yes, Trap, isn't there something in your past you want kept hidden?
You got scared, didn't you? You though I'd tell Ferret Face what happened between us when we were younger. You thought I'd tell him how Private Weston wasn't the only one in camp to have… done that with another man.
After all, we used to do it rather a lot.
I remember how shocked you were to see me here. After all, our last meeting wasn't exactly amicable. I kicked and screamed and yelled when you said it was over, but you still walked out. Walked out for a life with a wife and kids. Over the years I came to forgive you. Who wouldn't choose a beautiful woman over an insecure, lanky, man?
I loved you so much back then. Still do. But I've never said anything to you about it. I couldn't destroy your life like that. When you asked, I just said I'd moved on. What a lie. Those women- none of them could ever compare to you.
Deep down, I've always been kinda scared that these feelings for you are a kind of perversion. That's why I jumped down Frank's throat when he confirmed my doubts. And why it was so easy to get mad at you.